Fighting Feelings

" Okay so which one?" I asked cheerfully as I held up a few pictures, I'm currently seeking Marshall's opinion on photos I've just received back and see which one he likes for my new album cover.

"I like all of them" he replied like he has done for the other 5 photos I've shown him. Once again Marshall's not being much help when he keeps choosing every photo of me.

" I give up" I sigh knowing it's finally time to give up and ask someone else because I'm not going to get an answer out of Marshall who seems to be liking every single on of them.
Instead of showing him anymore I just started packing them up seeing there's no use.

" what you cant expect me to pick your album cover!! " he said noticing how I'm quite upset that he's not helping, he doesn't have to defiantly choose one but he could at least give me an opinion.

" I'm not, I just thought you might like to give your opinion on some, but it doesn't matter I'll ask someone else" I answered him, still not bothering to look at him but rather continuing to pack up. I'm not angry I just thought Marshall might like to look at them Since he knows how excited I am for this album, but I guess not.

" okay, fine if you want my honest opinion I like this one for your album cover. It's more laid back and more you than these other ones, plus not to mention you look hot in it" he said finally giving in and telling me his honest opinion about these photos. Looking at the picture he has recommended I couldn't help but laugh knowing he's chosen one of my favorites but has also chosen the one Christine hated, apparently she thinks it's boring and does nothing for me.

" yeah I like this one as well....... Thanks" I smiled knowing I can't push it to much and shouldn't show him any more photos because he really doesn't seem interested, instead he's more Intrigued by the magazine he's reading.

" so has Christine said anything about the article about us?" He asked as I leant back on the lounge and for comfortable next to him, I looked down at the magazine I saw he was reading the same article fifty read the other day.

" yeah she wasn't to happy....... But she was more furious when she figured out it wasn't entirely false" I answered him slowly not knowing if he's going to her mad since we haven't talked about telling our managers yet.

" hang on!!! She knows about us?" He asked shocked to hear my comment and finding out that Christine knows about us.
I Can tell he's not to happy about the idea but I'm not sure why. He was the one who wanted everyone around us to know.

" look Ashely I don't want our relationship to become a thing Christine uses to get media attention" he snapped, glaring at me like I've done the worst thing ever.
I'm shocked but also hurt knowing Marshall reacted so quickly and
Defensively to the thought of us going public to the world.
This made me mad and I couldn't help but get up in anger and go gather my things up, I'm not really up for his bullshit right now I know I have better things to do.

" where are you going?" He asked, shocked that I am so pissed. How can't he tell he's comment was hurtful to me, of course it seems like he's embarrassed by us and doesn't want the world to know.

I think from me not answering back and continuing to pack up he figured out that I'm pissed of at the moment.

" oh come on, I didn't mean it like that" he said leaning forward and grabbing me softly around my waist and pulling me back onto his lap and back onto the couch.

" what I mean is I don't want Christine to manipulate things or make shit up just for her advantage" he explained with his arms around me holding me close to him so I can't leave.

" you know to be completely honest with you, Christine hates the idea of us being together.
You want to know the exact words she said to me when she found out about us?" I said trying to make the mood as calm as possible since I know Marsha's going to hate what I say next.

" she said ' I'd rather you come out dating a woman rather than come out dating Eminem" I said repeating the words she said to me an how angry she was about Eminem.
What surprised me most was how he didn't seem to get that angry over her harsh words.

" ouch, well Least we know she's not going to leak any dumb story about us anytime soon" he joked before returning back to tickling with me and messing on the lounge with me.

" you really should be a lot nicer to me" i laughed after he finally got my body placed perfectly on the lounge. He's how standing up of the couch as I'm looking up at him wondering what's going to come next between us since Marshall has decided to lighten up.
All I can tell is the way Marshall is looking at me after placing his documents on his desk making sure I stay on the couch it's going to be a long enjoyable afternoon in his office catching up like usual.

