There's Perks to Being Me, I Suppose

September 12, 2006
Dear friend,

I was fifteen when I started to write to you. I only did so, because as I had said, I know we have things in common.

I've started to have flashback. Do you ever have them? It happens at night, when I shower, when I eat. They're taking over my life. How do you handle it? Sometimes I wish I left you my address.

The last flashback happened when I was in the shower. I ended up falling, and hitting my head. My brother loved to hurt me there. And when the water gets too hot, it reminds me of him. His hands running over my body. Down to my penis. And it hurts. It hurts because then he penetrates me. And he moans. And then it's like he's there. Behind me. And I freeze and can't function.

I wish I could forget it. I can not even hear my brother's voice without some sort of flashback. I wish you could help. But, just listening, helps. Well reading I guess.

Love always,
Declan