Burning Desire

Alan put his pants on quickly, Austin looked up at him and half smiled. alan leaned down and kissed him again softly. "so.." austin said, alan looked at him "what?" he said zipping his pants up. Austin shrugged, "what are we going to do?" "what do you mean?" alan replied. "we're just.. doing this. i don't know how its going to go?" alan raised an eyebrow. "what are you saying?" austin shrugged again. "you've got to be kidding me right now, austin we just fucked...on the floor. you're not saying this to me right now". Austin shrugged again. "i'm just.. i want to know what is going on between us." Alan sat down next to him again looking at him. "well austin what is going on? because you obviously have the power here not me. are you going to stay with her?" Austin shrugged again. "i cannot believe you right now" alan said getting up. Austin sighed, "alan its harder then you think. my parents...they will disown me" alan looked at him "its your life austin, they will come around. my parents eventually did, they will still love you". Austin shook his head in denial. Alan rolled his eyes, walking over to the bathroom, to make sure he looked a little decent before going to breakfast. Austin walked into the bathroom, half dressed now. "you just don't understand alan, they pretty much have an arranged marriage for us". "how can you do that? you don't even love her. you're practically breaking all relationship rules, physically and emotionally right now." Austin looked are him, "emotionally?" alan looked down at his hands twisting them around becoming nervous. "its whatever" he tried to walk past austin before he grabbed his arm, "please stop walking away". "well don't fuck me, and then say you're not going to leave her, you fuck with me head" alan said pulling his arm away, "i feel like all we do is fuck and fight" he crossed his arms now feeling his temper rise. "alan, i like you" austin said softly. "you're so fucking confusing" alan said dropping his arms. "don't tell me shit like that, and don't kiss me, and don't hug me, and then tell me you're not leaving her, and don't tell me you never felt like this with anyone. you're fucking with me head" alan said sighing now and then sat on the toilet. "you really are" he looked down at austins feet. Austin sat down under him, to gain eye contact. "i'm telling you the truth though. please. just don't give up on whatever we have right away." "Austin! i'm not!" alan said getting frustrated, "you're the one who started this stupid conversation in the first place, you're the one giving it all up". "i just..i want to be around you all the time" he said and kissed him softly, alan tried to push him away before giving up and kissed him back.

Austin was hanging out in his music room thinking about ways to tell gabby, when she walked in smiling at him. Austin couldn't help but smiled back. she was beautiful, and she had been through a lot of shit with him. they had been friends, and one of Austin's for a long long time. "hey handsome" she said softly, austin laughed "hey". She slung and arm around him, and austin couldn't help but wish it was alans arm that was around him right now. all he thought about was the small ginger boy. Gabby leaned up kissing him softly, before deepening it and pushed him back on the wall, austin looped his arms around her kissing her back, gabby smiled into the kiss moving her arms to his neck. "i love you austin" she said softly and began kissing his neck, she knew all his weak spots austin let a little moan slip and picked her up, gabby giggled slightly, austin carried her over to the desk sliding some things off and leaned her down still kissing her, gabbys legs wrapped tight around him, as they continued to kiss. Gabby played with the bottom of his hair,and austin made his way down to her neck before the door was pushed open and Austin shot his head around seeing the small ginger boy with a smile, before it dropped to a frown. "i..i..i'm sorry" he stuttered making his way out.

Alan shot out quickly, tears coming to his eyes. he was lying this whole time. he was just using him. austin didn't really want him. what was he thinking? why would anyone want him. all alan wanted to do was put some words to a sweet melody he was playing in his head for austin. what was he thinking? falling for someone like him. he should have known after everything he's been through with all his ex boyfriends. he should have known. they're all the same. they never change. he's never going to have his prince charming. he sighed and found a spot to hide and cry. he cried for at least an hour before making his way back to his room. Austin looked up at him. he was sitting on his bed. Justin laying across him, Justin jumped off noticing alans red puffy eyes from crying. "dude you okay?" alan didn't say anything. he just got into his bed turning his back and laying down, pulling the covers over his eyes and his head phones in. he decided some brand new was appropriate right now. he turned it up as loud as it could go, ignoring the world behind him. he could feel austins eyes burning holes in his back. but he didn't care. he didn't want to be here. he really just wanted to be in his own bed, in his own room so he could cry as loud as he liked.

Justin had finally given up on harassing alan, and fallen asleep in the bed across the room. all alan could think was why hadn't he got the bed furthest away from austin. his luck, he had the one next to him. alan sighed getting up and taking his head phones out so he could use the bathroom. he walked into the bathroom and went to the toilet before pulling his pants up as austin walked in. alan looked down trying to walk past him. all alan could think was that he wished he had brought his headphones so he didn't have to listen to austins lies. "alan" he began, and as soon as alan heard his voice he looked down, knowing he was about to feed him lies again. "i'm sorry. it's not what you think". Alan didn't say anything, he just looked down the entire time, never making an attempt to face him or look at him, or even listen to him. he simply just walked out, austin tried to grab his arm and alan just pulled it away walking back to his bed and got in, chucking the covers back over his head.