Marshall p.o.v

Again it's another day in Michigan, another Raining and cold winter day where majority of people stayed home In their nice cosy homes.

But once again Ashely and I find ourselves curled up sharing a blanket trying to keep warm after again making love in my office seeing this is the only place we can both meet up comfortably. Once again I'm stuck doing work at my studio and really don't have time to drive home because by the time I
Arrive it's time to head back.

" your amazing you know that" I mumbled laying on the couch with her underneath me smiling like always.
Not many girlfriends will still be okay making out in the office like we're sneaking around, but every time I
Let her down and say I'm busy with work she never minds to come over as keep me company even if it is sitting on my couch talking for
Half an hour or so.

" thanks.... But any girl would do this so it's not a big deal" she smiled, holding my head in her hands trying to make me feel better about myself but all I feel is anger and guilt knowing this isn't the ideal spot to bring my girlfriend all the time.

" haha nah they would have bolted by now" I replied, looking down and watching the movements of my hands massaging her gently, groping her breast through her bra wanting so badly to see her naked.

" well I guess they don't love you like I do, because you can Bring me here a million times and I'll still be happy. So don't worry it's only something we have to do while your busy,things will change soon" she explained, always knowing how to put a smile on my face.
After everything that's happened with my girls and Christine finding out she still manages to find the positive things in life and see our future as being bright.

" yeah I guess your right" I just said before leaning in and kissing her passionately again allowing our bodies to respond to the desires. It didn't take long before we are once again rolling around trying to do everything possible to keep us sticking together. It was defiantly heading in the direction of sex again just where I wanted it to go but of course her being the sensible one she stops me knowing the guys would be arriving soon to do some work in the studio.

" so I'm planning on telling my boys tonight, is that alright with you?.... It's just they are going away in two days with their father so if they're not happy about us they can have some time to think about it" she said, while putting her last piece of clothing on as I'm just doing my watch up.
I'm surprised by her comment and her question since I wasn't aware she was going to tell them so quickly but it's not like I can complain or anything.

" are you sure? I don't want you to feel pressured just because my girls found out it anything" I said, worried that shes feeling pressured to tell them. In happy if she wants to wait for a while, but I'm also happy if she wants to tell them.

" yeah I'm ready,... Besides I'll think they're going to be cool with it, they love you already" she answered smiling trying to reassure me everything going to work out fine.
Seeing her face I can't help but feel relief as well, making me grab her and pull her closer to me before smashing my lips to hers. She just seems to have this ability that convinces me everything is dandy and there's nothing to worry about that somehow things will be perfect soon.

" yeah, I'm just hoping they don't react like my girls did" I commented sadly, watching as Ashley went to fix up the lounge and tidy my office up like she always does after we've had sex in here.
Even though my girls love Ashley they still reacted badly until they got used to the idea and actually thought about it, I'm just hopping Ashley's boys react better and actually like the fact I'm dating their mother because I don't know how much more I can take of people not approving of us.

Seeing Ashley's busy making things look nice and tidy I just went to check my emails knowing I need to stay on track with work.

" that was different Marshall, trust me there isn't going to be any dramas with my boys" she smiled placing her hands on my shoulders giving them a little massage before kissing my head gently. Seeing she's being so carefree and seems to already know things are going to be fine with her boys i begin not to stress as much and relax just like she is.

I try really hard not to lean back an rest as she continues giving my shoulders a massage while I'm checking my emails, removing all knots that have built up from all this stress.

" I should head of, give you time to get some work done" she said, pulling me out of my thoughts and back to earth. I totally forgot I said the D12 guys could come to the studio and I will help them a little bit, now seeing I'm so relaxed and hating how Ashley has to leave I'm kind of regretting my offer instead just wanting to spend time with Ashley.

Seeing how she's already gathering her things up I get up ready to walk her out.

" so I'll see you tomorrow night?......" I asked wanting to know if she's still cool chilling at mine since she doesn't have the boys this week and I'm getting the girls the following day leaving Ashley and I to only spend tomorrow night together.

