In the End

I awoke the next morning to crying, soft gentle crying, like the kind of crying that you would hear when you didn't want your friend or your significant other to jolt awake from. I stirred and I shifted onto my side and I then see that the crying came from Andy. Andy was crying, softly and gently and he had buried his face in his hands. Immediately, I snap into attention and I immediately become concerned. I had no idea what was going on and that terrified me.

"Moonlight?" I said, moving his hands away from his face, his eyes red from crying. "What's going on? Why are you crying?"

"Chris passed away last night, Faith." He said, sobbing gently. "He died in his sleep."

Then it clicks to me and my eyes widen in shock, Chris Holley was BVB's guitar tech and their closest friend and I had to keep my jaw from dropping to the floor. Andy started crying again and I just immediately moved closer to Andy, I wrapped my arms around his neck and my head lay on his chest. I moved my hand down his back to comfort him and try to make his pain go away as much I could for now and soothe him.

"It's okay. Shh, Light." I whispered. "It's okay, Light. You're okay. He's in a better place now and at least he wasn't suffering."

Andy just pulled me close as he cried and he held me to him, like he was afraid that I'd disappear if he let go. I just moved my fingers through his long black hair again, to comfort and soothe him and let him know that I'm here and I'm not leaving his side. After a few moments, Andy's gentle crying began to subside. He was simply breathing now, the kind of breathing that you'd hear after someone cries. I couldn't help but feel my heart break for him. It was just yesterday that Andy had spoken to Chris on the phone and then, all of a sudden, this happens, I can't imagine what he's feeling right now.

"I'm sorry." Andy whispered, after a moment. I looked up at him and I shook my head at him.

"Don't be. You've got nothing to be sorry about, Light." I murmured, kissing his shoulder and laying my head on his shoulder. "Have they found the cause of death yet?"

"Not yet," Andy sniffled. "We haven't gotten the coroner's report."

I nodded against him and took another breath and as I did so, I continued letting my fingers run through his hair again, and he took comfort from that and I couldn't help but be in a state of disbelief. I couldn't believe that this happened. Right before Warped Tour too. I thought. Andy's arms tightened around me and his breathing became calm.

"It's gonna be okay." I murmured. "You'll see him again, babe. Remember that."

Andy, who had his chin on my head, nodded slowly and I felt it as he did so.

"Thank you." He whispered into my hair. I turned and looked up at him, our eyes meeting one another's.

"For what, Moonlight?" I asked, letting my thumb trace along his jaw.

"For always reminding me to breathe when I need it, Faith." Andy kissed my head and stroked my hair softly. I pecked his lips tenderly and smiled.

"That's what I'm here for." Andy then rolled his eyes and I laughed softly as I got up and went to pack Blayde's bag.

~A couple of days later~

Andy, his band, my band and I arrived in Pomona for the first stop of Warped Tour. I was dressed in a black tank top that has a snake wrapped around an inverted cross, a pair of black faux leather shorts and a pair of black leather boots and I wore my 'Faith' necklace, some hoop earrings with crosses in them, a black studded armband, a silver cross ring, and a half moon ring with my wedding ring. I smiled as I walked to get my pass that will allow me to be on all of the stages all summer. I will be playing the Journey's Right Foot Stage tomorrow. I needed to kind of walk a little because I needed to take my mind off of Andy, he's been a mix of emotions since we got here. He'd be grieving once and then angry the next.

"Lacey!" I heard a voice and turned around. I then saw Ashley Costello walking toward me. I stopped and waved as she approached me.

"Hey, Ash." I said, giving her a hug.

"You going to get your pass?" Ashley asked and I nodded, gesturing so she could walk with me. "I heard about Chris Holley. How's Andy doing?"

"Honestly," I said, with a sigh. "I don't know. He's going through a lot right now and I'm trying my best to support him. That's all I can do right now."

"How bad is it?" Ashley gave me a sympathetic look and I just took another breath.

"He's an emotional wreck, first he's happy and being all affectionate towards me and then he'd be grieving and angry the next." I told her.

"Don't give up on him," She said. "You're the only thing that he has outside of his band. You have to be strong for Andy."

"But even the strongest have their breaking points," I replied, sighing.

"I know. But just don't give up on him." Ashley explained. "Andy loves you and has always been there for you when you've struggled, Lacey. You have to remember that. Just be there for him and let him know that you're always by his side, no matter how much he's got on his plate."

