Suicide Diary

My life is the same every day. Every time I get angry, sad or just blank expression I just cut ( blank expression means that my body goes numb). I get that numbness alot. It feels like my soul just leaves my body and it just sits above the corpes and watches as it bleeds. That probably doesnt make much sence to you though. My life seams like an abyss. It is a bottemless deapth. And it just keeps spiraling downward. And the cuts are just getting worse I have no idea which way is up. Or which way to go.
People look at me different now. Like im some sort of creature or an alian. Thats just wrong.