I was smirking at her as I watched that flirtatious smile come across her face, obvisiouly she's thinking about all the things we can get up to tomorrow night.

" yeah I'm gonna have to check my diary though" she joked, shocking me a little bit since I swear she was going to flirt and say some seductive thing instead of a joke like that. But seeing the smile on her face I couldn't help but laugh as I watched her continuing on joking while walking out.

" haha hilarious... " I joke before leaning into her. I swear she thought I was leaning in to kiss her or something but instead I quickly grabbed onto her waist and began tickling her outrageously while playfully picking her up.

" hahahaha stop... Stop.... I'm sorry I'll be honored to come to yours" she joked laughing hysterically and loudly as Im twirling her around and tickling her, smiling as I listen to her trying to talk herself out of this and escape my grip, but deep down I knows she's loving this.

We continued mucking around and playing while walking through my studio. She would manage to escape my hold for a few seconds laughing while flirting and playing insanely with me as the smiles only grew bigger.

Once again she throws jokes and comments at me knowing which ones drive me crazy and it's only a few seconds of me chasing her till Im again wrapping my arms around her and picking her up slightly,
tickling her while demanding she takes her comments back.

" Never!!!!" She declared, laughing as she continues on with playing around with me. Since she's denying to take back the harmless comments I just continue tickling her and mucking around as we very slowly make our way toward the front door.

Im not really paying attention where I'm walking all I know is we're making our way through the massive open music room that is usually used when my band comes to play and learn my new music, I'm
just seeing the door to my office getting smaller telling me we're just about to walk out into the massive open area where everyone usually hangs out.
I'm Enjoying tickling Ashley way to much and I can't help but get caught up checking her out while not paying attention to anything else but making Ashley happy.

But All of the sudden I felt Ashley's mood change, for some reason her whole body just tensed up under my touch.

" umm Marshall.... " she muttered softly, obvisiouly trying to get my attention, but I'm just so caught up in the moment and playing with Ashley I don't listen to her and continue mucking around, this time holding her closer and moving my lips to her neck preparing to give her a hickey which she hates.

" Mar...Marshall....." She muttered again, her hands gently holding on to me as my head is nuzzled into her neck and my lips have already attached themselves. I was planning on continuing with my hickey not worrying about her saying my name since my name is always leaving her mouth especially when I'm pleasuring her.

But it's just something about her sudden mood and tone of her voice and without even looking at her face I can feel something is wrong with her, so deciding to stop my hickey I detach my lips from her neck and look up at her to see her looking shocked and worried as she stares at something over my shoulder.

So Slowly I turn around wondering whats got her so speechless to figure out we've got an audience.

I'm now looking at 5 very shocked and surprised guys who most people know as d12 not mention Royce who's finding it hard to hide his amusement.

" Yo, what are you guys doing here so early?" I asked breaking the awkward silence between us all as Ashley stands behind me knowing we've been caught and can't lie out of this even if we wanted to which we don't.

" Umm its 3pm the normal time we organized to meet up" Kon artist answered looking down at his watch just to double check. Surely time couldn't have travelled that quickly.

" remember we kind of got distracted earlier on" Ashley whispered in my ear softly, hoping I only hear her comment but from Royce's little laughter I can tell the other guys obviously heard it as well.
Even I can't help but laugh a little at her comment, not really trying to hide my amusement from the guys as they continue just staring at the both of us not saying one word.

" I'm gonna head of, leave you guys to talk" Ashley again said in my ear this time a little bit more louder and not as shocked as before. She can tell the guys don't know what to say while she's around and since she's really keen not to step on anyone's feet or make anyone uncomfortable she begins placing her coat on getting ready to leave.

" I'll call your tonight when I get home" I said before she give me one last smile and heads for the door. Just watched her leave knowing there's no way of convincing Ashley to stay, she can notice the awkward tension between us guys and just knows it's time for her to head of home, leaving me here to explain things.