"Yeah. You're right. Thank you, Ash." I hugged her. She nodded as we walked to the tent to pick up my pass and Ashley left to head back to New Years Day's merch tent and I headed to the Right Foot Stage with my band to start rehearsals for show and the webcast tomorrow. The setlist that we planned on playing for Warped's going to be 'Going To Hell', 'Heaven Knows', 'House On A Hill' 'Why'd You Bring A Shotgun To The Party', 'Only You' and 'Come Join The Murder', which is a song off the last Sons of Anarchy soundtrack. As I was rehearsing, Andy showed up sidestage to watch me and he then left because he got a phone call. I continued singing 'Going To Hell' until I looked over at Andy and he gestured to me. I stopped and walked over, taking my ear pieces out. Andy didn't have any emotion on his face.

"What happened?" I asked and Andy started twitching.

"Chris died from an overdose." Andy said, as tears filled his eyes again and I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him.

"Oh, Moonlight," I whispered. "I'm so so sorry."

I could sense that Andy was trying so hard not to cry because he began to hold me to him.

"Let it out, love." I murmured. "Don't try to hold it in again."

And then, Andy just started crying again and I just ran my fingers through his hair and whispered assurances to him, that he's okay, that everything is temporary and that he will see Chris again someday. I then decide to end rehearsals early and decide to just walk around the venue with Andy, to calm him down. And eventually, we walked over to my band's merch tent and we sat inside the tent and Andy was just silent and it scared me because I didn't know what he was feeling or what he was thinking. I then leaned my head on his shoulder to comfort him here and there. After a moment, Andy's arms wrapped around my waist and brought me closer. I sighed and decided that maybe singing to him would help. I decided to sing the song I wrote for him, 'Only You' softly. Hearing my voice gave Andy some comfort because he started to calm down again.

"You gonna be okay?" I whispered. Andy looked down at me, when I looked into his eyes, all I saw was emptiness, hollowness and grief. He then gave a shaky nod at me. I sighed and pecked him on the cheek. He will be okay, it's gonna take a step at a time. I reminded myself. We then headed back to my bus and lay together in my bunk and I just saw that Andy was still quiet and it made me nervous. I moved closer, so that my chin was on his chest as I looked up at him.

"Light," I said. "Talk to me. Seeing you like this is making me nervous."

"I'm sorry, Faith." He told me. "I'm just trying to wrap my head around this and accept it."

I just breathed in his scent and closed my eyes and lay my head on his shoulder again.

"Whatever happens," I murmured, kissing his shoulder. "We'll get through it and it's only temporary, Moonlight. I love you."

"I love you too, baby." Andy tenderly kissed my lips and held me closer to him.

The next day was the start of Warped Tour. I was playing at 3:10 on the Journeys Right Foot Stage and then had a signing at my band's merch tent at 3:30 and I was just ready to get back on stage. I pulled my red and black hair into a ponytail and I wore a cut up t-shirt that had two skeletons kissing and said 'Immortal Lovers' on it and a pair of sliver leggings. I wore a pair of Converse to complete the outfit with my 'Faith' necklace, a gold wristcuff in the shape of a pentagram, silver cross earrings and a half moon ring. Andy and I walked around the venue and we got something to eat while the boys kept an eye on Blayde for us. When it got around to 3:10, Andy and I walked over to the Journeys Right Foot Stage for me to play my set. As I was putting my ear pieces in, Andy just was quiet. I then walked over and wrapped my arms around his torso and hugged him, to give him some comfort. Andy's hand rubbed my back gently.

"I love you." I said. That made him smile for a moment and he kissed my lips softly.

"I love you too." He murmured. "Have a good show, Faith."

"Thank you, Light." I pecked his lips before heading on to stage to play my set. As I played my set, the crowd cheering made me happy and as I looked at Andy, he had a hint of a smile as well. I then smiled as I spoke into the microphone.

"Okay. So, how many of you guys know the TV show Sons of Anarchy?" I asked. It took the crowd a moment before they started cheering, which also made my smile brighter. "Well, then. You might know this song. If you do, please sing along."

I then took a breath and I began to sing 'Come Join The Murder'.

"There's a blackbird perched outside my window

I hear him calling

I hear him sing

He burns me with his eyes of gold to embers

He sees all my sins

He reads my soul

One day that bird he spoke to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Perecles.."

I then started to noticed that Andy was getting teary eyed and it made my heart shatter for him because I know he was thinking about Chris.

"Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

On a blanket made of woven shadows

Flew up to Heaven

On raven's glide

There's angels that turn my wings to wax now

I fell like Judas, from grace tonight

And on that day he lied to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Peracles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king.."

