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I had known of a certain Mr Styles! We dated and we got quite serious, and then he got on to x-factor and we slowly drifted. We were fine for a few months then paparazzi started to follow him and I fell pregnant. He didn’t know and still doesn’t it’s been 2 years since then and I have a lovely daughter called Belle. My parents weren’t happy, so they kicked me out and I’ve been on my own since. I’m 20 years old. I got on with all of one direction but I didn’t want to ruin Harry’s career so I said I couldn’t deal with it and packed my stuff up as quick as I could and moved away. He tried to contact me but I couldn’t risk ruining what he had just started.
I moved to London because I thought I would be harder to find as it’s quite big, so far so good I haven’t been spotted.
Of course it was hard bringing a baby into the world but I got through it and now my daughter is 2 and a half years old and she is the joy of my life. Money’s been a struggle but I’m lucky that when I fell pregnant all my school was done and I was already in a job so I had money saved.
I work in a nursery and my daughter goes there to, so while I work she gets to learn and interact with other children. She in the other room to where I work with the babies and 4 – 14 years old, while she’s in the toddler room. My daughter had curly hair just like Harry’s but auburn like mine and bright green eyes. She’s looks a lot like Harry but acts a lot like me. She makes me smile just thinking about her. I do regret Harry not knowing about her because she is part of us both. I have survived on my own, we live in a nice house, I can put food on the table and I have a job that is flexible so I get to spend time with her as well. It’s always just been me and her and that’s how I’ve liked it. Of course I have friends but my family didn’t want to know once I got pregnant and none of Harry’s family, friends or boy band knows. I get the odd tweet off them now and again, and the odd phone call but I’ve been careful not to let it drop out. I don’t want my daughter being all over newspapers and magazines!
I finished work at 3 o clock and went to get all my stuff together. I signed myself out and went to grab sign Belle out. ‘Belle, go and get you bag please’ I said and I signed her out. I saw her toddler off in her dancing way to get her stuff and smiled. ‘How’s she been Sam?’ I asked one of my co-workers. ‘Been absolutely fine, we’ve had lots of fun haven’t we Belle?’ she spoke to Belle as well as she had just come back with her bag on her back. ‘Yeaa, I made a picture mommy!’ she said to me and pulled Sam with her to get it! I smile ‘Oh wow, really! I can’t wait to see it.’ I found her daily book and picked up her drinks bottle and put it all in her bag while she got the picture. She ran over to me so proud of herself. ‘Oh wow that’s beautiful! Who did you draw?’ I asked. ‘I drew you! It’s mommy!’ She said with a big grin on her face and her dimples showing. ‘I tell you what Belle, when we get home because it’s so beautiful we put in on the fridge?’ I asked her. ‘Yeaaa!’ and jumped she said goodbye to a few of the other children with a little hug while I picked up my bag and her bag. ‘Thank you for looking after her I will see you next week! Have a nice weekend!’ I said to everyone. ‘Come on Belle time to go home!’ She ran to me and held my hand as we walked out the building. ‘You had a good day Bee?’ I asked her as we walked to the car. ‘Yea... I did lots of playing and I ate all my food! It was yummy!’ she gave me a cheeky grin. I smiled ‘That’s good then, I don’t have to feed you tonight’ I tickled her belly when she was strapped into the car! She laughed. ‘Yes I like food!’ I kissed the top of her head and closed her door and put the bag in the front seat passenger side. I got in the driver’s side and turn on her favourite C.D and started the car. ‘Off home we go!’ I looked back and smiled, she was my little ray of sunshine. She was looking out the window I put the car into drive and started to drive home.
I got home and unstrapped Belle from the car seat and she ran to the door while I grabbed our bags and locked the car and went to unlock the front door. ‘Mommy can I go play with my toys?’ she asked. ‘Of course Belle, I’ll be in kitchen making you a drink!’ I said as I press her nose and kiss her hair. I put out bags on the side I check my phone and see I have a text of Liam. ‘Hey Lucy, fancy going for a coffee in London after tour need a catch up?’ Oh Liam always wants to catch up. I’ve been once to meet him but every other time he’s asked I’ve had Belle. Liam is like a brother to me and always got in touch when I ran from Harry and wasn’t angry, maybe I should tell him about Belle.
I text him back ‘Come round mine at 8.30pm? I need to speak to you! :)’ I attached my address to the text and sent it. I put my phone back on the side and I washed Belle’s drink cup out and filled it with orange squash and got her some fruit for a snack. I chopped an apple up and added a few chopped up grapes and raisins into a bowl ‘Belle food!’ I called and she came running. ‘Oh she loved her food!’ I put her fruit on the table and a drink and helped her wash her hands before putting the food on her mini desk. I kissed her head and looked through her daily book. ‘Thank you mommy!’ I smiled. My phone went off again and I quickly checked it. Liam: ‘That’s fine want me to bring food?’ Always looking after people I smiled at the phone and text back. ‘Yes please, bring whatever you fancy and some for me ;P I’ll see you later! X’ and put my phone down. Belle went back to playing with her toys while I washed her bowl up and started preparing her dinner for 5ish.
