Teacher. Lover. Maniac.

You felt so many eyes on you, so many threatening eyes and couldn't help but become secretly distressed. Casey always kept close to you, but this didn't make you feel secure at all, you knew what a group of men were capable, even if you tried to fight. But luckily none of them tried anything. Yet.

After a few moments of sipping a bitter sweet alcohol and hearing the hum of voices around you, your mind drifted. You felt like you were no more there, but rather somewhere warmer, more distant. You looked up and saw the bathroom in view, but reverted to the exit, and began to walk. Casey didn't realize that you left as she was having fun with all the attention when she's drunk, along with Nigel. The men around you backed away as you tried to push them lightly from your path and they thought you furious, but you simply wanted to get out of the sickening atmosphere.

You forced the double doors open hastily and walked uninterrupted to the cool outside air. You kept walking until you exit the premises of the tavern then continued down the street. After a solid 5 minute walk, you slowed your walked to a final stop and breathed the cold air and placed your hands behind your head to support it as you leaned in to them. "Oh...My...God..." You whispered to yourself. This felt good. Being alone, feeling the cold prickle over your skin, not caring really.

"You alright?" a deep reassuring voice came from behind you. You opened your eyes from the quiet and turned to see a man, about 26, a short beard with brown hair approach you slowly with one hand in his pocket and the other twiddling with a cigarette. From the dim light, you could see he had a few tattoos on his hand, and a large one on his neck. He breathed in the cigarette and raised his eyebrows for you to respond. You looked back to the night sky and sighed "Yeah.... just needed some air..." He followed beside you and gazed into the same space "And room it looks like." You looked at the man and thought he looked very familiar. He must have felt you staring and he returned the gaze "I'm Peter by the way." He held out his free hand and you shook it gracefully "I'm Casey's brother" You looked at him with a look of recognition. "Huh...." you figured it was his straight comb over hair that made him look different as opposed to Casey's long, messy, wavy hair.

"And you are..." he waved his cigarette hand and you blinked nervously "Oh, I'm ____. Casey's friend..." You both returned your gazes to the night sky and stood in silence. the funny thing was, it didn't feel awkward, it didn't feel tense, in fact it didn't even feel like you were standing next to each other, you were just there, enjoying the air. Finally the silence was broken as he turned "Well, this was nice. Better go get my sister before I have to start knocking people out." He threw away his small cigarette and placed both hand in pocket now and waved over his head a goodbye. You smiled to yourself and thought 'it must be nice to have someone like that...' In an odd sense, he reminded you of Tom.

Fuck! you could not get that man off your mind! You pressed your lips in guilt as you failed to keep your thoughts off him. You shook your head and continued your walk, you were a bit tipsy, but not to the point where you were swaying, just simply dizzy headed. You walked and walked, until finally reached your familiar streets. You were relieved that you didn't run into any trouble like last week. When you arrived at your house, you unlocked the door, entered and collapsed on the couch. Evidently, you were exhausted from the walk, since you fell straight to sleep, no thoughts buggering you, just the whole walk home 'til you finally fell asleep, your mind was blank. You smiled as you engulfed the idea of nothing on your mind. drifting into nothingness.

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It couldn't have felt more real as hands viced your wrist onto a hard surface. You felt him kiss, nibble and lick your neck, sometimes even really hard biting, but you felt you didn't mind since it felt nice, an adrenaline rush. You could hear and feel his breathing as it warmed your ear "I want ALL of you" you could hear the aggression rasp from his throat and you could feel his lips pull back into a snarl as he said so. You could vividly feel his rough hands clutch your thighs and feel your legs as they were placed over top of his waist. You could only glimpse a very shadowed face of Tom as he pulled his head back for you to witness his lustful, greedy, animalistic face, his teeth were still bared. He leaned almost up right, as he did so, you felt vulnerable, bared as your whole upper body had become exposed without the cover of his naked upper body.

He looked down at you with such want and slid his hands slyly down your legs, then groped your waist. Then he pulled it down when suddenly, through his mouth came your cold Mother's voice "Wake up you lazy thing". You opened you eyes with great effort, you struggled to keep them open as they traveled around the room and felt like they were being burnt by the light. You caught a quick glimpse of your mother enter the hall to the rooms before you fluttered your eyes awake.

