18 drunken confessions
I am drunk
1) I fear people because of their potential to hurt me
2) I fear Marianne because of her influence on me
(she's my priveous foster mom although I consider her my mom)
3) I still self harm because I like it
4) I think I am fat and I really wanna lose weight
5) I don't actually sleep at night even though I tell you I do
6) I make up fantasy worlds
7) I am attracted to destructiveness
8) I genuinely like both bring me the horizon and taylor swift
9) I am selfish
10) I often talk to myself pretending I have an audience or someone's listening
11) I fear there's something very wrong with me mentally
12) I lie a lot
13) I actually do want a boyfriend or girlfriend
14) I do care
15) I feel lost
16) I want to try drugs but I'm afraid of getting addicted
17) I both love and hate attention
18) I often feel stupid and intelligent at the same time
2) I fear Marianne because of her influence on me
(she's my priveous foster mom although I consider her my mom)
3) I still self harm because I like it
4) I think I am fat and I really wanna lose weight
5) I don't actually sleep at night even though I tell you I do
6) I make up fantasy worlds
7) I am attracted to destructiveness
8) I genuinely like both bring me the horizon and taylor swift
9) I am selfish
10) I often talk to myself pretending I have an audience or someone's listening
11) I fear there's something very wrong with me mentally
12) I lie a lot
13) I actually do want a boyfriend or girlfriend
14) I do care
15) I feel lost
16) I want to try drugs but I'm afraid of getting addicted
17) I both love and hate attention
18) I often feel stupid and intelligent at the same time
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Yeah...I wrote these on the 1st of June 2012 and found them today...I'm kind of blown away but it still all makes sense