Once Belle had her tea and her bath she was now getting ready for bed. I brushed her hair and dried it and helped her into her Pj’s. She laid in bed and I tucked her in and we read a story. ‘I love you baby!’ I said and kissed her hair. ‘Love you to Mommy!’ in a sleep voice. I dulled the lights and went to my room to wash myself and change into something comfortable ready for Liam. Belle was in bed for 7.15 and asleep. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=95106287 I ended up putting my pj’s on and putting my hair in a messy bun. Liam had seen my messy before. I checked on Belle turning the lights of and shutting stair gates at the top and bottom of stairs.
I had a quick tidy up of Belle’s toys; I never get a few minutes to myself. I heard someone knocking on the door, I checked the time if that was Liam he was early! I opened the door to see all the guy minus Harry. ‘Eh Hey!’ I said and smiled at them a bit shocked. ‘Im sorry, they were sneaking through my phone and wouldn’t let me out until I said they could come hope that’s okay?’ Liam looked at me apologetically ‘Yea that’s fine!’ I laughed Oh great more to tell this is going to get back to Harry now.
‘When I knew Liam was coming to visit I had to come see my little sister! We’ve missed you!’ Louis said and gave me a big hug as did all the rest. ‘We come baring gifts of food!’ Niall said. I smiled ‘Kitchen through there. I looked up the stairs cause I heard a noise. Liam followed my look and noticed the stair gates and toys everyone. ‘I’ll be right back Liam, there’s plates and glasses in the cupboards make yourself at home’ I ran up the stairs and into Belle’s room she was upset. I walked in ‘What’s wrong Bee?’ I sat on the bed and Belle jumped into my arms. I cuddled her and rubbed her back. ‘Mommy monsters under bed!’ She clung closer to me. ‘Oh Belle baby girl it’s okay mommy make them go away with my special dust come downstairs with me and I’ll get my special dust are you ready?’ She jumped into my arms and then I remembered who was down there. Here goes nothing. I walked down carrying Belle she was playing with my hair. ‘Belle, there are a couple of Mommy’s friends downstairs okay, don’t worry they’re all really kind okay?’ I asked Belle. She nodded her head and snuggled closer to me. I took a deep breath and went to walk through the living room to the kitchen a couple were in the living room and the rest was in the kitchen. Belle had her face buried in my neck and I saw them Give my a look. ‘Mommy’s got the special dust, we’ll get rid of those monsters okay are you ready?’ she nodded. ‘We gotta be big and brave!’ I grabbed the salt and walked back upstairs with the boys behind me curious. I put Belle down and I got my knees by her bed and lifted the sheets up and grabbed a handful of salt. ‘Are you ready Belle on the count of 3, 1, 2, 3 and I blew the salt under her bed and she ran by me and looked under there. Liam turned the light on and Belle smiled. ‘Mommy said bye, bye to monster!’ and hugged me. She looked at the boys and I heard an intake of breathe and I closed my eye they can see the resemblance ‘Hi, mommy’s friends. I’m Belle!’ I sorted Belle’s bed out and made it comfy and turned they were on their knees at Belle’s level. ‘Hi Belle, I’m Liam’ he smiled ‘This is Zayn, Louis and Niall.’ He said pointed at the guys. I saw them smile and wave. ‘Come on Bee back to bed for you, we have a busy day tomorrow!’ She waved and ran to me. I put her back in bed, tucked her in and gave her a kiss on the forehead. ‘I love you Bee!’ ‘I love you mommy’ and dulled the lights again and we all walked down the stairs. I shut the gates and sat on the sofa waiting for the questions to begin.
‘Who’s that we just met?’ Liam asked. I looked up at him and then the others. ‘My daughter, Belle.’ I said simply. ‘How old is she?’ Liam asked putting two and two together. ‘2 and a half years old.’ I replied. ‘Is she Harry’s?’ Louis asked next. I swallowed and looked up at him. ‘Yes.’ I looked at their faces there was shock and confusion. ‘Is that why you went away 3 years ago and I take it he doesn’t know?’ Zayn asked.
I shook my head. ‘I didn’t want to mess he’s or your career up, think of what the pap’s would say as 1. I’m a year older than him and 2. I don’t want me daughter being all over headlines saying ‘Harry’s love child’ or something. I want my daughter to have a normal childhood and not be frightened by people trying to get pictures of her! It’s not fair to her!’ I said to the boys and got up and walked into the kitchen. Louis followed me and watched as I put washing into the washing machine. I had been put off my food while having this conversation. ‘But what about Harry, it’s not fair on him either, it hit him hard when you up and left!’ Liam said leaning against the door way. ‘What was I supposed to do, stay and tell Harry and put a stop to his career? How could I do that when you were touring and been touring, I couldn’t handle saying good bye for months on end and my daughter wondering when her Dad, also he’s a bit of a ladies’ man, I’m not having the upset!’ That was my final word. We didn’t speak about it again that night.
At 10pm I started to grow tired and couldn’t keep my eyes open, they saw this and said their goodbyes!