You felt a surge of pain embrace the inside of your skull. You rubbed your eyes with the palm of your hands and did so for a long minute. "How do you feel?" your mother reentered the living room and turned the corner to the kitchen and was obviously running a personal errand as she didn't stop for anything. "Ugh, like I survived a close call with a grenade" finally stars began to spread across your vision as you kept them open, and these reminded you of Casey's brother last night, which also lead you to remembering that dream, that lustful dream and for once, in a long time, were so happy you weren't a guy and have to wake up to an awkward confrontation of having a boner with your mother around.

"Well maybe you shouldn't drink when you still have school to finish?" You looked at her through the kitchen wall with a looked that said 'really gonna pull that card?'. You sat up and entered the kitchen. When you entered, you stretch and yawned simultaneously and watched your mother as she was resupplying the fridge and cupboards. You joined in with the groceries and both of you stayed silent. After all the packing was done, you kept your eyes down as she moved around you to return to her room. You knew she was leaving again but asked anyway "You leaving again?" You heard thumps and zips come from her room as she yelled back "Yeah, I realized I forgot to get you groceries before I left." She exited her room with a large bright pink suitcase and stopped in front of the door, she gave you a simplistic look "Just heading back to Milan. You should be alright... You're more than capable of taking care of yourself. Especially now that you're drinking" She pointed to your glass of dissolved Advil in a glass of water. You raised it to her as she proceeded to exit.

When she finally entered the cab and drove off, you gave out a long sigh and looked around your now empty home. This felt better than having the awkward presence of a mother who only stays for about... you looked at the stove clock, must have been 40 minutes. You finished your glass then made a cup of coffee and cereal. After a long breakfast, you looked at the time and decided you'd go out for a jog when you finished breakfast.

During your run, your mind stayed blank as it did the night before when you walked home. It seemed the world was just an object, like something that was always gonna be there as you passed it by, suburban street by suburban street, front yard to front yard. You only took notice of the greenery around you with the song "Elastic Heart" By Sia playing. You finally stopped in the park opposite to your street and breathed heavily. You placed your hands on your hips and looked straight ahead, now your thoughts had landed on your dream, your body immediately reacted with goose bumps raising as you felt his firm gasp on your legs and his body in the position as it was in.

"Hey there" that raspy voice from yesterday night greeted you from behind. You twitched and followed his dark eyes as they passed you by and continued to job. Casey's brother was quite handsome, even when he was in a rugged old T-shirt, that the sleeves were now cut and long, paint stained basketball shorts. You caught up and joined his jog. Again you didn't say anything, just the silence was nice. When you finally became tired he stopped and breathed heavily, tugged his head phone out and looked down at you with a smug smile. "Tired already?" you smiled back and motioned him to go on. He didn't follow your gesture and stood beside you with his hands on his hips. "The trick is to keep everything off your mind, even your body working, just blank. " You looked up at him and chuckled "easy for you. You're a guy..." you caught his gaze and he laughed at the small joke.

He looked to his phone and waved you a good bye as he answered it. You nodded and followed your own path home. When you arrived home, you hadn't realized how lonely it was here, without having any siblings, no parents. Just you. You quickly pushed the thought aside and jumped in the shower after stripping bare. You had the song"Skinny Love" original by Bon Iver playing and couldn't help but sing along. When you exited and got dressed, it was only mid-day and thought you might go see what Casey and Nigel were doing. However you second thought that since you knew they had hangovers and didn't really handle them too well, remembering Nigel's incident.

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You finally decided to go to the just outside of town, most people didn't know about it, but the ones who did were just the rangers of the wild life park and fishing fanatics. Fortunately for you, there was nobody at the lake and it was a lovely day. You decided to go swimming after all in nude in a small concealed corner around the other side of the parking/ camping area. When you exited the water you heard a twig break conspicuously and you paused as you were half revealed from the waist up. You slumped back into the water, but this made you wary since you hated having to linger in water for longer than you wanted.

You squinted your eyes to see clearer through the heavy over growth and caught a glimpse of a shape moving through inbetween leaves. YOu watched intently, before skimpering to grab your clothes, unfortunately, the figure approached where your clothes were and so you dived back into the water as the figure came closer. This seemed to startle the figure is it backed away but jumped out of the bushes just as you dived back in the cold water. You swam underneath the water as fast as you could around the corner and surfaced quietly to spy on the shape that now revealed itself. It WAS TOM! He looked around to search for the water nymph that was you, he took a few steps closer to the shore of the water and stared out to the lake.

