Stella's Sick Little Games
Thirty.
"So... that dream last night..." I bit my lip sitting across from him at the table, I don't wanna talk about it but he deserves to know.
"You scared me... I didn't know what to do. You... you were really shaken up..." That worried look struck his face again. I hate seeing him like this, but he's gotta know sooner or later.
"You calmed me down... you really helped me..." I took a deep breath. "You... know how my dad's not around?" I couldn't look up, I just kept playing with my breakfast. That is, until he grabbed my hands and held them.
"What happened..."
"He..." How do I say this? I haven't even talked about this in ten years... "One night when I was six... he took me to my room and I thought he was gonna tuck me in and say goodnight... but he didn't." Another deep breath to calm myself down. "He laid down next to me... and he started rubbing my leg. He... he started touching me. Before I knew it, he had me pinned down under him." Tears were falling. "He was raping me... I was only six, but he said I was perfect. It just... makes me wonder how many other little girls he's hurt before me. I had to go to court... testify against my own father. I didn't know what was going on. I keep having flashbacks to that night. All those kids making fun of me for being a virgin... I'm not. I lost my virginity twelve years ago to that sick, twisted fuck." He let go of my hands and came around the table to hold me tight in his arms. He was crying too. I've never seen his guard down this much.
"He's away for life, right?" I nodded, hiding my face in his chest. "He's not gonna hurt you anymore. No one's gonna hurt you anymore. You don't deserve that, no one does."
"That's why my mom hates me so much... She thinks it's my fault for ruining her marriage. She... still doesn't believe me that he did that. She just thinks I wanted more attention." His hand was holding my head close to him. Comforting, that's what he is. I feel safe with him.
"We're gonna get out of here after graduation. Believe me, you'll be away from all of this. You won't have to deal with her or the memories of that night. You're gonna be okay." And for the first time in my life, I actually believe I will be.
"You scared me... I didn't know what to do. You... you were really shaken up..." That worried look struck his face again. I hate seeing him like this, but he's gotta know sooner or later.
"You calmed me down... you really helped me..." I took a deep breath. "You... know how my dad's not around?" I couldn't look up, I just kept playing with my breakfast. That is, until he grabbed my hands and held them.
"What happened..."
"He..." How do I say this? I haven't even talked about this in ten years... "One night when I was six... he took me to my room and I thought he was gonna tuck me in and say goodnight... but he didn't." Another deep breath to calm myself down. "He laid down next to me... and he started rubbing my leg. He... he started touching me. Before I knew it, he had me pinned down under him." Tears were falling. "He was raping me... I was only six, but he said I was perfect. It just... makes me wonder how many other little girls he's hurt before me. I had to go to court... testify against my own father. I didn't know what was going on. I keep having flashbacks to that night. All those kids making fun of me for being a virgin... I'm not. I lost my virginity twelve years ago to that sick, twisted fuck." He let go of my hands and came around the table to hold me tight in his arms. He was crying too. I've never seen his guard down this much.
"He's away for life, right?" I nodded, hiding my face in his chest. "He's not gonna hurt you anymore. No one's gonna hurt you anymore. You don't deserve that, no one does."
"That's why my mom hates me so much... She thinks it's my fault for ruining her marriage. She... still doesn't believe me that he did that. She just thinks I wanted more attention." His hand was holding my head close to him. Comforting, that's what he is. I feel safe with him.
"We're gonna get out of here after graduation. Believe me, you'll be away from all of this. You won't have to deal with her or the memories of that night. You're gonna be okay." And for the first time in my life, I actually believe I will be.