I hugged each of them and when they were gone I locked up and checked on Belle. I smiled from the doorway and then went to bed I was fast asleep by 10.30pm.I had known of a certain Mr Styles! We dated and we got quite serious, and then he got on to x-factor and we slowly drifted. We were fine for a few months then paparazzi started to follow him and I fell pregnant. He didn’t know and still doesn’t it’s been 2 years since then and I have a lovely daughter called Belle. My parents weren’t happy, so they kicked me out and I’ve been on my own since. I’m 20 years old. I got on with all of one direction but I didn’t want to ruin Harry’s career so I said I couldn’t deal with it and packed my stuff up as quick as I could and moved away. He tried to contact me but I couldn’t risk ruining what he had just started.
I moved to London because I thought I would be harder to find as it’s quite big, so far so good I haven’t been spotted.
Of course it was hard bringing a baby into the world but I got through it and now my daughter is 2 and a half years old and she is the joy of my life. Money’s been a struggle but I’m lucky that when I fell pregnant all my school was done and I was already in a job so I had money saved.
I work in a nursery and my daughter goes there to, so while I work she gets to learn and interact with other children. She in the other room to where I work with the babies and 4 – 14 years old, while she’s in the toddler room. My daughter had curly hair just like Harry’s but auburn like mine and bright green eyes. She’s looks a lot like Harry but acts a lot like me. She makes me smile just thinking about her. I do regret Harry not knowing about her because she is part of us both. I have survived on my own, we live in a nice house, I can put food on the table and I have a job that is flexible so I get to spend time with her as well. It’s always just been me and her and that’s how I’ve liked it. Of course I have friends but my family didn’t want to know once I got pregnant and none of Harry’s family, friends or boy band knows. I get the odd tweet off them now and again, and the odd phone call but I’ve been careful not to let it drop out. I don’t want my daughter being all over newspapers and magazines!
I finished work at 3 o clock and went to get all my stuff together. I signed myself out and went to grab sign Belle out. ‘Belle, go and get you bag please’ I said and I signed her out. I saw her toddler off in her dancing way to get her stuff and smiled. ‘How’s she been Sam?’ I asked one of my co-workers. ‘Been absolutely fine, we’ve had lots of fun haven’t we Belle?’ she spoke to Belle as well as she had just come back with her bag on her back. ‘Yeaa, I made a picture mommy!’ she said to me and pulled Sam with her to get it! I smile ‘Oh wow, really! I can’t wait to see it.’ I found her daily book and picked up her drinks bottle and put it all in her bag while she got the picture. She ran over to me so proud of herself. ‘Oh wow that’s beautiful! Who did you draw?’ I asked. ‘I drew you! It’s mommy!’ She said with a big grin on her face and her dimples showing. ‘I tell you what Belle, when we get home because it’s so beautiful we put in on the fridge?’ I asked her. ‘Yeaaa!’ and jumped she said goodbye to a few of the other children with a little hug while I picked up my bag and her bag. ‘Thank you for looking after her I will see you next week! Have a nice weekend!’ I said to everyone. ‘Come on Belle time to go home!’ She ran to me and held my hand as we walked out the building. ‘You had a good day Bee?’ I asked her as we walked to the car. ‘Yea... I did lots of playing and I ate all my food! It was yummy!’ she gave me a cheeky grin. I smiled ‘That’s good then, I don’t have to feed you tonight’ I tickled her belly when she was strapped into the car! She laughed. ‘Yes I like food!’ I kissed the top of her head and closed her door and put the bag in the front seat passenger side. I got in the driver’s side and turn on her favourite C.D and started the car. ‘Off home we go!’ I looked back and smiled, she was my little ray of sunshine. She was looking out the window I put the car into drive and started to drive home.
I got home and unstrapped Belle from the car seat and she ran to the door while I grabbed our bags and locked the car and went to unlock the front door. ‘Mommy can I go play with my toys?’ she asked. ‘Of course Belle, I’ll be in kitchen making you a drink!’ I said as I press her nose and kiss her hair. I put out bags on the side I check my phone and see I have a text of Liam. ‘Hey Lucy, fancy going for a coffee in London after tour need a catch up?’ Oh Liam always wants to catch up. I’ve been once to meet him but every other time he’s asked I’ve had Belle. Liam is like a brother to me and always got in touch when I ran from Harry and wasn’t angry, maybe I should tell him about Belle.
I text him back ‘Come round mine at 8.30pm? I need to speak to you! :)’ I attached my address to the text and sent it. I put my phone back on the side and I washed Belle’s drink cup out and filled it with orange squash and got her some fruit for a snack. I chopped an apple up and added a few chopped up grapes and raisins into a bowl ‘Belle food!’ I called and she came running. ‘Oh she loved her food!’ I put her fruit on the table and a drink and helped her wash her hands before putting the food on her mini desk. I kissed her head and looked through her daily book. ‘Thank you mommy!’ I smiled. My phone went off again and I quickly checked it. Liam: ‘That’s fine want me to bring food?’ Always looking after people I smiled at the phone and text back. ‘Yes please, bring whatever you fancy and some for me ;P I’ll see you later! X’ and put my phone down. Belle went back to playing with her toys while I washed her bowl up and started preparing her dinner for 5ish.