Silence just comes over all of us as soon as we heard the front door slam shut, I really don't know how to break the ice since they've all got different emotions on their faces.

"'I was planning on telling you guys" I said, deep down wanting them to stop staring at me and maybe say something about this but they just kept silence like they're thinking what to say, until I notice a smirk forming over bizarre face.

" that what?? You're fucking Ashley Ann...... Haha don't worry about it dude" Bizarre joked before cracking up laughing and breaking the silence. All the other guys seem to loosen up and start laughing as soon as he drops his comment.
To me it actually seems they are generally okay and happy about us and I feel relieved knowing in not going to have any troubles.

" yeah i don't know why you've been so private about it all. She's some hot piece of ass, probably an amazing fuck" Kon artist commented making me cringe in anger as he's walking towards me and giving me a handshake like all the other guys seem to be doing. At first I wondered why they're congratulating me than I remember this is what most guys do when they find out someone is just fucking or using some hot chick.
Now I know there confused by what I mean, I also see Royce has noticed that they're praising me for the wrong ideas.

" that's not what I mean, we're not just fucking and I'm not using her"
I said once again making silence come over the guys as they stand there figuring out what I actually mean.

" so your friends with benefits than?" Bizarre asked wondering what we actually are. They're so used to me just fucking random girls they're not used to me ever telling them or coming clean that I have a girlfriend.

" no,we're more than that...... She's my girlfriend" I answered him as all the guys are standing round me completely silent, I think they literally stand there for a few seconds not knowing what to say until once again they all burst out in hysterics, laughing so hard at my confession.

" that's a good one, next you'll be saying you're in love" swifty joked making them laugh thinking this is all a joke. I glance at Royce who's looking on with shock and hurt not, I can tell he wants to fix this and help me.

Knowing they're not going to take any thing I say seriously I just stand there watching and waiting for them to finish their jokes and grow the fuck up.
Why can't they take me serious for once, I really care about Ashley and she doesn't deserve to be thrown around like some trashy slut especially from guys who are meant to be my best friends.

Looking up I think A few noticed me glaring at them as they continued laughing saying comments that can't take back.
I never once stop glaring at them until they all quieten down and begin to realize I'm not messing around with them.

" holy shit..... You're not kidding are you" bizarre said noticing my anger
And how they can't seem to understand that I actually really like her.

" no I'm not..... She's my girlfriend" I confidently said knowing I don't have any regrets telling them even though I've known for a while they were going to react like this.
It's like as soon as the comment left my mouth they faces just went from looking amused to looking angry and shocked in a way, I remember Dre looked at me similar back when I told him but I'm completely aware I'm going to get total shit from these guys.

" do you just want to get hurt or something?" Kon artist artist asked, looking at me like I'm digging myself a really deep whole which I won't be able to escape.
Of course they have all started judging her from the way the media portrays her just like people portray me.
But I guess with all the hurt I've been through with women including Mariah they don't seem to have a lot of faith in famous people.

" she's not like that, she's nothing like How the world portrays her" I argued back quickly. I will do anything just to get these guys to give her a chance and believe me she's different than what they're picturing her to be like.

" really because wasn't it only a couple of months ago she was dating multiple young hot models...." Mr potter added making a sarcastic comment once again at something Christine had brainwashed into the media making Ashley look like a slut. I know I wasn't all innocent in it all since I did hurt her but since than I still haven't stopped making things right between us.

" it's complicated" I just mumbled knowing it's way to long and hard to explain things like this to guys who have already made their minds up about her, but that doesn't stop the smart ass comments from the guys.

Being a good guy I decided to stick around hoping they might ease up and want to hear about Ashley and I, but this was a massive mistake.
I've been here for like half an hour sitting with the guys around the conference table just listening to them make stupid jokes about Ashley and I. They couldn't help but make fun of me and kept making it seem like I'm dumb or an idiot for giving her a chance.

