How Will I Know?

"What the hell is this?" I threw my phone on Liam's bare chest as I had interrupted his afternoon slumber barging into his apartment but I didn't give a fuck. I was furious.

He sat up, startled by my attack and looked at my phone with sleepy eyes. It took him a couple of seconds to realize what it was.

"Oh. Yeah I guess I forgot to tell you about that..."

"You forgot? Liam you fucking posted a video of me singing! Where the fuck did that came from anyways?" I was so furious I kept swearing, never letting my voice down a notch.

"It's a video Zayn took of that night around the fire pit when you were singing Good Riddance. He gave it to me while you were in the hospital and at my lowest moment, when I thought I would never hear your voice again, I posted it online. The press release had already gone out so people knew who you were and I thought that if it was the only way I would ever hear your voice again, than so would the world... I'm sorry it was really selfish of me." He kept his head low, dreading my next blow. And he was right.

"Well you know what's fucking great? I got a call this morning! Can you guess from who? Simon. As in Simon fucking Cowell! He want's to sign me! The only thing I have to do is send him another vid of me signing!"

"That great Sab!" He was now up and took a step towards me as if to give me a hug but I backed away. I saw the hurt in his eyes. I didn't give a shit right now. I didn't want him to be near me, fearing what I would do to him. I have never been this angry in my life.

"Great? Did you kind of forget that the first time people found out about me I almost ended up dead? And now you expect me to live a life like yours? Why do you think I became a PR? I manage other peoples lives so that I never have to be in the spotlight! What the fuck were you thinking?" I grabbed a pillow from the chair besides me and threw it at him with all the force I could manage. I was now bawling. I couldn't keep it in anymore. I didn't know what I was going to do. Liam approached me carefully, dreading my next move but I was too upset to even move. He wrapped his arms around me and dragged me to the sofa where I buried my head in his chest sobbing. He carefully pressed his lips to my hair and murmured continuous apologizes.

"What am I going to do Li?" I pulled back a bit and wiped a couple of tears.

"Can I show you something?" I nodded. "Okay but please don't get mad." he grabbed my phone from the coffee table where he had dropped it and scrolled down to the comments section below the video.

"Please don't. I didn't have to courage to look at them myself, I don't want you to read them out loud."

"Just trust me." I closed my eyes and hitched in a breath, no daring to say anything.
"-Can this be on iTunes?
-Wow! That's great!
-Where can I find Sabrina doing other covers?!
-I wish she was singing in my backyard!
-Can I just...
Oh no I ain't reading this one, it's a marriage proposal!" I couldn't help but laugh. "I haven't skipped a single comment in that list. I want you to know how good you are Sab. People do like you. Of course, you can't please everyone but that's what I'm here for. To help you though out all of this. Of course, if you want me to take the video down and to never talk about this again, I will respect your choice." he was smiling warmly at me and rubbing small circles with his thumb on my hand.

"I'll do it on one condition."

"And what is that?" he raised and eyebrow playfully at me.

"I want Kim and Andie as my PR's."

"I..." my phone vibrated in his hand. "You can have Andie but I think you'll have to forget about Kim..." he said reading my text message before I yanked the phone out of his hands.

I just got a call. I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AT SYCO RECORDS! :O

"Woah... Way to go Kimeh!"

"Yeah that's great! You know what else is great?" he was smiling at me like a 5 year-old on Christmas morning. I couldn't help but reciprocate.

"What?" I let out a giggle.

"If everything works out, that means you're stuck with me doesn't it?" the gleam in his eyes was exhilarating.

"Woah... I guess I hadn't thought of that... But I think that would be nice. You know, to be stuck with you." I grinned at him and we kissed.

"I was really scared you know. It kept me up at night to think that I might lose you." he kept his forehead on mine and his hand was tangled in my hair.

"I told you, it will never happen again." I sighed as he brought back the incident on the table.

"No I meant lose you as when you were going to go back home. I had been dreading that day since I talked to you for the first time."

"Can I tell you something?"

"Anything."

"I haven't felt more at home than here since my parents died."

"Than I will be your home luv, as long as you want me too." I pecked him on the lips and got up.

"Well I guess there's just one more thing to do!" he looked at me confused for a second. "I have a video to make for Mr. Cowell if I want that record deal!"