Once Belle had her tea and her bath she was now getting ready for bed. I brushed her hair and dried it and helped her into her Pj’s. She laid in bed and I tucked her in and we read a story. ‘I love you baby!’ I said and kissed her hair. ‘Love you to Mommy!’ in a sleep voice. I dulled the lights and went to my room to wash myself and change into something comfortable ready for Liam. Belle was in bed for 7.15 and asleep. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=95106287 I ended up putting my pj’s on and putting my hair in a messy bun. Liam had seen my messy before. I checked on Belle turning the lights of and shutting stair gates at the top and bottom of stairs.
I had a quick tidy up of Belle’s toys; I never get a few minutes to myself. I heard someone knocking on the door, I checked the time if that was Liam he was early! I opened the door to see all the guy minus Harry. ‘Eh Hey!’ I said and smiled at them a bit shocked. ‘Im sorry, they were sneaking through my phone and wouldn’t let me out until I said they could come hope that’s okay?’ Liam looked at me apologetically ‘Yea that’s fine!’ I laughed Oh great more to tell this is going to get back to Harry now.
‘When I knew Liam was coming to visit I had to come see my little sister! We’ve missed you!’ Louis said and gave me a big hug as did all the rest. ‘We come baring gifts of food!’ Niall said. I smiled ‘Kitchen through there. I looked up the stairs cause I heard a noise. Liam followed my look and noticed the stair gates and toys everyone. ‘I’ll be right back Liam, there’s plates and glasses in the cupboards make yourself at home’ I ran up the stairs and into Belle’s room she was upset. I walked in ‘What’s wrong Bee?’ I sat on the bed and Belle jumped into my arms. I cuddled her and rubbed her back. ‘Mommy monsters under bed!’ She clung closer to me. ‘Oh Belle baby girl it’s okay mommy make them go away with my special dust come downstairs with me and I’ll get my special dust are you ready?’ She jumped into my arms and then I remembered who was down there. Here goes nothing. I walked down carrying Belle she was playing with my hair. ‘Belle, there are a couple of Mommy’s friends downstairs okay, don’t worry they’re all really kind okay?’ I asked Belle. She nodded her head and snuggled closer to me. I took a deep breath and went to walk through the living room to the kitchen a couple were in the living room and the rest was in the kitchen. Belle had her face buried in my neck and I saw them Give my a look. ‘Mommy’s got the special dust, we’ll get rid of those monsters okay are you ready?’ she nodded. ‘We gotta be big and brave!’ I grabbed the salt and walked back upstairs with the boys behind me curious. I put Belle down and I got my knees by her bed and lifted the sheets up and grabbed a handful of salt. ‘Are you ready Belle on the count of 3, 1, 2, 3 and I blew the salt under her bed and she ran by me and looked under there. Liam turned the light on and Belle smiled. ‘Mommy said bye, bye to monster!’ and hugged me. She looked at the boys and I heard an intake of breathe and I closed my eye they can see the resemblance ‘Hi, mommy’s friends. I’m Belle!’ I sorted Belle’s bed out and made it comfy and turned they were on their knees at Belle’s level. ‘Hi Belle, I’m Liam’ he smiled ‘This is Zayn, Louis and Niall.’ He said pointed at the guys. I saw them smile and wave. ‘Come on Bee back to bed for you, we have a busy day tomorrow!’ She waved and ran to me. I put her back in bed, tucked her in and gave her a kiss on the forehead. ‘I love you Bee!’ ‘I love you mommy’ and dulled the lights again and we all walked down the stairs. I shut the gates and sat on the sofa waiting for the questions to begin.
‘Who’s that we just met?’ Liam asked. I looked up at him and then the others. ‘My daughter, Belle.’ I said simply. ‘How old is she?’ Liam asked putting two and two together. ‘2 and a half years old.’ I replied. ‘Is she Harry’s?’ Louis asked next. I swallowed and looked up at him. ‘Yes.’ I looked at their faces there was shock and confusion. ‘Is that why you went away 3 years ago and I take it he doesn’t know?’ Zayn asked.
I shook my head. ‘I didn’t want to mess he’s or your career up, think of what the pap’s would say as 1. I’m a year older than him and 2. I don’t want me daughter being all over headlines saying ‘Harry’s love child’ or something. I want my daughter to have a normal childhood and not be frightened by people trying to get pictures of her! It’s not fair to her!’ I said to the boys and got up and walked into the kitchen. Louis followed me and watched as I put washing into the washing machine. I had been put off my food while having this conversation. ‘But what about Harry, it’s not fair on him either, it hit him hard when you up and left!’ Liam said leaning against the door way. ‘What was I supposed to do, stay and tell Harry and put a stop to his career? How could I do that when you were touring and been touring, I couldn’t handle saying good bye for months on end and my daughter wondering when her Dad, also he’s a bit of a ladies’ man, I’m not having the upset!’ That was my final word. We didn’t speak about it again that night.