I took a moment to see that the crowd were waving their arms up toward the sky and they sang along to the lyrics and it made me smile. I then walked to the edge of the stage and I sat the edge of the stage as I finished the rest of the song.

"I walk among the children of my fathers

The broken wings

The traitor's cost

They call to me but never touch my heart now

I am too far

I am too lost

All I can hear is what he spoke to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Peracles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

So now I curse that raven's fire

You made me hate

You made me burn

He laughed aloud as he flew from Eden

You always knew

You never learn

The crow no longer sings to me

Like Martin Luther

Or Peracles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king..."

The crowd cheered and I smiled as I stood up and took a bow with my band and I approached the mic once more, wiping the sweat off my brow and my face.

"Thank you, Pomona! We are The Pretty Nightmare! Have a fucking awesome day!" I said as we then took our exit off stage. I then headed to the merch tent with my band and signed autographs and talked to the fans. A lot of the fans told me their condolences about Chris Holley for Andy. I walked to Andy and I just hugged him, letting him know that I was never going to leave his side. Andy's arms wrapped around me and he kissed my forehead as I just moved my head onto his chest. His fingers moved through my hair gently.

"You know that no matter what," I whispered against Andy's chest. "I'm always gonna be here by your side, Moonlight."

Andy kissed my head again.

"I know, Faith." He murmured, squeezing me to his body for a moment.

After a little while, Andy and I walked over to the Shark Main Stage where Andy and BVB would be playing their set, the boys in BVB wore little tributes to Chris Holley too. As I watching them play 'In The End' I heard Andy say I love you to Chris and my heart broke at that point. I blinked away tears of my own. Because I felt the pain that Andy felt ever since the other day. But I had to be strong for Andy and not give up on him. He always did that for me.

~A Week Later~

The buses rolled up to Dallas, Texas where the next Warped date was being held. I was dressed in a skull and rose crop top and a pair of black leather shorts with a pair of Iron Fist 'Bone Breaker' flats and I had my hair up in a braid, luckily the hairdresser gave me some special shampoo to use to keep my dark red color in my hair. Andy and I were fighting a lot, over the last week of tour, he and I got into some nasty fights and it caused me to cry most nights. I even locked him outside of my bus so he stayed in his bus with BVB. I walked out and it was early, before the fans started to arrive. As I did so, Andy came out of his bus to smoke. I avoided his eyes and walked away. There was only so much I could take before I broke. I had to be strong for the fans because if the fans saw me like this, they would start question about me and Andy. And I don't want that. I headed to the Right Foot Stage to rehearse before playing my set at 1:15 today.

When it came around to 1:15 and I was playing my set and singing 'Come Join The Murder', I started to have a mental breakdown halfway through the song. I literally couldn't take the pressure and stress anymore. I then ended the set early and headed backstage, I started crying. I slunk against the wall and buried my face in my knees. I then heard footsteps approach me and I looked up to see Jinxx standing there.

"Andy's looking for you." Jinxx said.

"What for? To yell at me some more?" I retorted, sniffling. "No thanks."

"Lacey." Jinxx told me. "Andy really needs you right now. You're the only thing that's kept him sane."

"And yet he expects me to sit back and let him shit talk me some more?" I said, angrily. "I don't fucking think so."

"Whatever. Do whatever you want." Jinxx said with a sigh. "Just remember, there's a part of you that wants to go back to him."

Jinxx walked away and I buried my face in my hands and cried again for another ten minutes.

"Faith." I then looked up and I saw Andy. He was knelt down in front of me, a look of worry across his face. I scoffed and crossed my arms.

"I don't wanna hear it, Moonlight. Whatever you have to say." I brushed myself off and walked away and all I heard was Andy calling my name. I went back to my bus and I lay in my bunk, smelling the faint smell of Andy on my pillows and my wolf howling at the moon blanket. I sobbed softly and turned onto my side. I wanted all of this to be okay and I just want to have my boy back. How hard is that? I thought. I then heard footsteps outside of my bunk and I heard the curtain open. I then felt a presence laying beside me. I then turned and I saw Andy.

"I thought I told you to go away." I said. Andy wrapped his arm around my waist, bringing me closer to him.

"I'm not leaving until you hear me out and I'm not gonna let you leave either." Andy told me.

"I know you're mourning Chris's death and all," I replied. "But the things you said to me really hurt me, Andy. You know I can only take so much."

Andy sighed and he put his head on my shoulder, as his arm squeezed me gently.

"I know, Lacey." Andy murmured. "And I'm so sorry for that. I'm not in the right mind set right now and even that isn't a good enough excuse. Jinxx told me about your breakdown on stage earlier and I know that's my fault, and I hate myself right now for causing you so much pain."

