The Promise
The Letter To You
“Today, you don't want to get out of bed. There are so many thoughts in your head. Like you'd be better off dead, better off dead”
Alex’s POV
Dear Roxie,
I see the way you look at yourself in the mirror, I can see that you just don’t love yourself anymore, but you're amazing, beautiful, and everything in between. You don’t seem to love everything you used to and I know late at night when I’m asleep you start to write in that journal of yours, when you're not in bed I can tell its the pillow you replace yourself with, you tend to write that you just aren’t good enough and that no one cares, but I do, and I believe that you are more than enough, you are my perfect angel. I sometimes see in the morning that you fall asleep in your office, with the notebook open for everyone to read, I have after all seen that you just think that your are better off dead, but I believe your are better off in my arms, right where you belong, not six feet underground.
“But let me tell you, There’s a whole world waiting for you're, It’s hard to believe but it’s true. Whoa..”
I already can see the future, your band members love you so much and Miss Mayhem is gonna go far. With the help of me I can get you a record deal in no time. I’m sure Nano can hook you up with Hopeless Records. I know you're not going to believe me but trust me, its true, you're gonna make it. I’ll be there each step of the way.
“So just hold on for me, hold on for me. Cause’ I believe if you go, My heart would break, just hold on one more day.”
I love you so much Roxie and if you decided to go I’d be devastated. I’d possibly fall into a depression and then want to be with you. You're the most beautiful girl ever, you’re my special someone. Just please, hold onto me, hold onto us, make us last.
“Cause’ you are so beautiful. I promise you this, I promise you this. And you are more than capable. Whoa. Just believe in yourself and nobody else is listening”
I love every part of you Roxie, from your hair that leads down to your beautiful hips, your Hershey brown eyes that glint in the most beautiful way possible when in dim light, brightening the whole room up. The smile you carry around everyday, those perfectly perfect little fingers that fit like a completed puzzle with mine, and I can’t forget your hips, I remember that day where you and I went to get them pierced. You had said that your wanted to get them pierced since your were fourteen but you couldn’t, you're strict parents told you no, but once you hit eighteen we went out together to Jack’s brother’s tattoo and piercing place, Joe even did it for free. Every part of you has beauty, even your toes, that sapphire blue that you always paint them has become my favorite color because of you.
“And I May not even know your name, But I promise you I’ve felt the same. As you do right now, you’ll make it somehow And even if you feel as though you have no friends Except the blade that cuts your skin You’re better than this, you’re worth more than this”
Remember when we were fifteen and I was never going to parties or wanting to hang out with Jack and your guys? I was fading into a depression, my brother died earlier that month and I just couldn’t handle it. I felt like everything was my fault and like no one really cared so I chose the blade over getting help. That's why I had cuts all over me, I know the pain you're feeling. I saw the box of blades when I was trying to find the straightener in the bathroom. I could only think why would you be hurting yourself and let me tell you, you have friends, Jack, Zack, Rian, Flyzik and all of the members of Cherri Bomb too, we all love you darling. Your don’t need the sliver of metal, you need us, I know you’ve had a tough life but that's why you have me, after all. I’m always there to talk, even at three am. I’m snuggled right next to you, your in my arms, so I’ll protect you.
“And I believe if you go my heart would break Just hold on one more day. Cause’ you are so beautiful.I promise you this, I promise you this. And you are more than capable. Whoa. Just believe in yourself and nobody else is listening.”
Roxie, I love you too much for you to go, please stay with me. Hold onto me just for one more day so I can prove my love to you, don’t leave me yet, not till we’re older than the moon. I want to live the rest of my life with you, but you have to believe in yourself. You are more than capable to know that I love you, to Neverland and back. We’re twenty six now, and we’ve been dating for ten of them. Will you give me the promise to love me as much as I do you?
So I’ll leave you with this Roxie Nicole Garrett. will you marry me?
Love,
Alexander William Gaskarth
And then once I finish the letter I place the note on her desk, inside a white envelope sprayed with my cologne by Axe, just waiting to be opened by my sleeping princess along with the opened black box with the Tiffany and Co diamond heart engagement ring.
“Sleep well princess.” I say quietly, kissing Roxie’s forehead and tiptoeing out of the office, leaving her to be surprised when she wakes up from a dreamy sleep.