At 10pm I started to grow tired and couldn’t keep my eyes open, they saw this and said their goodbyes!
I hugged each of them and when they were gone I locked up and checked on Belle. I smiled from the doorway and then went to bed I was fast asleep by 10.30pm.
I moved to London because I thought I would be harder to find as it’s quite big, so far so good I haven’t been spotted.
Of course it was hard bringing a baby into the world but I got through it and now my daughter is 2 and a half years old and she is the joy of my life. Money’s been a struggle but I’m lucky that when I fell pregnant all my school was done and I was already in a job so I had money saved.
I work in a nursery and my daughter goes there to, so while I work she gets to learn and interact with other children. She in the other room to where I work with the babies and 4 – 14 years old, while she’s in the toddler room. My daughter had curly hair just like Harry’s but auburn like mine and bright green eyes. She’s looks a lot like Harry but acts a lot like me. She makes me smile just thinking about her. I do regret Harry not knowing about her because she is part of us both. I have survived on my own, we live in a nice house, I can put food on the table and I have a job that is flexible so I get to spend time with her as well. It’s always just been me and her and that’s how I’ve liked it. Of course I have friends but my family didn’t want to know once I got pregnant and none of Harry’s family, friends or boy band knows. I get the odd tweet off them now and again, and the odd phone call but I’ve been careful not to let it drop out. I don’t want my daughter being all over newspapers and magazines!
I finished work at 3 o clock and went to get all my stuff together. I signed myself out and went to grab sign Belle out. ‘Belle, go and get you bag please’ I said and I signed her out. I saw her toddler off in her dancing way to get her stuff and smiled. ‘How’s she been Sam?’ I asked one of my co-workers. ‘Been absolutely fine, we’ve had lots of fun haven’t we Belle?’ she spoke to Belle as well as she had just come back with her bag on her back. ‘Yeaa, I made a picture mommy!’ she said to me and pulled Sam with her to get it! I smile ‘Oh wow, really! I can’t wait to see it.’ I found her daily book and picked up her drinks bottle and put it all in her bag while she got the picture. She ran over to me so proud of herself. ‘Oh wow that’s beautiful! Who did you draw?’ I asked. ‘I drew you! It’s mommy!’ She said with a big grin on her face and her dimples showing. ‘I tell you what Belle, when we get home because it’s so beautiful we put in on the fridge?’ I asked her. ‘Yeaaa!’ and jumped she said goodbye to a few of the other children with a little hug while I picked up my bag and her bag. ‘Thank you for looking after her I will see you next week! Have a nice weekend!’ I said to everyone. ‘Come on Belle time to go home!’ She ran to me and held my hand as we walked out the building. ‘You had a good day Bee?’ I asked her as we walked to the car. ‘Yea... I did lots of playing and I ate all my food! It was yummy!’ she gave me a cheeky grin. I smiled ‘That’s good then, I don’t have to feed you tonight’ I tickled her belly when she was strapped into the car! She laughed. ‘Yes I like food!’ I kissed the top of her head and closed her door and put the bag in the front seat passenger side. I got in the driver’s side and turn on her favourite C.D and started the car. ‘Off home we go!’ I looked back and smiled, she was my little ray of sunshine. She was looking out the window I put the car into drive and started to drive home.
I got home and unstrapped Belle from the car seat and she ran to the door while I grabbed our bags and locked the car and went to unlock the front door. ‘Mommy can I go play with my toys?’ she asked. ‘Of course Belle, I’ll be in kitchen making you a drink!’ I said as I press her nose and kiss her hair. I put out bags on the side I check my phone and see I have a text of Liam. ‘Hey Lucy, fancy going for a coffee in London after tour need a catch up?’ Oh Liam always wants to catch up. I’ve been once to meet him but every other time he’s asked I’ve had Belle. Liam is like a brother to me and always got in touch when I ran from Harry and wasn’t angry, maybe I should tell him about Belle.
I text him back ‘Come round mine at 8.30pm? I need to speak to you! :)’ I attached my address to the text and sent it. I put my phone back on the side and I washed Belle’s drink cup out and filled it with orange squash and got her some fruit for a snack. I chopped an apple up and added a few chopped up grapes and raisins into a bowl ‘Belle food!’ I called and she came running. ‘Oh she loved her food!’ I put her fruit on the table and a drink and helped her wash her hands before putting the food on her mini desk. I kissed her head and looked through her daily book. ‘Thank you mommy!’ I smiled. My phone went off again and I quickly checked it. Liam: ‘That’s fine want me to bring food?’ Always looking after people I smiled at the phone and text back. ‘Yes please, bring whatever you fancy and some for me ;P I’ll see you later! X’ and put my phone down. Belle went back to playing with her toys while I washed her bowl up and started preparing her dinner for 5ish.
