In Too Deep

"I want to get my nose pierced." Vic stopped in front of a tattoo shop. He put his face against the glass. Kellin laughed. The tan boy looked like a child at at pet store. He wrapped his arm around his waist.
"Why would you want to ruin your cute nose?" Kellin pulled the other boy to kiss the tip of his nose. Vic scrunched his face up. Vic ran into the middle of the walkway. He threw his hands up and spun in circles.
"I love this mall!" Kellin let out another laugh.
"Do you love it more than me?" Vic stopped, looking at his boyfriend. He smiled.
"I love Kellin Fucking Quinn!!!" People around the boys stared. Kellin walked forward, stopping in front of Vic.
"I love Vic Fuentes!!!" Their laughs echoed off the walls. Vic hugged Kellin.
"I don't want this to ever end. I feel like I'm dreaming." Vic whispered. Kellin returned the hug.
"Then let's never wake up." He closed his eyes as Vic kissed him. He loved this. Just kissing Vic could make him feel like he's on fire, imagine sex.
"I think this is my favorite of your memories with Vic." Kellin opened his eyes. Vic was no longer there. He was on the beach that Oli and him use to hang out on. Speak of the devil, Oli was standing there with his arms crossed over his chest but this time he was just Oli. There was no bullet wound, only a smirk. Kellin groaned.
"Why are you in my dreams? I-"
"Yeah I'm annoying, you're confused because you have no idea what's going on with Vic, and I probably interrupted a soon to be sex dream. You have some weird ones."
"S-shut up-p." Kellin felt his face turn red. "Do you always watch my dreams?" Oli sat on the ground, patting the seat next to him. Kellin took the offer.
"Yeah I go in yours or Vic's."
"What does Vic dream about?" Oli sighed.
"Some pretty dark shit I'll tell you that. I never show him myself though." Kellin started playing with his hands.
"So I didn't help his dreams?"
"No you did. It's just it starts off nice but then you alway end up leaving him. They are really bad. It's usually stuff like you don't love him, you're leaving him for Amy, ect."
"I would never do that!" Oli put a hand on Kellin's shoulder. "Do you know why he's freaking out?"
"I can't tell you that. You have to fix this one yourself." Oli watched Kellin trace patterns in the sand. "He still blames himself for my death. He still dreams of that day over and over again. But sometimes he is the one that's holding the gun."
"Has he hurt himself?" Oli looked over with a puzzled look.
"You don't trust him?"
"I'm just afraid that he's lying to me. I can see his wrists but everytime he goes to change his pants, he leaves for the bathroom or kicks me out."
"Maybe he's shy." Kellin hit Oli on the shoulder.
"Not funny." Oli chuckled.
"It's a little funny." He frowned when Kellin didn't laugh. "Come on you set yourself up for that one. He's afraid."
"Of what?"
"That you are going to take one look at him and think he's disgusting. You both have somethings you need to talk about." Oli stood in front of Kellin. "You're both keeping things and if you want to be together for more than a year, you need to stop beating around the bush. Hell if you keep this up I don't think you'll be together longer than 2 months." Kellin walked to the edge of the water. "Don't touch it. You'll wake up."
"Maybe I need to wake up."
"That was pretty deep, mate." Kellin rolled his eyes.
"I'm serious. What if he kills himself? That would be three people I've let die." Oli put a arm around his shoulders.
"No matter what I would have died except it would have been in a car accident. If things continue right with you guys Vic will live past high school." Kellin looked over at Oli who was staring out into the water.
"Will we still be together?" Oli sighed.
"Not even my ghostly deathy powers know that. Only time will tell." They sat in silence. "You need to show him that you love him." Kellin raised his eyebrows.
"You're joking right?" Oli frowned.
"Does it seem like I'm joking?" No it didn't look like he was joking but he just had to be. It wasn't that long ago that Kellin gave Vic his first kiss. Doing anything else just seemed....dirty. Like he was tainting something that was meant to stay pure.
"I can't-what?-no. That's just.....wrong."
