I Think I Love Him

"Its just not fair..."
"Listen, son I know its not fair, but lifes not fair. If it was we'd be back in Nashville and not on our way to Colorado."
"Yea...why did we have to leave dammit..."
"Watch your mouth!"
"But I left behind all my friends and my job and our house!!!"
"And you'll make new friends, you can find a new job, and your gonna love the new house. Now stop complaining and lets just get to the house."
I sighed, Arguing with my mother was like trying to talk to a cricket, all they do is chirp and chirp and chirp and they never stop or wait or listen. They just never shut up...And my fathers like a sheep. Always following the leader, but at least my dads a smart sheep, when the wolf comes around, hes out of there.
The car was cramped with our suite cases and furniture. It smelt like fast food and sweat from the packed car. Whoever suggested we drive to Colorado from Nashville is a fucking idiot.

I guess I better start off telling you why I'm moving. My dad was a teacher/scientist back in Nashville, back in April he was offered a job to come work in some science facility all the way in Colorado. It paid better my dad said, had better workers my dad said, a more functioning lab my dad said...Then again my dad said a lot of things, most that where full of crap, or what my mom would tell him to say. I don't think he's ever said anything without her approval fist. She only agreed to this move because it offered her a job at the neighboring high school. My new high school. Colorado's South Hill Rogers High School. I don't quiet fancy the idea of having my hated mother teach me my most hated subject in a school I'm destine to hate in some stupid hated state...If you couldn't tell, I hate this hole situation.
"These situations, are irrelevant now!"
God I love Falling In Reverse. Good band. Now that's songs gonna be stuck in my head for the rest of the ride there...

I don't like the new house. Even tho I've never seen it, I'm sure ill hate it just the same. I guess I better tell you about myself so where not strangers.

So my names Anthony Adams Carter, I'm nothing special. Sorta long/short blackish brown hair, I have what you would call Heterochromia. My eyes are two different colors. Green in the left and Brown in the right. But thanks to my Aunt Kelly (Who thanks to this move I wont ever get to see again probably..) got my parents to buy me colored contacts. So I have full Blue eyes now. Its deceiving, but at least I don't look STUPID, I don't need to get bullied here to for something stupid like having different colored eyes. Sometimes the brown eye looks black and It kind of freaks me out, but I just brush it off...I was bullied and picked on threw all my years of school and even outside school. At my job, at parks or at the mall. Even in the movies. I don't know why people hate me so much. I try to just sneak by in the shadows. I don't bother people, I'm quiet, I still like to have fun but how can you when around every corner is someone who wants to ruin your day? So maybe this move could help fix that problem. I not one of those "emo" kids you hear about. I'm just me, and it sucks that people call me one from the way I dress and the music I listen to. Well I have the right to be able to enjoy Montly Crue and Tiger Jaws without being labeled don't I? Well enough bitching about things that don't matter. Anyways, I'm pretty tall, 5''7 going to be 5''8 or maybe 9 soon or whatever. I'm skinny, but still work out enough to get myself a six pack and some nice arms. My bodies a thing I can be proud of sort of. I'm told that I have soft skin, and I guess I'm super smart, just not in science but I always have the top grades in my class...Or at least I try to. I wish I didn't because I'm always confused. And by confused...I mean sexually. I'm not gay...but I'm not straight, or at least I don't think so. I know I'm not bisexual or transgendered...I have no intentions to become a drag queen. Not transsexual either. I'm not homophobic or homosexual. I'm not heterosexual or metrosexual. I don't have anything against gay and lesbian people. I don't hate them, I think there alright. I don't let sexual preference change how I see of feel about people, It just doesn't matter to me. But I don't know if I'm gay or straight. My old teacher always use to tell me:
"Anthony is simple!! Do you think sexually of boys or girls?"
and that's what everyone said, my friends, consolers, therapists, teachers. What they always asked. But just like the question, my answer was always the same.
"I don't know"
I've never really sat down to think about it, but in reality I have, for hours. And to help fixate my mind on the tasks at hand, I've come up with my answer:
I just don't like anyone.
My heart doesn't yearn for the male or female sex. I don't find a problem with liking other guys, I think its fine and we should have the right to like whoever we want. Regardless of sex or anything like that. So I'm not gay, and I'm not straight, and I'm not bisexual or homophobic. End of story, who knows, maybe I'll find out in Colorado.

So there you have it, oh and also, I used to work in our local library. I love reading, music, writing, and all those great things. I happen to also love gory horror movies and video games.

"ANTHONY!!!"
"Jesus mom what do you want?!?!"
"Where here!!!!"