Alex’s POV
Dear Roxie,
I see the way you look at yourself in the mirror, I can see that you just don’t love yourself anymore, but you're amazing, beautiful, and everything in between. You don’t seem to love everything you used to and I know late at night when I’m asleep you start to write in that journal of yours, when you're not in bed I can tell its the pillow you replace yourself with, you tend to write that you just aren’t good enough and that no one cares, but I do, and I believe that you are more than enough, you are my perfect angel. I sometimes see in the morning that you fall asleep in your office, with the notebook open for everyone to read, I have after all seen that you just think that your are better off dead, but I believe your are better off in my arms, right where you belong, not six feet underground.
“But let me tell you, There’s a whole world waiting for you're, It’s hard to believe but it’s true. Whoa..”
I already can see the future, your band members love you so much and Miss Mayhem is gonna go far. With the help of me I can get you a record deal in no time. I’m sure Nano can hook you up with Hopeless Records. I know you're not going to believe me but trust me, its true, you're gonna make it. I’ll be there each step of the way.
“So just hold on for me, hold on for me. Cause’ I believe if you go, My heart would break, just hold on one more day.”
I love you so much Roxie and if you decided to go I’d be devastated. I’d possibly fall into a depression and then want to be with you. You're the most beautiful girl ever, you’re my special someone. Just please, hold onto me, hold onto us, make us last.
“Cause’ you are so beautiful. I promise you this, I promise you this. And you are more than capable. Whoa. Just believe in yourself and nobody else is listening”
I love every part of you Roxie, from your hair that leads down to your beautiful hips, your Hershey brown eyes that glint in the most beautiful way possible when in dim light, brightening the whole room up. The smile you carry around everyday, those perfectly perfect little fingers that fit like a completed puzzle with mine, and I can’t forget your hips, I remember that day where you and I went to get them pierced. You had said that your wanted to get them pierced since your were fourteen but you couldn’t, you're strict parents told you no, but once you hit eighteen we went out together to Jack’s brother’s tattoo and piercing place, Joe even did it for free. Every part of you has beauty, even your toes, that sapphire blue that you always paint them has become my favorite color because of you.
“And I May not even know your name, But I promise you I’ve felt the same. As you do right now, you’ll make it somehow And even if you feel as though you have no friends Except the blade that cuts your skin You’re better than this, you’re worth more than this”
Remember when we were fifteen and I was never going to parties or wanting to hang out with Jack and your guys? I was fading into a depression, my brother died earlier that month and I just couldn’t handle it. I felt like everything was my fault and like no one really cared so I chose the blade over getting help. That's why I had cuts all over me, I know the pain you're feeling. I saw the box of blades when I was trying to find the straightener in the bathroom. I could only think why would you be hurting yourself and let me tell you, you have friends, Jack, Zack, Rian, Flyzik and all of the members of Cherri Bomb too, we all love you darling. Your don’t need the sliver of metal, you need us, I know you’ve had a tough life but that's why you have me, after all. I’m always there to talk, even at three am. I’m snuggled right next to you, your in my arms, so I’ll protect you.
“And I believe if you go my heart would break Just hold on one more day. Cause’ you are so beautiful.I promise you this, I promise you this. And you are more than capable. Whoa. Just believe in yourself and nobody else is listening.”
Roxie, I love you too much for you to go, please stay with me. Hold onto me just for one more day so I can prove my love to you, don’t leave me yet, not till we’re older than the moon. I want to live the rest of my life with you, but you have to believe in yourself. You are more than capable to know that I love you, to Neverland and back. We’re twenty six now, and we’ve been dating for ten of them. Will you give me the promise to love me as much as I do you?
So I’ll leave you with this Roxie Nicole Garrett. will you marry me?
Love,
Alexander William Gaskarth
And then once I finish the letter I place the note on her desk, inside a white envelope sprayed with my cologne by Axe, just waiting to be opened by my sleeping princess along with the opened black box with the Tiffany and Co diamond heart engagement ring.
“Sleep well princess.” I say quietly, kissing Roxie’s forehead and tiptoeing out of the office, leaving her to be surprised when she wakes up from a dreamy sleep.
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This was written for a summer contest I did on AllTimeLowFanfiction.com