"But going to a party and fucking random people isn't."
"That's different! I don't plan on being with them longer than that said night. Besides Vic is just so innocent." Oli scoffed.
"That boy is far from innocent. You have not seen his personal dreams." Kellin blushed. So Vic did think about it. He didn't think the tan male had it in him.
"Why are you watching those? You're a disgusting perv."
"They don't exactly have porn where I'm going." Kellin placed his hands over his ears. He did not want to hear this. There was a tap on his shoulder and he reluctantly removed his hands. "It's time to wake up."
"Is this going to be 2 a.m. like last time?" Oli shrugged.
"I don't know. Once you wake up go to Vic's room. Find out what is wrong then do something nice. Maybe take him on another date. Afterwards make sure you guys are alone then do whatcha gotta do." He winked before shoving Kellin forward into the water. He never reached it though. He sat up in bed, looking at the clock. It was 3:24.
"Oh god damn it. Oli once I die I'm torturing you for the rest of eternity." He whispered into the darkness and he could almost hear the faint chuckled of his best friend. Kellin jumped out of bed, making his way towards Vic's room. He let himself in and headed over to the sleeping boy.
Vic's chest was rising and falling at a steady pace. His brown curly hair was laying across the pillow. He looked peaceful but Kellin noticed from the moonlight pouring through the window that Vic ha been crying. The stain from the tears falling from his face still graced his cheeks. Kellin sat next to him.
"Kellin." The pale boy tensed before realizing Vic was only talking in his sleep. He didn't know whether to be happy or worried about what the other boy was dreaming. He curled up into Vic's side, wrapping his arms around the tan boy's small waist. Kellin didn't realize that with this small action, he actually woke Vic up.
"I don't know what I did but I'm sorry. And I know that you aren't really hearing this but I really care about you. More than you probably realize. I need you to be the only stable thing in my life. I find myself falling even more in love with you everyday we spend together. I'm afraid that by having sex, we are going to ruin everything." Kellin's grip tightened. "I don't want lose you, Vic. I want to wake up in the morning to you sleeping beside me or shout the whole school that I'm undeniably in love with you. Spending the rest of my life with you wouldn't be so bad. In fact it would be paradise." Vic felt fresh tears falling down his face. Kellin went to leave the bed but was stopped by to hands on his arm. He turned to see Vic, wide awake, crying.
"Where do you think you're going?" Vic brought his boyfriend to his original position. Kellin wiped some tears with his thumb.
"I was going to my room. How much did you hear?" Vic shifted so they were facing each other.
"Enough to realize that this is your room."
"What made you so upset?" Vic ran his fingers through Kellin's hair, stopping to cup his cheek.
"It's not important anymore." Kellin kissed the other boy lightly.
"I love you, so much."
"Cariño, te amo con todo mi corazón." Vic's words made a shiver travel down Kellin's spine.
"I swear I'm going to have to purchase a Spanish dictionary. But I like the sound of that." Vic hummed happily.
"You should."
"What does that mean?" Vic pulled Kellin into a deeper kiss. When they pulled away both of them were breathing heavily.
"It means 'Darling, I love you with all my heart.'" Kellin smiled.
"How do you say 'soul mates'?"
"Alma gemela." Kellin frowned.
"I think that's wrong." Vic raised an eyebrow.
"What is it really then?"
"How about Vic and Kellin?" They laughed. Vic snuggled deeper into the pale male's chest.
"That was corny." He stated.
"I know but that's why you're dating me." Kellin put his chin on top of Vic's head. He wouldn't trade this for the world.
"Let's go to sleep."
"You're not kicking me out." Vic shrugged.
"I can't kick out my favorite pillow."
"I think I've been promoted."
"Just sleep." Kellin twirled a little piece of Vic's hair around his finger. He kissed the top of his head, mumbling an 'I love you'. He would never grow tired of saying that to the boy in front of him. Just like he would never hate the sound of Vic returning the words just as they fell asleep in each other's arms.