"How do you expect me to forgive you for this?" I sobbed softly. "Everything you said, I felt like I was back with Blaze."

That made Andy stiffen and he tightened his grip on me.

"Was I that bad to you?" Andy said.

"Yes," I sobbed. "You might as well start beating me at this point and I wouldn't know the difference between you two. That's how bad this is."

A pair of fingers lifted my chin up and I met Andy's eyes, the look in the ice blue of his eyes, sadness and hurt, he hurt me and he hurt himself as well because of what happened between us and because he let it go this far. His hand cupped my face and he moved his thumb to wipe away my tears.

"Lacey. Baby. Listen to me," Andy whispered. "I may not be in the right mind set but I will never put my hands on you like that. Ever. I will never harm you in the ways that he did. I'm not a monster like he was. I never will be."

I shook my head at him.

"It just takes one second of not thinking clearly and anything can happen, so you can't tell me that 100%." I explained.

"I know. And I'm sorry, honey." Andy flipped us over so that I was on my back and he was over me. He nuzzled into my throat and moved my hair away from my neck. His warm breath lingered against my neck, making me almost shiver at the feeling. "I just want to fix this. I've been looking forward to this summer so I can be with you and this happened and I turned into an asshole because of it."

I looked at him and just let my fingers run through his hair and I slightly pulled on it gently, making him look me in the eyes again.

"Well, you can't see the future, can you? Life is full of swerves that we're not ready for. How we respond to them, that's important."

"I know. You're right." Andy said with a nod. "I never should've taken it out on you."

"You need to understand that it doesn't matter if you're in the right mind set or not, you say those things and they hurt. A lot." Tears filled my eyes again. "Do you see how much damage you caused me?"

Andy looked at me, then switched us so that he was holding me to his chest and his arms wrapped around me. I cried into his chest as he moved his fingers into my hair.

"I'm sorry, love." He said. "I know you were just trying to help. I was being an asshole to you when I should've known better. Even if it takes me all summer to make it up to you, Faith, so be it."

"You would do that?" I then looked up into his eyes.

"Honey," Andy murmured, cupping my cheek in his hand. "I'll do anything for you. I promised you since the first day we met, that I would never let you go. And I never will. Because I love you."

I then felt his fingers lift my chin up once more, he leaned his head on mine and closed his eyes. I felt my heart race and flutter as his hypnotizing blue eyes met mine again. He kissed me softly.

"I love you too." I murmured and he grinned and kissed my forehead.

"I'll do whatever it takes to make this up to you, baby." He kissed my nose. "I promise."

I nodded and I hoped that Andy would hold onto that promise and make this up to me.

The next morning, we had arrived in the next town, which was San Antonio, Texas. I woke up to a note on the pillow beside me. I smiled and I opened the note and sat up to read it.

Good morning, my Faith. I told you last night that I would make this up to you and I'm going to tonight. After our sets, why don't you dress up in something beautiful and meet me at my bus? I have a surprise for you.

I'll see you then, my love. I love you.

-Moonlight

After that, I changed into a Kill Star 'Scarab' tank top and a pair of silver leggings and my 'Faith' necklace, a golden cross ring, a set of gold spiked bracelets and a pair of big silver hoop earrings and a pair of Iron Fist flats that have a wolf's face across the whole shoe. I pulled my hair up into a braid. After getting Blayde dressed and taking her to the Kids' tent so she could hang out with other kids, I went over the Shark Main Stage to play my set. I was playing at 11:45 and had a signing at 12:00 with my band. After the signing and meeting all of my amazing fans and after BVB's set, I went back to my bus to change into a Jawbreaker dress that had a skull that covered the complete front of the dress, and it had a cut that went a couple of inches before my cleavage and showed off my tattoos. I had taken my hair out of the braid and I brushed it and curled it up, I wore silver eyeshadow over my eyes and dark red lips, because Andy loves when I mix silver and dark red together. I put in my long gold cross earrings, a skull ring and a set of gold rings that had a half moon and a star on them. I took a breath then grabbed my Iron Fist black ankle booties and slipped those on. I then got off the bus and I walked over to the BVB bus, where Andy was leaning against the side of it, smoking a cigarette. He wore his 'Prophet' jean vest, a black tanktop and the black pair of shorts. It only took Andy a moment to see me. He smiled brightly, stomped out the remains of his cigarette and he extended his hand out to me. I took it and he pulled me into him.

"You look so beautiful." His voice was warm and sweet and it made me smile and blush.

