Give Me a Chance, Let Me Show You What I've Got
The irony of choking on a lifesaver
'Hey.' Jack says, sitting down next to me,
'Hey.' I mutter, not looking up from my phone, he sighs and throws his legs over my lap,
'Thanks for the acknowledgment.' He mumbles and I put my phone down,
'Im sorry.' I whisper,
'Its fine. Are you okay?' he asks,
'Uh, yeah, just getting a load of shit on instagram.' I shrug,
'Why?' he sighs,
'I liked someone's picture.' I mutter,
'This someone was a guy, wasn't it?' jack chuckles and I nod,
'People are so immature. Was he hot?' Jack grins,
'No, I liked his selfie because I didn't like his face.' I smirk and jack laughs,
'You wanna suck his dick?' he asks and I roll my eyes,
'No jack, I was just acknowledging that fact that hes a good looking kid.' I say,
'Im joking bud. Is there anyone's dick you wanna suck?' he smirks,
'You put it so nicely.' I laugh,
'Fine, do you fancy anyone?' he asks,
'Yes.' I shrug,
'Oh my god! Who?!' he squeaks,
'Why would I tell you?' I laugh,
'Because I'm your best friend and I'm so gonna set you up!' he grins,
'You can't. Just forget I said anything.' I whisper,
'O...Kay... I'm sorry.' he mumbles and I rest my head on his shoulder.
(a few days later)
'You did great tonight.' Jack smiles, pinching my cheek,
'You too.' I tell him, pulling away from his hand,
'Come get a drink with me? We can go to a quiet bar, we don't have to go clubbing with the others.' he says softly,
'Okay.' I nod.
-
I laugh when Jack pulls me over to the little dance floor in the bar and puts his hands on my hips, swaying us side to side, I wrap my arms around his shoulders and he smiles at me, 'you're my bestest friend Lexy.' he slurs,
'I know.' I whisper,
'I love you lots.' he smiles, for gods sake jack, stop doing this to me.
'Love you too.' I mutter.
(a week later)
I sneak onto the bus and try to get to my bunk without anyone seeing me, too late.
'Alex? Where have you been buddy?' Jack whispers, pulling his curtain back,
'Just out. Go back to sleep.' I sigh,
'I wasn't asleep. I've been worried about you.' he breathes, 'where have you been lex? It's half 3, where were you?' he whispers,
'Move over.' I sigh and he shuffles over in his bunk so I can get in, he wraps his arms around me tightly, 'I had an attack after the show and I just went for a walk.' I whisper and he squeezes me,
'Why didnt you text me? You know I would of gone with you. I was so worried Alex. No one else cared, they said you'd be back by morning but what if something had happened to you?' he whispers, his voice shaky,
'Im sorry jack, I should of text you or called or something.' I breathe,
'Yeah you should. But it's fine. As long as you're okay.' he sighs, I nuzzle my face into the crook of his neck and he chuckles.
(a week later)
'Can I have a word?' Rian asks and I nod, following him off the bus,
'Sup bro?' I ask,
'When are you going to tell him?' he sighs,
'Tell who what?' I laugh,
'Jack. Me and Zack have both worked it out Alex. We think you need to tell him.' he says softly and I stare at him,
'Are you fucking kidding me? I can't tell him!' I gasp,
'Why not Lex? He's not gonna treat you any differently. You love him so much and me and Zack can tell it's driving you crazy.' he sighs,
'He will treat me different. It will fuck our friendship up.' I whisper,
'Alex, I shouldn't tell you this, but Jack is bi. Me and Z have known for almost a year now.' he says quietly,
'What the fuck?!' I yell, hurt that jack would keep that from me,
'He didn't know how to tell you.' Rian whispers,
'He knows I'm gay for gods sake! Why would he hide that?!' I exclaim,
'I don't know to be honest Alex, but you mustnt tell him you know. He will kill me. But seriously, you should tell him. You never know what could happen.' Rian smiles.
'Hey.' I mutter, not looking up from my phone, he sighs and throws his legs over my lap,
'Thanks for the acknowledgment.' He mumbles and I put my phone down,
'Im sorry.' I whisper,
'Its fine. Are you okay?' he asks,
'Uh, yeah, just getting a load of shit on instagram.' I shrug,
'Why?' he sighs,
'I liked someone's picture.' I mutter,
'This someone was a guy, wasn't it?' jack chuckles and I nod,
'People are so immature. Was he hot?' Jack grins,
'No, I liked his selfie because I didn't like his face.' I smirk and jack laughs,
'You wanna suck his dick?' he asks and I roll my eyes,
'No jack, I was just acknowledging that fact that hes a good looking kid.' I say,
'Im joking bud. Is there anyone's dick you wanna suck?' he smirks,
'You put it so nicely.' I laugh,
'Fine, do you fancy anyone?' he asks,
'Yes.' I shrug,
'Oh my god! Who?!' he squeaks,
'Why would I tell you?' I laugh,
'Because I'm your best friend and I'm so gonna set you up!' he grins,
'You can't. Just forget I said anything.' I whisper,
'O...Kay... I'm sorry.' he mumbles and I rest my head on his shoulder.
(a few days later)
'You did great tonight.' Jack smiles, pinching my cheek,
'You too.' I tell him, pulling away from his hand,
'Come get a drink with me? We can go to a quiet bar, we don't have to go clubbing with the others.' he says softly,
'Okay.' I nod.
-
I laugh when Jack pulls me over to the little dance floor in the bar and puts his hands on my hips, swaying us side to side, I wrap my arms around his shoulders and he smiles at me, 'you're my bestest friend Lexy.' he slurs,
'I know.' I whisper,
'I love you lots.' he smiles, for gods sake jack, stop doing this to me.
'Love you too.' I mutter.
(a week later)
I sneak onto the bus and try to get to my bunk without anyone seeing me, too late.
'Alex? Where have you been buddy?' Jack whispers, pulling his curtain back,
'Just out. Go back to sleep.' I sigh,
'I wasn't asleep. I've been worried about you.' he breathes, 'where have you been lex? It's half 3, where were you?' he whispers,
'Move over.' I sigh and he shuffles over in his bunk so I can get in, he wraps his arms around me tightly, 'I had an attack after the show and I just went for a walk.' I whisper and he squeezes me,
'Why didnt you text me? You know I would of gone with you. I was so worried Alex. No one else cared, they said you'd be back by morning but what if something had happened to you?' he whispers, his voice shaky,
'Im sorry jack, I should of text you or called or something.' I breathe,
'Yeah you should. But it's fine. As long as you're okay.' he sighs, I nuzzle my face into the crook of his neck and he chuckles.
(a week later)
'Can I have a word?' Rian asks and I nod, following him off the bus,
'Sup bro?' I ask,
'When are you going to tell him?' he sighs,
'Tell who what?' I laugh,
'Jack. Me and Zack have both worked it out Alex. We think you need to tell him.' he says softly and I stare at him,
'Are you fucking kidding me? I can't tell him!' I gasp,
'Why not Lex? He's not gonna treat you any differently. You love him so much and me and Zack can tell it's driving you crazy.' he sighs,
'He will treat me different. It will fuck our friendship up.' I whisper,
'Alex, I shouldn't tell you this, but Jack is bi. Me and Z have known for almost a year now.' he says quietly,
'What the fuck?!' I yell, hurt that jack would keep that from me,
'He didn't know how to tell you.' Rian whispers,
'He knows I'm gay for gods sake! Why would he hide that?!' I exclaim,
'I don't know to be honest Alex, but you mustnt tell him you know. He will kill me. But seriously, you should tell him. You never know what could happen.' Rian smiles.