" guys come on guys ease up a little" Royce commented trying to stop the guys from joking around. He must have noticed how much it's bugging me and how much I want them to stop. Im coming to the conclusion that Royce is the only one that truly accepts us and is actually happy to be around Ashley and I while we're together.

" come on Marshall knows we're joking" bizarre laughed thinking I'm actually enjoying sitting here while these guys pick at our relationship.
But it's like only two minutes after saying this, when they start up again not as much as before but still making sarcastic, sly jokes amongst themselves.
These guys are meant to be my best friends and this whole time they keep making fun of me not knowing how much I care about her.
Out of everyone I've told these guys are acting the most immature, Dre was a little bit wary about her but he's still giving us a chance and isn't judging her from her past mistakes, just like I hope her friends don't judge me.

" I don't need this bullshit right now. I'm heading home for the day" I muttered angrily, getting up from the table furious that these guys can't see how much they're hurting my feelings.

" oh come on we're only mucking around" the guys shouted trying to make me stay even though for the past 30 minutes I've been sitting here glaring at them hoping to stops

" just leave me alone" I mumbled angrily before walking out of the studio, making sure to let the guard know I need him to lock up after they leave before I hoped in my car and drove off.

When I was just outside the gates I knew there was only one person I wanted to talk too.

Ashley: hey

Me: hey love

Ashley: from the tone in your voice I'm guessing things didn't go to plan

Me: yeah your right about that, they're just being immature jerks who need to grow up.

Ashley: oh I'm sorry Marshall

Me: don't be, I'm just so over people not accepting us.

Ashley: same here but I'm hoping things change when people get used to us.

Me: yeah that's what I'm hoping........ Anyway I just wanted to call and hear your voice.

Ashley: awww well you know you can call me anytime you want.

Me: thanks...... What are you doing now?

Ashley: I'm just at my studio doing work, what about you?

Me: just heading home, I left the guys at the studio... I just couldn't take any more of it.

Ashley: that's understandable..... You know you can come by if you a want.... But I'm just doing boring work.

Me: yeah i might just head home And I'll let you get back to your work.
Ashley: okay that's cool.

Me: but I'll see you tomorrow night.

Ashley: sure will, I'll be round after work.

Me: okay I'll see you then...... I love you.

Ashley: I love you too Marshall.

With this I hung up, even though I've had the worst day she still manages to make me smile when I talk to her, I just can't wait till I see her tomorrow.

Royce p.o.v

" you guys can be such dickheads sometimes" I muttered as soon as Marshall left the studio, anger and hurt written all over his face when he couldn't handle their mean sarcastic jokes anymore.

" we were only joking, we've been doing this for years" bizarre answered, still not registering that their comments really effected Marshall.

" but don't you get it, Marshall actually loves this woman and your sitting here bad mouthing her" I yelled angrily trying to make them see how much their comments were actually effecting him. He's been through so much, and for the first time since becoming sober he's actually happy and that's got a lot to do with Ashley but everyone just seems to see her as Ashley Ann.

" he's just setting himself up to get hurt, she's Ashley Ann for goodness sake" Kon artist answered me, still not seeming fussed about those jokes they were just throwing round. I swear Im getting angrier and anger by the minute seeing how they not even going to consider giving her a chance, not even for Marshall's sake.

" so you haven't even given her a chance" I yelled, standing up at the end of the table hoping these guys just grow the fuck up. No wonder Marshall walked out, I would have done the same. I guess people would be thinking why doesn't Marshall just stand up for
himself but of you know him
You will how timid and shy Marshall is and how much he hates confrontation.

" we don't need to, we already know what's going to happen. They'll date for a few months and then shell get bored and breaks his heart, making Marshall hate women even more" Kon artist said confidently, all of them acting like they know how this is going to turn out when they have no clue.
I don't care that Marshall and I have just become friends again and they all have been friends longer it still doesn't give them the right to treat Marshall like they do and use his past against him.

Hearing them say this just proves to me how much they don't know shit.

