I just wanna die in your arms tonight

Jeremy's POV

It was a harsh morning; the sun shone brightly into my eyes, blinding me for a few seconds. I hated mornings like this, can the sun just stop being so bright? I'm like a vampire when it comes to sunlight. Of course Jake was still asleep, he only wakes up when Chris rings him. He is so lazy, you could never catch him being awake at this time.

I looked in the mirror to find Jake had drawn a black mustache on my face. I wish I hadn't fallen asleep now, I didn't know he would do that! I quickly got out some damp wipes and quickly scrubbed off the Biro, feeling relieved that it hadn't marked my face.

I noticed that I had left my camera on that I use to see if anyone enters the apartment whilst I am out of the apartment so I decided to look through to see if Jake had hidden any of my stuff again. I noticed the moustache that he'd had drawn on my face, typical Jake. I almost dropped it when I came across to Jake. H-he kissed me! I had dreamed about this happening all my life! I've been in love with Jake for a while, does this mean he loves me too? I didn't even know how to take it in. I had to tell Rosaline! She's my best friend, how could I hide it from her?

I told her everything and she just stared at me with so much shock. She knows that I've liked Jake for the majority of the time I've known him. He got me though my teens. I was an alcoholic and he was always there to make sure I didn't get too drunk or lose my virginity to some random slut. That's how I met Chris and Ashley. They used to always sneak in alcohol at school. He's the reason I am sober. It was only that one night when I kissed Jake that I was drunk, I swear!

"What are you going to do Jerry? Are you sure he wasn't drunk?" I thought she'd be happy for me, not trying to make me doubt.

"No, he was completely sober! I'm so shocked and happy at the same time. I don't know what to do!" Straight after I said that, Andy rushed downstairs and hugged me. I had no idea idea he was here or could hear me or I wouldn't have said anything.

"Oh my fucking god Jerry! I heard everything from upstairs! I am so happy for you!" Finally someone was but I wasn't expecting him to be.

"I didn't think you'd be okay with it, Andy..."

"You joking Jer? Me and Ash have always shipped you! You've gotta make do something special... hold on, I'll ring Ash!" I found it a little strange that he 'shipped' us. We don't exactly make any sexual hints to each other. Fans make fan-fiction of us because it turns them on so does it turn Andy and Ashley on? If it does then that's really fucked up. We didn't even act gay, at least I don't think we did.
10 minutes later, Ashley came over with his girlfriend (and my sister) Lindsay. He brings her everywhere. I just hope he never hurts my sister or he'll pay for it with his life. He was a man-whore back in the day.

"Oh my god Jerry! Let me and Lindsay sort it out! We'll plan something for tomorrow! You better go tell Chris!" What was with Ash? He was acting as if it was the most amazing thing in the world that Jake kissed me. It is to me as I love Jake but it's strange coming from him. I wanted to work Jake and I's relationship out properly but I couldn't say no to him, he'd probably get spiteful and ruin everything. Christian did need to know though, it's not fair to leave him out.

I rushed over to Chris's house. When he answered, the look on his face told me he wasn't a morning person.

Christian's POV

F*cking hell, who was knocking on the door at this time in the morning, it's 10 am! This is too early for me! I slowly opened the door to find Jeremy there. Why was he knocking on my fucking door?!

"What is it Jerry?" I asked tiredly. If he was just here to ramble on about something stupid then he can go home.

" Jake kissed me!" WHAT THE HELL?! WHY DID HE KISS HIM FOR? I pulled him inside my house quickly to find out what the nutter was on about.

"Are you sure, Jerry? So Jake kissed you again?"

"Again?" God, I didn't mean to say that! Jake had been secretly kissing Jerry every night when he was asleep. He said it's a good night kiss but I know it's more. One night in our teen years, Jake decided to show Jerry that drinking wasn't good by getting drunk himself. They can't remember to this day what happened as Jeremy was also drunk but I remember walking in on them making love in the bathroom at Ashley's birthday party.