You kept your gaze strictly on his own so you could make sure he had no intent on diving in after you. You couldn't help but notice he had a dress shirt that was opened and wore cargo shorts with an unbuckled leather mahogany belt. Your eyes shifted from his to his bare chest, to his defined abdomen then to his unbuckled region of his shorts but tore them away as you looked around for a way out without being noticed. When you turned around, he was gone. You panicked but swam quietly back to your diving spot, gathered your things and quickly dressed and jogged through the thick woods surrounding the lake.

By the time you were home, it was dark and like yesterday night fell to the couch and past out.

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Evidently, you didn't dream this night, it was just a long, dark night and awoke to a cloudy sky. Sunday was slow to happen as it was usually your relaxing day, and that's what you did. You took another shower, slipped in your pajamas of boxer shorts, and a baggy top and watched countless movies before the night came. You weren't too excited as you had real school tomorrow, and had to return to normal classes.

You sighed at this and drifted into another dreamless night and awoke to your comfortable ritual of running late.

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You rushed out the door, rushed to school, then to roll call. Your friends finally met you there, they held their foreheads in regret and you simply smiled at them. You felt truly victorious. Casey finally said in a regretful tone "So you've met my brother huh?" and she sipped water through a straw of her water bottle. You nodded lazily and smiled "He's a nice guy..." You trailed your sentence off as you went back to the last time you said this to her. "Uh- Huh" She agreed sarcastically.

The bell rang shortly after they arrived and you followed your timetable. Throughout the whole day, your friends felt like corpses that simply sat beside you since they barely mumbled any thing let alone actually civilly respond. And when they walked, Lord have mercy on your patient soul, they could almost pass as a zombie without the make-up. The day dragged just as your friends did, even in lunch they felt too hungover to socialize, and when final period came they couldn't be more excited. Unfortunately for you, final period was English. Which meant you had to deal with looks from Casey and Mr. Hiddleston.

However, the odds were in your favor since Casey seemed to be asleep most of the lesson, even though Mr. Hiddleston tried to keep her awake by tapping her desk with his pen. As he did so, when he passed you, he'd give you side glances, even when the whole class had their heads down, he gave you quick looks. You could feel him trying to hold back as you stayed normal as before. It had been a whole week since you had a complete confrontation with him, which seemed to be too long for you.

Finally the bell rang, Casey and Nigel were the first to leave as they threw up in the bins outside, you winced in sympathy to their pain and proceeded to pack your things as everyone else just chucked their books in their bag and their one pen. When you zipped your bag at last, you didn't look to Mr. Hiddleston but simply said "See you later." He stopped you from exiting as he called your name. You turned to face him, like any student would for a teacher would, he just stood with his hands in his pockets of his black dress pants. Today he looked much more professional by adding a slim black tie to his white, rolled sleeve dress shirt.

He pressed his lips as he bowed his head but turned it to you and looked at you. You bit the bottom corner of your lip and looked around, hoping not to catch his ensnaring blue crystals. You now kept your eyes to your feet. He walked past you and closed the door slowly. You were worried at the sudden action for privacy. He walked back to where you were standing but stood behind you. You could feel his tall entity lurk behind your own as his heat clashed against your back. He reached around you and clutched your large stack of text books and plopped them on the desk beside you, he removed the bag from your back and did the same. He then leaned in and remove the hair from your neck and breathed in your scent, you could feel his soft lips skim your neck and almost burn the spots that made contact.

He removed himself and walked around you and gestured you to sit at a desk. You did so as commanded but couldn't help but wonder what he'd have up his sleeve. All the while when you sat there silently, he wrote notes. Suddenly a knock came to the door after a long period of silence, you looked up to the clock and saw that and hour and a half passed then switched your eyes to see Mrs. O'Hare smile and thumbs up Mr. Hiddleston as he smiled and waved back. It was clear he had a plan, since that was a clear signal that no other person was on the school premises.

He breathed in and sat up and walked over to the window and gazed outside. You stood and approached the empty desk. He held his gaze outside, and sighed. Finally, he looked toward you and slowly made his way behind you again as he did before. This time, he pressed against you, making you lean against the desk. He grasped the side of your neck from behind and pulled up so you faced the ceiling and his other hand slid underneath your bloused and grazed across your bare skin and proceeded to slide down your abdomen...

You breathed in and closed your eyes. You listened to your thoughts this time to see what the verdict was going to be this time.