See the Rust Through Your Playground Eyes

It would have been okay.

It could have been okay.

I'm not homophobic, it could have been okay.

...But it wasn't.

It can't be okay.

Under the circumstances, it can't be okay, won't be okay.

I know he's not a bad person...I know he said he loves Frank- "with all my heart"...but I just don't get it.

It can't be okay.

I know he said he can take care of him, said he'll love and protect him...but I can't help but have my doubts...he's my baby boy, don't I have the right to doubt Gerard's' intentions?

It can't be okay...not now. Not ever.

Not only because they're both men- I'm not homophobic, it could have been okay-, not because Gerard is 3 years older than Frank -my husband is also older than me, it could have been okay-, but because of the circumstances.

The how and why they met.

It could have been okay.

Under different circumstances, different context, I would have openly supported it, and not kept quiet.

I can't -won't- support it...but I can't -won't- destroy it.

Other circumstances, then it would have been okay.

Not now, not like this.

Not with Gerard's' father and I married to each other.

Not with Gerard and Frank being step brothers.

...Not with Frank's illness.