Status: Complete
I Can Feel You in My Bones
Six
The sunlight, coming in through the slit in the blinds, is keeping me from falling back to sleep. I roll onto my back and look up at the white ceiling, biting the urge to look over at the bed.
I heard TJ stagger in around two and could smell the booze on him as he passed. I suspect he won’t be up for a good few hours.
Sitting up I stretch out, my back hurts from sleeping on this dodgy couch but I’ll live.
I can’t quite shake this unclean feeling, it’s in my head sure, but I think I’m going to take a shower anyway.
--
Showered and changed I stand at the mirror applying my makeup as slowly as possible. I don’t want to have to leave the safety of this bathroom.
I heard TJ get up about ten minutes ago and I’m not sure I’m ready to face him.
I finish my makeup and lean against the sink to type a quick message to my brother, he likes it when I check it and I will do anything to stay in here.
As usual Trevor responds almost immediately.
I really want to tell him about what happened with TJ, but I know it’ll just worry him so I’m not going to. I wish I had someone else to talk to.
There is a knock at the bathroom door. I look over at the closed door but say nothing.
“Ivy, open the door,” says TJ’s tired voice.
I don’t respond, staying still where I stand. TJ tries the door, which is locked, before knocking again.
“Let me in,” he says, I can hear he’s losing his patience. "I've gotta piss."
I gather up my things and open the door for TJ, moving past him without saying a word.
I know I’m just making it worse by making a big deal out of it but I’m honestly still pissed, and a little hurt. It really doesn’t help that I had a terrible night’s sleep on that fucking couch.
I very seriously consider leaving before TJ comes back out but before I can make my escape I hear the bathroom door open.
TJ stands in the doorway, looking over at me. “Do you want to talk?” he asks dryly.
I stare back at him, my jaw clenched, saying nothing.
“Fine, allow me. I’m sorry if I pissed you off,” he starts.
“That’s not how you phrase an apology,” I tell him bitterly. “Not if you mean, it at least.”
“Are you going to let me finish or no?” he asks, crossing him arms.
“No,” I return evenly. “I don’t think I can talk to you right now,” I tell him.
I know if I try to talk to him while I’m still angry we’re just going to fight, especially if he uses that tone of voice. I need to get out of here.
Before TJ can say anything further I leave the room. I have nowhere else to go so I make my way straight to Craig’s room.
I knock on the door and shift from foot to foot awkwardly. I hear movement inside the room and take a moment to try and get a hold of myself.
I really don’t want to cry right now.
The door opens and Craig smiles as he sees me. “Hey, Ivy. What’s up?” he says warmly.
“Hey, do you mind if I hang out here for a bit?” I ask him, unsurely.
“Yeah sure, I’ve been with Robert all morning. If someone doesn’t take my mind off it god know what I’ll do,” he says with a goofy smile.
“Hey!” shouts Robert in offence, from in the room.
Craig chuckles and moves aside to let me in. “You alright?"
I shrug, looking down at the floor. “I had a fight with TJ.”
“That sucks, I’m sorry,” Craig tells me. “You want to talk about it?”
“Not really,” I tell him plainly. I don’t want to make a scene.
“You sure? You can talk to me if you want,” he says, putting a comforting hand on my back. “And you can chill here as long as you want, it’s no problem.”
“Thanks,” I say, flashing him a small smile.
Craig returns the smile. “You and TJ will make up,” he assures me.
I heard TJ stagger in around two and could smell the booze on him as he passed. I suspect he won’t be up for a good few hours.
Sitting up I stretch out, my back hurts from sleeping on this dodgy couch but I’ll live.
I can’t quite shake this unclean feeling, it’s in my head sure, but I think I’m going to take a shower anyway.
--
Showered and changed I stand at the mirror applying my makeup as slowly as possible. I don’t want to have to leave the safety of this bathroom.
I heard TJ get up about ten minutes ago and I’m not sure I’m ready to face him.
I finish my makeup and lean against the sink to type a quick message to my brother, he likes it when I check it and I will do anything to stay in here.
As usual Trevor responds almost immediately.
I really want to tell him about what happened with TJ, but I know it’ll just worry him so I’m not going to. I wish I had someone else to talk to.
There is a knock at the bathroom door. I look over at the closed door but say nothing.
“Ivy, open the door,” says TJ’s tired voice.
I don’t respond, staying still where I stand. TJ tries the door, which is locked, before knocking again.
“Let me in,” he says, I can hear he’s losing his patience. "I've gotta piss."
I gather up my things and open the door for TJ, moving past him without saying a word.
I know I’m just making it worse by making a big deal out of it but I’m honestly still pissed, and a little hurt. It really doesn’t help that I had a terrible night’s sleep on that fucking couch.
I very seriously consider leaving before TJ comes back out but before I can make my escape I hear the bathroom door open.
TJ stands in the doorway, looking over at me. “Do you want to talk?” he asks dryly.
I stare back at him, my jaw clenched, saying nothing.
“Fine, allow me. I’m sorry if I pissed you off,” he starts.
“That’s not how you phrase an apology,” I tell him bitterly. “Not if you mean, it at least.”
“Are you going to let me finish or no?” he asks, crossing him arms.
“No,” I return evenly. “I don’t think I can talk to you right now,” I tell him.
I know if I try to talk to him while I’m still angry we’re just going to fight, especially if he uses that tone of voice. I need to get out of here.
Before TJ can say anything further I leave the room. I have nowhere else to go so I make my way straight to Craig’s room.
I knock on the door and shift from foot to foot awkwardly. I hear movement inside the room and take a moment to try and get a hold of myself.
I really don’t want to cry right now.
The door opens and Craig smiles as he sees me. “Hey, Ivy. What’s up?” he says warmly.
“Hey, do you mind if I hang out here for a bit?” I ask him, unsurely.
“Yeah sure, I’ve been with Robert all morning. If someone doesn’t take my mind off it god know what I’ll do,” he says with a goofy smile.
“Hey!” shouts Robert in offence, from in the room.
Craig chuckles and moves aside to let me in. “You alright?"
I shrug, looking down at the floor. “I had a fight with TJ.”
“That sucks, I’m sorry,” Craig tells me. “You want to talk about it?”
“Not really,” I tell him plainly. I don’t want to make a scene.
“You sure? You can talk to me if you want,” he says, putting a comforting hand on my back. “And you can chill here as long as you want, it’s no problem.”
“Thanks,” I say, flashing him a small smile.
Craig returns the smile. “You and TJ will make up,” he assures me.
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I'm really sorry about being gone for such a long time!I had writer's block and on top of that school is getting really intense, with exams coming up and all.