Weightless.
Free.
I hug each one if my doctors. I tell them thank you for everything they've done for me. I promise to eat, to get better, to prosper, and to encourage others to do the same.
I hug my mother so tightly it hurts. I cry on her shoulder and apologize for my actions, for making her worry. I tell her I love her and I will never hurt her again. I let her know that I missed her more than anything.
I hug myself because it helps. I vow to follow my meal plans. To be healthy again. To love myself and those around me. To laugh myself to tears simply because it feels good. To talk about my problems instead of holding them inside. To live my life to the fullest and not let anything or anyone stop me. Not Ana, not Mia. Not a number on a scale.
I don't need to be weightless. I can finally be free.
I hug my mother so tightly it hurts. I cry on her shoulder and apologize for my actions, for making her worry. I tell her I love her and I will never hurt her again. I let her know that I missed her more than anything.
I hug myself because it helps. I vow to follow my meal plans. To be healthy again. To love myself and those around me. To laugh myself to tears simply because it feels good. To talk about my problems instead of holding them inside. To live my life to the fullest and not let anything or anyone stop me. Not Ana, not Mia. Not a number on a scale.
I don't need to be weightless. I can finally be free.
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Yes this is the end. I really enjoyed writing this, even the triggering parts and I am grateful to every one of my readers. I may write a new story about EDs but for now I'm working on Nano.If you or someone you know is struggling with and eating disorder don't wait, get help. I'm happy to talk to anyone who needs encouragement. You're beautiful always.