" haha that's funny because you know they've been dating for nearly a year now and she's still seems pretty keen" I noted, watching as silence filled the room and they all looked shocked to hear that Marshall and Ashley have been seeing each other for nearly a year. Okay so maybe I exaggerated since I think it's only been about 4 months but they've still been sleeping with each other which has to count for something.

" now you guys don't know what to say do you, because we all know Marshall's been so happy lately and that's got a lot to do with Ashley" I said while they all still sitting here not knowing what to say and coming to realization that Ashley is doing Marshall well.

" look just think about giving her a chance or even giving Marshall a chance to tell you about them since this wasn't just a sudden thing" I continued seeming a lot calmer than before. There's no point to yell seeing they're all adults and know what the right thing to do is.

They don't say much after I give them a lecture about giving Ashley a chance, they are all actually pretty quiet and I think I've might have gotten through to them.
I'm just about to call Marshall and hopefully get him back here but before I can even dial his number I here the front door opening.

" you decided to come back" I yelled walking towards the front door hoping to greet him, but instead of greeting Marshall I see Paul looking confused while coming down the corridor and entering the studio where us guys are sitting.

" sorry thought you were Marshall" I apologized watching as Paul comes in looking very confused to see all of us but no Marshall

" isn't he meant to be here hanging with you guys?" He asked looking around probably wondering why the guys are all quiet while I'm hoping To convince Marshall to come back. I really think the guys are going to shut their mouths and keep their opinions to themselves but you never know with them.

" yeah he was but he went home" bizarre answered Paul with this little smirk on his face, it kind of seemed like he thought Marshall leaving In an upset mood was quiet funny.
But Paul just stood their still really not sure what's going on and why Marshall just left.

" hahaha so Paul do you know about Marshall and Ashley?" Mr Porter asked while trying not to laugh or make it look like he's finding this all amusing, but I can tell he is.

Paul becomes more confused seeing he has no clue what they're talking about.

" what are you guys talking about? What's happening between Marshall and Ashley? " he asked, glancing between all of us guys wanting to know what the hell is going on. I just stood back not wanting to tell Paul seeing it's not my place to say anything.
But seeing how the guys have begun laughing again I can tell they're about to let Paul in on something Marshall should be telling him.

" oh so you don't know they're dating and are madly in love" bizarre joked making the other guys crack up in laughter. I swear I could hit these guys seeing they being so unreasonable and unfair to Marshall.

" what??" Paul asked sounding shocked and stunned to hear that about Marshall and Ashley, I think he's still hoping they're joking.

" yeah we just caught them together. It's pretty bizarre isn't it seeing they've apparently been dating for nearly a year " Kon artist said trying to explain more to Paul who looks surprised and shocked to be hearing that the guy he manages has been Dating the biggest female artist and somehow has kept it a secret from him.

I've had Enough of this bullshit, and without even thinking about it I go and grab my things.

" you guys have no right to judge him since you know nothing about it nor are you willing to give them a chance" I yelled angrily, gathering my things up knowing I have more important things to do than stay here and listen to them.

" we're only joking, just having some fun" bizarre said noticing how angry I've gotten and how I'm so over all this.

" really because I'm pretty sure Marshall worries more about your opinions than anyone else's. So you making smart Ass comments isn't helping anyone" I replied not even bothering to look at them, just wanting to get out of here.

I begin walking towards the front door ready to leave these guys.

" you know Isn't it true that Marshall has stuck by you and has been there for you guys through a lot..... So isn't it only fair you do the same for him" I said looking at all of them before walking our and leaving them to enjoy their jokes.

Marshall p.o.v

silence filled the house as I'm sitting here alone doing work in the studio. Seeing how I don't have the girls until a few more days and how I'm meant to be at the studio the only thing left really to do is stupid work.
I've been so close to giving up on all this paper work but the only thing that keeps me going is knowing I won't have to do it tomorrow and can spend time with Ashley.