"Ha I didn't mean that! I'm not a morning person." I chuckled nervously. If Jerry knew he'd be so happy and probably marry him, we can be having that.

"It's okay, C! Oh my god though!" He was getting so hyper, he really needed to cool down.

"Jerry, calm down! You must have made yourself so exhausted! I'll take you home." I didn't want him at my house or near me any longer. Can he just go be happy somewhere else? It's like he's rubbing it in my face.

"But C!"

"I don't think Jake will want to see a cranky Jerry." I just needed him to shut up.

"Oh okay, I am a little tired." I drove him home and tucked him into his bed. I found it strange how one little thing could make his day like that, was he in love with Jake or something? I'm such a bonehead sometimes, of course he did! Why did he get to have somebody who loved him? What about me? I needed someone who loved me as much as Jeremy loved Jake. Does God just hate me or something? I always tried to be the good guy but that never worked...
I didn't understand why Jake had kissed him though. Had he found out what really happened that night Jeremy got drunk?

We'd been partying all night as our first album had been a great success in the UK. Jeremy got a little too carried away with the alcohol though and he told me in the bathroom that he wanted to kiss Jake. I told Jerry to call him FAG and told him is stood for Fabulous, Adorable and Gorgeous. The idiot actually believed me and he rushed back to where him and Jake had been sitting. Just as he was about to say that, out of nowhere, Jake kissed him and Jeremy kissed him passionately back. I was too shocked for words. Little did I or Jerry know, that was Jake's first kiss. And little did Jake know, it was Jerry's too...
"You FAG Jake" Jeremy said, smiling. Shock filled all of us, I didn't think he'd actually say it! Jake ran out crying whilst Jeremy just sat there puzzled.

Just as I was about to leave Jake & Jerry's apartment, I fell to the floor.

Jake's POV

I jumped onto C's back, accidentally making him fall over. I couldn't help but laugh at his annoyed face. What was he doing up at this time, anyway? Not like Chris to be up before 1 pm. I looked over at Jeremy and realized that he was fully dressed. He must have gone out and C probably took him home. Jerry looked so cute! How could he sleep in all them clothes? How I'd love to remove them from his body...

"Jake, why did you do that?" He pouted, getting me off.

"Why you here in my house? Oh so many questions!" I smirked sarcastically.

"So two equals many?"

"Yes!"

"Oh okay, Jakey." He said chuckling. I went to go check on Jeremy and saw that he was quietly mumbling something in his sleep. Damn he's gorgeous! How can someone be so beautiful and be oblivious to it all? If he knew the effect he had on me...

Christian's POV

I watched Jake look over at Jerry sleeping happily. The way Jake looked at Jeremy was enough to make someone's heart break. Jake clearly loved him with all his heart. I saw his eyes light up as Jerry mumbled 'I love you'. I couldn't help but feel a twinge of envy. Why couldn't anyone love me? I did everything to try and get someone to like me unlike Jeremy who just goes around moping all day.

As soon as Jake left the room, I went over to Jerry. He had a wide smile across his face. I noticed glasses on the side of his drawers. Must belong to Jeremy. He might need them one day. I carefully put them onto the floor and pressed my foot carefully but firmly on the glasses. Of course they broke. I smirked and then whispered in his ear “You're dead to me”.

I heard Jake wandering back into the bedroom so I quickly kicked them under Jerry's bed. I despised Jerry. What was so special about him? Why did he find love not me? He's a fat little midget. Jake is worth ten of him. I've always hated Jeremy but now I hate him even more. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? I'M IN LOVE WITH JAKE! I have been for a long time. I wanted Jake to smile at me the way he did Jerry, I wanted to kiss him every second of the day, I just needed him to be mine.

That's why I lied to them both about what happened when they were drunk, I wanted it to be me. I wanted him to be mine. I didn't love anyone else, I loved him. He was perfect and made me feel alive, beautiful and I knew I could tell him everything... except for this. Nobody could ever know this. He would hate me and so would everyone else. They all wanted Jerry and Jake together, no one cares about Chris...