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Bad Blood

I Think I'm Losing Control

ALEX'S POV

I woke up and sighed happily at the fact that it was Saturday. On weekends, my dad works all day and night so i have the house to myself. I stretched as i got out of bed, hearing a satsifying crack of my joints. Turning the shower on, i stripped myself of my clothing before getting in. My entire shower consisted of thinking about Jeff. Where did he come from? How old is he? Will i ever see him again? Sighing, i turned the water off once i realized it had become cold and stepped out to get dressed. My outfit consisted of a pair of black high waisted shorts, a black and white striped crop top, and my favortie pair of black Creepers. I did my makeup how i normally do and ran my fingers through my short hair to fix it.

It seemed like it was nice out today, so i decided to take a walk. The air was hot but contained a slight breeze making it the perfect weather. As i walked further down my street, i noticed the abandoned park i went to yesterday. Something drew me to it and as if my legs had a mind of their own, i started walking there. I noticed a figure run by in the woods out of the corner of my eye. I turned quickly and faced the direction of the shadow.

"Jeff?" I called out. For some odd reason, i wasn't afraid of him. Sure he creeped me out but there was no fear that i felt upon seeing him. There was something about him that brought me in, filling my thoughts with nothing other then Jeff himself. I heard breathing behind me, almost on my neck. Turning around, i came face to face with no one other then Jeff.

"I knew it was you." I said, laughing. I only met him once prior to this but i still felt comfortable. Others would be severely creeped out and probably scared of him, but i'm not. He's a freak just like me. Jeff smiled with his actual mouth making the scars from the self inflicted one raise higher.

"Why did you come back here?" He asked. I couldn't help but find him attractive in the mysterious 'he could kill me in a split second' kind of way. Weird, right?

"I'm home alone and i had nothing better to do." I shrugged. He nodded slowly, looking me up and down to take in my appearance. It was rather easy considering you could see much of my stomach and my shorts were pretty short.

"Hmm, home alone ey?" He chuckled. I nodded and raised my eyebrow.

All of a sudden Jeff grabbed my hand. Not roughly, just to ensure i couldn't escape from his grip. He dragged me out of the park and up my street, finally stopping at my front door. He waited for me to unlock the door before stepping inside and waiting for me before closing and locking the door.

"How do you know where i live?" I asked, suddenly realizing i never told him any directions.

"I've been watching you." He said calmly. "Did you not feel my presence? I know you did." He laughed as he walked over to my couch before sitting down. I stood there, trying to take in the new information. Jeff turned around and patted the spot next to him. I walked over warily, somewhat creeped out by the fact that he has been watching me. I guess that hand touching my face wasn't a dream but Jeff.

"Why have you been watching me?" I asked, mostly out of curiousity. Why would anyone want to watch me?

"You're so....alluring. I simply couldn't help myself." He stated. I blushed slightly.

"So..What exactly have you seen?" I asked. Jeff smirked, lust filling his eyes little by little. He leaned over so his mouth was by my ear.

"Lets just say, i really like the black laced bra and panties that you're wearing." I gasped, blushing madly. Jeff moved back and started laughing.

"Pervert!" I yelled, slapping his arm playfully. Jeff mocked offense by pouting like a child. I laughed and got up for a drink, only to be stopped by Jeff's hand around my arm.

When i turned around Jeff's lips were placed hungrily on mine. I was shocked to say the least but quickly responded. He pushed me back onto the couch before straddling my waist. My arms instinctively wrapped themselves around his neck as the kiss deepend. Jeff used one hand to hold himself up and the other to roam my body, going up and down my sides. He removed his lips from mine, kissing down my jawline till he got to my neck where he started kissing and sucks.

"How old are you?" He asked breathlessly. I bit my lip to stifle a moan when he found my sweet spot.

"17." I breathed. As if he was electricuted, Jeff shot back to the other side of the couch. I sat up, dumbfounded.

"What's wrong?" I asked, trying to regain my breathing. Jeff shook his head.

"This is wrong, this is so wrong. Fuck..." He whispered, looking at the ground. He was still breathing heavily from our previous make out session.

"Why?" I questioned.

"Because Alex, i'm 20 years old! It's illegal for me to be kissing you!" He yelled, standing up. I cowered back, afraid. Yelling scares me because when my dad yells at me it usually ends up with me being hit.

"I-i don't care, Jeff.. I'll be 18 soon enough. What's so bad about some innocent kissing? It's not like we're having sex." I reasoned. Jeff sat back down and ran a hand through his shoulder length black hair.

"I know it's just when i'm kissing you i don't wanna get so into it and do something i'll regret or you'll regret." He sighed. I felt more at ease when Jeff's voice came out calmer then before.

"I'm a big girl Jeff, i know when to stop. What are you so worried about?" I asked, scooching closer to him and placing my hand on his.

"If i get really into something my insanity kicks and i'm not able to stop. I couldn't live with myself if i didn't stop when you wanted me to... Just thinking about us making out and me not stopping when you try to push me away and me fucking you without your consent or doing something that you don't feel comfortable with gives me the chills." He rambled. I nodded in understand.

"Jeff, i know you won't do anything. You're stronger then you think, i know you'd be able to stop. I mean just now you seemed pretty into it, but you stopped yourself.." I trailed off, rubbing his hand reassuringly. He glanced at my hand on his before flipping his over and interlocking our fingers.

"Are you a virgin?" He asked, looking up at me. I nodded sheepishly. It was silent for a minute meaning Jeff was in deep though.

"I'll try to stop myself. I just don't want to take your virginity without you wanting me too... Fuck i can't imagine putting you through that kind of pain and r-raping you.. But i'll try, i really will." He looked up at me, smiling slightly.

"I know you won't, i trust you. So what does this mean?" I asked. Jeff turned to face me before taking both of his hands in mine.

"Alex, will you be my girlfriend?" Jeff asked, grinning. I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing him passionately.

I only met this guy yesterday and here i am agreeing to be his girlfriend. But he seems really nice and cute, aside from the fact that he was watching me. I mean, maybe he was too shy to make a move? Whatever the case was, it doesn't bother me. I was so content lying with Jeff on my couch watching tv that i didn't even notice the many splatters of blood all over his sweatshirt..