Lashing Out

We were talking again. I fuck everything up!!!!! God why am I such a fucking bitch???????????? He decided to trust me again! I self loave myself so much that i just had to make fun of his friends. Why do I do that? I know it will make him mad and triggor me!!!!! God iI fucking hate myself so much right now

"Fucking kill yourself bitch! You irritate people to the to the point where they would rather turn the gun on themselves. He hates you!!!!! The only reason he talks to you is because you're easy!!!!"

I fucking done!