Once Belle had her tea and her bath she was now getting ready for bed. I brushed her hair and dried it and helped her into her Pj’s. She laid in bed and I tucked her in and we read a story. ‘I love you baby!’ I said and kissed her hair. ‘Love you to Mommy!’ in a sleep voice. I dulled the lights and went to my room to wash myself and change into something comfortable ready for Liam. Belle was in bed for 7.15 and asleep. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=95106287 I ended up putting my pj’s on and putting my hair in a messy bun. Liam had seen my messy before. I checked on Belle turning the lights of and shutting stair gates at the top and bottom of stairs.
I had a quick tidy up of Belle’s toys; I never get a few minutes to myself. I heard someone knocking on the door, I checked the time if that was Liam he was early! I opened the door to see all the guy minus Harry. ‘Eh Hey!’ I said and smiled at them a bit shocked. ‘Im sorry, they were sneaking through my phone and wouldn’t let me out until I said they could come hope that’s okay?’ Liam looked at me apologetically ‘Yea that’s fine!’ I laughed Oh great more to tell this is going to get back to Harry now.
‘When I knew Liam was coming to visit I had to come see my little sister! We’ve missed you!’ Louis said and gave me a big hug as did all the rest. ‘We come baring gifts of food!’ Niall said. I smiled ‘Kitchen through there. I looked up the stairs cause I heard a noise. Liam followed my look and noticed the stair gates and toys everyone. ‘I’ll be right back Liam, there’s plates and glasses in the cupboards make yourself at home’ I ran up the stairs and into Belle’s room she was upset. I walked in ‘What’s wrong Bee?’ I sat on the bed and Belle jumped into my arms. I cuddled her and rubbed her back. ‘Mommy monsters under bed!’ She clung closer to me. ‘Oh Belle baby girl it’s okay mommy make them go away with my special dust come downstairs with me and I’ll get my special dust are you ready?’ She jumped into my arms and then I remembered who was down there. Here goes nothing. I walked down carrying Belle she was playing with my hair. ‘Belle, there are a couple of Mommy’s friends downstairs okay, don’t worry they’re all really kind okay?’ I asked Belle. She nodded her head and snuggled closer to me. I took a deep breath and went to walk through the living room to the kitchen a couple were in the living room and the rest was in the kitchen. Belle had her face buried in my neck and I saw them Give my a look. ‘Mommy’s got the special dust, we’ll get rid of those monsters okay are you ready?’ she nodded. ‘We gotta be big and brave!’ I grabbed the salt and walked back upstairs with the boys behind me curious. I put Belle down and I got my knees by her bed and lifted the sheets up and grabbed a handful of salt. ‘Are you ready Belle on the count of 3, 1, 2, 3 and I blew the salt under her bed and she ran by me and looked under there. Liam turned the light on and Belle smiled. ‘Mommy said bye, bye to monster!’ and hugged me. She looked at the boys and I heard an intake of breathe and I closed my eye they can see the resemblance ‘Hi, mommy’s friends. I’m Belle!’ I sorted Belle’s bed out and made it comfy and turned they were on their knees at Belle’s level. ‘Hi Belle, I’m Liam’ he smiled ‘This is Zayn, Louis and Niall.’ He said pointed at the guys. I saw them smile and wave. ‘Come on Bee back to bed for you, we have a busy day tomorrow!’ She waved and ran to me. I put her back in bed, tucked her in and gave her a kiss on the forehead. ‘I love you Bee!’ ‘I love you mommy’ and dulled the lights again and we all walked down the stairs. I shut the gates and sat on the sofa waiting for the questions to begin.
‘Who’s that we just met?’ Liam asked. I looked up at him and then the others. ‘My daughter, Belle.’ I said simply. ‘How old is she?’ Liam asked putting two and two together. ‘2 and a half years old.’ I replied. ‘Is she Harry’s?’ Louis asked next. I swallowed and looked up at him. ‘Yes.’ I looked at their faces there was shock and confusion. ‘Is that why you went away 3 years ago and I take it he doesn’t know?’ Zayn asked.
I shook my head. ‘I didn’t want to mess he’s or your career up, think of what the pap’s would say as 1. I’m a year older than him and 2. I don’t want me daughter being all over headlines saying ‘Harry’s love child’ or something. I want my daughter to have a normal childhood and not be frightened by people trying to get pictures of her! It’s not fair to her!’ I said to the boys and got up and walked into the kitchen. Louis followed me and watched as I put washing into the washing machine. I had been put off my food while having this conversation. ‘But what about Harry, it’s not fair on him either, it hit him hard when you up and left!’ Liam said leaning against the door way. ‘What was I supposed to do, stay and tell Harry and put a stop to his career? How could I do that when you were touring and been touring, I couldn’t handle saying good bye for months on end and my daughter wondering when her Dad, also he’s a bit of a ladies’ man, I’m not having the upset!’ That was my final word. We didn’t speak about it again that night.
At 10pm I started to grow tired and couldn’t keep my eyes open, they saw this and said their goodbyes!