The guys are probably still hanging at the studio, I can just imagine them all sitting round still saying sarcastic jokes and mean comments about Ashley and I. I knew they were going to be the hardest to tell but to me they also were the most important since I've known these guys my whole life, so it really hurt to hear them say things and not give Ashley a chance.

" Marshall, Paul's here" Nathan screamed from downstairs. Placing my things I wonder why Paul's even here since it's nearly 9:30 pm and he's usually having fun with some younger woman by now.

" hey man, what brings you here so late!" I asked walking down the stairs seeing Paul standing in the open foyer. I know this must be important since he never comes this late over.

" I've just been hanging with the guys at the studio, they had a few interesting things to say" he commented, not looking very impressed to see me or just in general.

I slow down realizing what he's referring to and what he's talking about.

" so I'm guessing you know then" I commented softly, walking down the last few steps until I'm facing a very angry Paul.

" about you and Ashley? yeah I've been hearing all about you guys. Can't say I'm to pleased about it all" he grumbled, glaring me down with his hands on his hips like he always stands when he's not happy about something. Let's add another one to the list of people who don't like the thought of ashley and I being together.

" I was going to tell you, it's just been complicated with the girls and stuff" I explained hoping he can see how I didn't mean to lie or keep things from him. Paul's been my manager for ever and I promised I wouldn't keep anything from him but once again Ive broken this promise.

" you still could have warned me or something, I'm your manager" he yelled a little louder. Just by the way he's standing an glaring I see this is about to turn Into something much more heated.

" I know and I'm sorry. It was wrong to keep it from everyone" I apologized sincerely, I'm not in the mood to fight about this, lately I've been fighting with everyone including Ashley about the same thing, Im just so exhausted and over it all.

Seeing how I'm not yelling back at him, Paul just looks down trying to think about everything.
I think he was expecting me to fight back and yell at him or abuse him but to be honest I'm so tired fighting everyone and trying to convince them that Ashley's a good person.

" so she was the girlfriend you left New York for? and is the reason you stopped allowing groupies backstage ?" He asked after standing for a few seconds in silence not knowing what to say to each other. I'm guessing he wasn't expecting to find out I'm dating the biggest female artist nor was he expecting to find out I've been lying to him for nearly a year about how deep our friendship went.

" yeah, we were going through a rough patch and I needed to fix up some mess I made and she's not very comfortable with the idea of groupies trying to do everything to jump into bed with me" I answered not even sure why I'm telling him since it's really non of his business, but for some reason I just feel compelled to.

" you know, no offense but this is sounding a lot like Mariah. You fall so hard for girls you change everything for them which isn't usually a good thing Marshall and it never ends well"
Paul commented sternly, once again seeing frustrated that I keep making the same mistakes. He keeps comparing everything to things that have happened in the past.

" Ashley's nothing like Mariah, trust me it's not like I just jumped into this without thinking. I even went back To Kim just so I didn't have to face my feelings for her.... But Ive realized I want to be happy and she makes me happy" I argued back, my voice getting louder and more angrier. Why can't people see I'm happy, my girls are healthy, I've got my career under control and I've got an amazing girlfriend. But it seems these guys who work so closely to Eminem and me can't see anything but my past.
Paul just stood there not quite sure what to say since he wasn't expecting for me to get this worked up over Ashley.

" well Marshall I'm not going to say I'm ecstatic about the idea of you guys dating, but that doesn't mean I won't give her a chance, hopefully your right about her" he replied more calmer this time. I think he's finally understanding that I'm a grown man and can make my own decisions.

Paul chatted for a little while but I can just tell he's still not that happy about the idea.
I guess now everyone close to me know about Ashley and so far Elton has only been happy for us straight away, everyone else seems to think it's a mistake and I'm bound to get hurt.
But I guess i can't complain since majority of the guys are going to give Ashley and I a chance to prove where got something special going on, I just wish d12 who are like my brothers can give Ashley a chance, so they can see the amazing woman I've fallen in love with.