Status: i'll try to update when i can
How Are We Here
Its all back
"Wow you worthless piece of shit, you don't even know how to pleasure a girl"
"Please stay I know I can do better I swear I'm sorry"
"no! I'm leaving pussy" with that she walked out
"I'm such a fucking screw up!" I screamed and punched the wall
every girl has left, I cant even get into a relationship because I'm such a fuck up
"What's wrong with me?!" I screamed out to no one. no ones ever there they always just leave, no one loves me. how could they I'm nothing but a worthless bitch. I punched the wall again this time making my hand bleed.
I sat on the ground and saw something shinny and silver. I haven't done that in years. maybe just one little mark with that I drove the blade across my skin, but it wasn't just one little cut. one turned to two, then , three, then five, next thing I knew my arm was completely covered in the cuts.
"you fucked up again Andy" I said to myself
"YOU FUCK EVERYTHING UP YOU WOTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!" I screamed to myself and punched the mirror. glass went everywhere and my hand bleed more. I didn't care, I deserved it. I started to scream in pain and sadness.
"ANDY WAKE UP!!!!!" I heard someone scream. I fluttered open my eyes and saw a tall man standing over me that looked like Ashley but I couldn't quite see from the blinding light.
"was I dreaming again?" I asked
"yeah" everything flashed back from last night, Juliet wasn't there
"another one left, of course" I whispered so ash couldn't hear me
I decided to actually get out of my bunk today and face people, even though it was our day off.
I dragged myself into the living room with my head down not wanting to look at anyone
"you okay beautiful?" someone asked me and my eyes shot up.
"Juliet" I ran over to her and laid my head into her lap, she started stroking my hair.
"I love your beautiful blue eyes in the morning"
"thanks beautiful" I leaned up and kissed her forehead
"I told you to stop calling me that"
"I'm only calling you what you are" I kissed her nose then her lips and everyone started to say ewww get a room
"you guys know I love you so I'll give you a show"
with that I slipped my tongue in her mouth and she fought back. she earned a moan
"I'm gonna get sick" I heard Jake say
"I second that" jinxx said
"dude come on a show this early?" cc said with a laugh which made me pull away
"see cc gets it" ash and cc just laughed while Jake and jinxx made gaging sounds
"stop I'm getting excited" Ashley said
we all looked at him with weird looks on our faces
"come on I cant be the only one getting turned on by gaging noises and I just saw a make out scene"
that's our Ashley always having a dirty mind
"guys we gotta get ready soon" cc yelled while getting up and skipping to the bathroom
todays gonna be a good day
"Please stay I know I can do better I swear I'm sorry"
"no! I'm leaving pussy" with that she walked out
"I'm such a fucking screw up!" I screamed and punched the wall
every girl has left, I cant even get into a relationship because I'm such a fuck up
"What's wrong with me?!" I screamed out to no one. no ones ever there they always just leave, no one loves me. how could they I'm nothing but a worthless bitch. I punched the wall again this time making my hand bleed.
I sat on the ground and saw something shinny and silver. I haven't done that in years. maybe just one little mark with that I drove the blade across my skin, but it wasn't just one little cut. one turned to two, then , three, then five, next thing I knew my arm was completely covered in the cuts.
"you fucked up again Andy" I said to myself
"YOU FUCK EVERYTHING UP YOU WOTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!" I screamed to myself and punched the mirror. glass went everywhere and my hand bleed more. I didn't care, I deserved it. I started to scream in pain and sadness.
"ANDY WAKE UP!!!!!" I heard someone scream. I fluttered open my eyes and saw a tall man standing over me that looked like Ashley but I couldn't quite see from the blinding light.
"was I dreaming again?" I asked
"yeah" everything flashed back from last night, Juliet wasn't there
"another one left, of course" I whispered so ash couldn't hear me
I decided to actually get out of my bunk today and face people, even though it was our day off.
I dragged myself into the living room with my head down not wanting to look at anyone
"you okay beautiful?" someone asked me and my eyes shot up.
"Juliet" I ran over to her and laid my head into her lap, she started stroking my hair.
"I love your beautiful blue eyes in the morning"
"thanks beautiful" I leaned up and kissed her forehead
"I told you to stop calling me that"
"I'm only calling you what you are" I kissed her nose then her lips and everyone started to say ewww get a room
"you guys know I love you so I'll give you a show"
with that I slipped my tongue in her mouth and she fought back. she earned a moan
"I'm gonna get sick" I heard Jake say
"I second that" jinxx said
"dude come on a show this early?" cc said with a laugh which made me pull away
"see cc gets it" ash and cc just laughed while Jake and jinxx made gaging sounds
"stop I'm getting excited" Ashley said
we all looked at him with weird looks on our faces
"come on I cant be the only one getting turned on by gaging noises and I just saw a make out scene"
that's our Ashley always having a dirty mind
"guys we gotta get ready soon" cc yelled while getting up and skipping to the bathroom
todays gonna be a good day
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hey guys I'm having trouble with everything rite now but I got a plan. school is starting and im going to a new school.... again. that means no friends which means more people picking on me which means more emotion and more time to write. ill fill my notebook every week and submitting a lot in one day. it will get heated soon trust me and I'm probably putting some jinxx and cc in this if you know what I mean ;) ::wink: (I tried an emoji idk if it worked) please don't get mad just jinxx and cc are cute and now that jinxx and sammi aren't together (from what im aware of)this will be perfect more free time more pain and emotion more me taking my anger out on something productive. I love you guys and I go through a lot so im really sorry and if anyone EVER needs me ill be rite there to help