Him

I found out today that you lied to me EVERY TIME you looked me in the eye and said that you loved me. HOW CAN YOU FAKE EMOTION THAT FUCKING WELL? How can you just act like we were nothing, that I am nothing, that that moment in time in both of our lives NEVER EVEN EXISTED? How can you just be fucking FINE about all of this when I am still a mess three months later? How can you get over me like I am nothing more that a crack in the sidewalk of your life and I just can't? I can't get over you and I can't go out and find someone new because I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU. I keep comparing every nice guy that comes along and tells me I'm beautiful to you. Because in my mind, no one will ever mean as much to me as you did. I wish I could go back in time and un-meet you. I was fine before you walked into my life.

This is the last chapter I will ever write about you. The New Year is the day after tomorrow and I will not spend a second of it being sad over you. I will not let you have that hold on me anymore. 2014 is mine, and I will not let you take it. Goodbye forever. I hope I never see you again.