I hugged each of them and when they were gone I locked up and checked on Belle. I smiled from the doorway and then went to bed I was fast asleep by 10.30pm.I had known of a certain Mr Styles! We dated and we got quite serious, and then he got on to x-factor and we slowly drifted. We were fine for a few months then paparazzi started to follow him and I fell pregnant. He didn’t know and still doesn’t it’s been 2 years since then and I have a lovely daughter called Belle. My parents weren’t happy, so they kicked me out and I’ve been on my own since. I’m 20 years old. I got on with all of one direction but I didn’t want to ruin Harry’s career so I said I couldn’t deal with it and packed my stuff up as quick as I could and moved away. He tried to contact me but I couldn’t risk ruining what he had just started.
I moved to London because I thought I would be harder to find as it’s quite big, so far so good I haven’t been spotted.
Of course it was hard bringing a baby into the world but I got through it and now my daughter is 2 and a half years old and she is the joy of my life. Money’s been a struggle but I’m lucky that when I fell pregnant all my school was done and I was already in a job so I had money saved.
I work in a nursery and my daughter goes there to, so while I work she gets to learn and interact with other children. She in the other room to where I work with the babies and 4 – 14 years old, while she’s in the toddler room. My daughter had curly hair just like Harry’s but auburn like mine and bright green eyes. She’s looks a lot like Harry but acts a lot like me. She makes me smile just thinking about her. I do regret Harry not knowing about her because she is part of us both. I have survived on my own, we live in a nice house, I can put food on the table and I have a job that is flexible so I get to spend time with her as well. It’s always just been me and her and that’s how I’ve liked it. Of course I have friends but my family didn’t want to know once I got pregnant and none of Harry’s family, friends or boy band knows. I get the odd tweet off them now and again, and the odd phone call but I’ve been careful not to let it drop out. I don’t want my daughter being all over newspapers and magazines!
I finished work at 3 o clock and went to get all my stuff together. I signed myself out and went to grab sign Belle out. ‘Belle, go and get you bag please’ I said and I signed her out. I saw her toddler off in her dancing way to get her stuff and smiled. ‘How’s she been Sam?’ I asked one of my co-workers. ‘Been absolutely fine, we’ve had lots of fun haven’t we Belle?’ she spoke to Belle as well as she had just come back with her bag on her back. ‘Yeaa, I made a picture mommy!’ she said to me and pulled Sam with her to get it! I smile ‘Oh wow, really! I can’t wait to see it.’ I found her daily book and picked up her drinks bottle and put it all in her bag while she got the picture. She ran over to me so proud of herself. ‘Oh wow that’s beautiful! Who did you draw?’ I asked. ‘I drew you! It’s mommy!’ She said with a big grin on her face and her dimples showing. ‘I tell you what Belle, when we get home because it’s so beautiful we put in on the fridge?’ I asked her. ‘Yeaaa!’ and jumped she said goodbye to a few of the other children with a little hug while I picked up my bag and her bag. ‘Thank you for looking after her I will see you next week! Have a nice weekend!’ I said to everyone. ‘Come on Belle time to go home!’ She ran to me and held my hand as we walked out the building. ‘You had a good day Bee?’ I asked her as we walked to the car. ‘Yea... I did lots of playing and I ate all my food! It was yummy!’ she gave me a cheeky grin. I smiled ‘That’s good then, I don’t have to feed you tonight’ I tickled her belly when she was strapped into the car! She laughed. ‘Yes I like food!’ I kissed the top of her head and closed her door and put the bag in the front seat passenger side. I got in the driver’s side and turn on her favourite C.D and started the car. ‘Off home we go!’ I looked back and smiled, she was my little ray of sunshine. She was looking out the window I put the car into drive and started to drive home.
I got home and unstrapped Belle from the car seat and she ran to the door while I grabbed our bags and locked the car and went to unlock the front door. ‘Mommy can I go play with my toys?’ she asked. ‘Of course Belle, I’ll be in kitchen making you a drink!’ I said as I press her nose and kiss her hair. I put out bags on the side I check my phone and see I have a text of Liam. ‘Hey Lucy, fancy going for a coffee in London after tour need a catch up?’ Oh Liam always wants to catch up. I’ve been once to meet him but every other time he’s asked I’ve had Belle. Liam is like a brother to me and always got in touch when I ran from Harry and wasn’t angry, maybe I should tell him about Belle.
I text him back ‘Come round mine at 8.30pm? I need to speak to you! :)’ I attached my address to the text and sent it. I put my phone back on the side and I washed Belle’s drink cup out and filled it with orange squash and got her some fruit for a snack. I chopped an apple up and added a few chopped up grapes and raisins into a bowl ‘Belle food!’ I called and she came running. ‘Oh she loved her food!’ I put her fruit on the table and a drink and helped her wash her hands before putting the food on her mini desk. I kissed her head and looked through her daily book. ‘Thank you mommy!’ I smiled. My phone went off again and I quickly checked it. Liam: ‘That’s fine want me to bring food?’ Always looking after people I smiled at the phone and text back. ‘Yes please, bring whatever you fancy and some for me ;P I’ll see you later! X’ and put my phone down. Belle went back to playing with her toys while I washed her bowl up and started preparing her dinner for 5ish.