"Thank you, Light." I wrapped my arms around his neck, tangling my fingers through his long black hair. "You don't look so bad yourself."

He then leaned a little and kissed me, and I smiled, melting into that kiss. His hands slid down to hold onto my hips for a moment before pulling away from me. He leaned his head on mine and closed his eyes, breathing me in as I did with him. We then headed inside the bus, where red rose petals were on the floor of the bus and the interior of the bus was lit up dimly with candles and there was dinner on the table. I gasped softly.

"Andy," I said and he chuckled softly, walking up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist, swaying me a little bit and making me giggle.

"I told you, honey, that I would make this up to you." Andy murmured, his lips pressing against my temple.

"And you cooked this all by yourself?" I asked and I then saw a hint of a blush on his face, which was so cute.

"I would lie and say yes, but the guys helped me out." Andy said. I laughed softly.

"It's beautiful," I said. "I love it. Thank you, Light."

Andy smiled and he kissed my head.

"Anything for you, my Faith." He told me as he pulled the chair out for me to sit, being the ever so sweet gentleman that he is. We sat down together and we ate and talked and it was just nice. I really enjoyed having the man that I loved back in the right mind set. Afterwards, Andy went to the fridge and he pulled out a cheesecake and it has 'My Guiding Faith' in black icing on it. I felt tears come into my eyes as my heart began to melt and flutter. Andy looked at me as he was cutting the cake and took my hand in his and squeezed my hand, as his other hand sets a slice of the cake in front of me.

"Don't cry, baby." Andy whispered.

"I'm not crying because this is a bad thing," I told him. "I'm crying because you're too good to me."

He smiled and he brought our intertwined hands up to his lips and kissed it.

"Well," Andy said. "I did fuck up pretty bad, so I want to make sure that my apology is just as effective."

"I forgive you." I whispered and Andy smiled big at me, showing all of his teeth.

"Thank you, darling." Andy kissed me then, softly and sweetly and when we pulled apart, he kissed my nose and my forehead. "So, we have the bus to ourselves for a couple of hours. The guys went drinking."

"At your insistence, I presume?" I laughed and Andy scratched the back of his head.

"Maybe," He said and I giggled softly. Andy and I decide to just lay on the couch together and watched movies and the movie he chose was The Exorcist, which scared the shit out of me when I was younger. I hated that movie so much.

"Really? The Exorcist?" I narrowed my eyes. "You do know that that movie scared the shit out of me when I was a kid, right?"

"Well, that was when you were younger," Andy said, nuzzling into me. "Plus, honey, if you get scared, just hold onto me and I'll protect you. I've always protected you. You can choose the next one if we have time."

"I'll hold you to it," I giggled softly. "No pun intended."

We ended up watching the movie, I wasn't as scared as I was when I was younger, except for the spiderwalk and the head turning moments, which made me hide my face in Andy's chest, and he just stroked my hair and gave me little kisses on my head.

"You're okay," Andy murmured. "Shh. I've got you. I've always got you."

I nodded and I took a breath and calmed down again and looked at the screen. A couple of hours later, Andy and I just snuggled up close to one another and then heard the door to the bus open. Moment's over. I thought, sighing.

"Oh, it's about time you two made up!" CC said. "Jesus. Took you two long enough."

Andy raised a middle finger in CC's direction.

"Buzzkill," I muttered, under my breath and I rolled my eyes. Andy then looked down at me.

"Love," Andy murmured, kissing behind my ear.

"Hmm?"

"Stay with me tonight," Andy pecked my lips softly and I got up off the couch and Andy took my hand, ready to lead me back to his bunk.

"Looks like Andy is getting some tonight." Ashley said and Andy turned around, glaring at Ashley playfully.

"Shut up, Ash." Andy muttered and I laughed as Andy and I walked back to his bunk.

Ashley was right about one thing, Andy did get some. I just lay in the arms of my wonderful man, my head laying on Andy's chest, on the dragon tattoo that bared my name. Andy held me close, keeping a hand on my back, tracing my spine with his fingers.

"I love you so much, honey." Andy whispered, making me look up into his warm ice blue eyes.

"I love you too, Moonlight." I murmured, as our lips met in another gentle kiss and his hand moved to cup my cheek gently. We pulled apart and our foreheads touched. I smiled because I was not only in a state of perfect harmony but I had the one thing back at my side, my Light. And that was all that mattered to me.

"Do you want me to sing you to sleep?" Andy murmured. I nodded. Andy kissed my temple and he began to softly sing 'Done For You' to me. I closed my eyes and began to fall asleep in the arms of my wonderful man, my home and serenity.