Once Belle had her tea and her bath she was now getting ready for bed. I brushed her hair and dried it and helped her into her Pj’s. She laid in bed and I tucked her in and we read a story. ‘I love you baby!’ I said and kissed her hair. ‘Love you to Mommy!’ in a sleep voice. I dulled the lights and went to my room to wash myself and change into something comfortable ready for Liam. Belle was in bed for 7.15 and asleep. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=95106287 I ended up putting my pj’s on and putting my hair in a messy bun. Liam had seen my messy before. I checked on Belle turning the lights of and shutting stair gates at the top and bottom of stairs.
I had a quick tidy up of Belle’s toys; I never get a few minutes to myself. I heard someone knocking on the door, I checked the time if that was Liam he was early! I opened the door to see all the guy minus Harry. ‘Eh Hey!’ I said and smiled at them a bit shocked. ‘Im sorry, they were sneaking through my phone and wouldn’t let me out until I said they could come hope that’s okay?’ Liam looked at me apologetically ‘Yea that’s fine!’ I laughed Oh great more to tell this is going to get back to Harry now.
‘When I knew Liam was coming to visit I had to come see my little sister! We’ve missed you!’ Louis said and gave me a big hug as did all the rest. ‘We come baring gifts of food!’ Niall said. I smiled ‘Kitchen through there. I looked up the stairs cause I heard a noise. Liam followed my look and noticed the stair gates and toys everyone. ‘I’ll be right back Liam, there’s plates and glasses in the cupboards make yourself at home’ I ran up the stairs and into Belle’s room she was upset. I walked in ‘What’s wrong Bee?’ I sat on the bed and Belle jumped into my arms. I cuddled her and rubbed her back. ‘Mommy monsters under bed!’ She clung closer to me. ‘Oh Belle baby girl it’s okay mommy make them go away with my special dust come downstairs with me and I’ll get my special dust are you ready?’ She jumped into my arms and then I remembered who was down there. Here goes nothing. I walked down carrying Belle she was playing with my hair. ‘Belle, there are a couple of Mommy’s friends downstairs okay, don’t worry they’re all really kind okay?’ I asked Belle. She nodded her head and snuggled closer to me. I took a deep breath and went to walk through the living room to the kitchen a couple were in the living room and the rest was in the kitchen. Belle had her face buried in my neck and I saw them Give my a look. ‘Mommy’s got the special dust, we’ll get rid of those monsters okay are you ready?’ she nodded. ‘We gotta be big and brave!’ I grabbed the salt and walked back upstairs with the boys behind me curious. I put Belle down and I got my knees by her bed and lifted the sheets up and grabbed a handful of salt. ‘Are you ready Belle on the count of 3, 1, 2, 3 and I blew the salt under her bed and she ran by me and looked under there. Liam turned the light on and Belle smiled. ‘Mommy said bye, bye to monster!’ and hugged me. She looked at the boys and I heard an intake of breathe and I closed my eye they can see the resemblance ‘Hi, mommy’s friends. I’m Belle!’ I sorted Belle’s bed out and made it comfy and turned they were on their knees at Belle’s level. ‘Hi Belle, I’m Liam’ he smiled ‘This is Zayn, Louis and Niall.’ He said pointed at the guys. I saw them smile and wave. ‘Come on Bee back to bed for you, we have a busy day tomorrow!’ She waved and ran to me. I put her back in bed, tucked her in and gave her a kiss on the forehead. ‘I love you Bee!’ ‘I love you mommy’ and dulled the lights again and we all walked down the stairs. I shut the gates and sat on the sofa waiting for the questions to begin.
‘Who’s that we just met?’ Liam asked. I looked up at him and then the others. ‘My daughter, Belle.’ I said simply. ‘How old is she?’ Liam asked putting two and two together. ‘2 and a half years old.’ I replied. ‘Is she Harry’s?’ Louis asked next. I swallowed and looked up at him. ‘Yes.’ I looked at their faces there was shock and confusion. ‘Is that why you went away 3 years ago and I take it he doesn’t know?’ Zayn asked.
I shook my head. ‘I didn’t want to mess he’s or your career up, think of what the pap’s would say as 1. I’m a year older than him and 2. I don’t want me daughter being all over headlines saying ‘Harry’s love child’ or something. I want my daughter to have a normal childhood and not be frightened by people trying to get pictures of her! It’s not fair to her!’ I said to the boys and got up and walked into the kitchen. Louis followed me and watched as I put washing into the washing machine. I had been put off my food while having this conversation. ‘But what about Harry, it’s not fair on him either, it hit him hard when you up and left!’ Liam said leaning against the door way. ‘What was I supposed to do, stay and tell Harry and put a stop to his career? How could I do that when you were touring and been touring, I couldn’t handle saying good bye for months on end and my daughter wondering when her Dad, also he’s a bit of a ladies’ man, I’m not having the upset!’ That was my final word. We didn’t speak about it again that night.
At 10pm I started to grow tired and couldn’t keep my eyes open, they saw this and said their goodbyes!
I hugged each of them and when they were gone I locked up and checked on Belle. I smiled from the doorway and then went to bed I was fast asleep by 10.30pm.