Manage Me, I'm a Mess
Are you embarrassed of me? You say that you're proud but only when I ask ya
(two weeks later)
-Jacks POV-
I get home and walk into the lounge to find Alex being cuddled by my mum,
'You okay babe?' I ask and he doesn't look up,
'Where the hell have you been?' My mum snaps,
'At Zack's. I'm sorry, my phone died.' I sigh,
'Jack, he's been worried sick. So have I. God knows where you could of been.' she says quickly,
'I was at Zack's!' I exclaim,
'I called him. He didn't answer either. Then I called Rian and he had no clue.' Alex mumbles, looking up at me sadly,
'Im so sorry baby, I should of told you where I was going.' I sigh and run a hand through my hair,
'Yeah you should of.' he sighs and kisses my mums cheek before standing up and going upstairs,
'He was so scared babe. Go talk to him.' she sighs and I nod.
When I get upstairs, Alex is changing out of his zip up hoodie an into my old blink 182 sweatshirt. The one with the holes in the sleeves that he hooks his thumbs through so they don't ride up and show his scars,
'Alex, baby... Are you mad at me?' I ask softly,
'M'not mad.' he mumbles,
'You are.' I sigh, kicking a pair of my shoes that are in the middle of the floor,
'Im not mad.' Alex says quietly,
'You fucking are!' I snap, turning and slamming my hand against the wall, Alex runs up behind me and wraps his arm around me from behind, his hands splayed across my chest and his cheek on my back,
'In not mad. I was scared. I'm just glad you're safe. I love you.' he whispers, holding me tightly, I take a shaky breath and burst into tears, putting a hand on the wall in front of me for support and the other over Alex's on my chest,
'Jacky, what's wrong?' he whispers,
'I ran into Oli on the way home.' I whimper and Alex tightens his grip on me,
'And...?' he whispers,
'He said he's heard a rumour that we were dating and he said that if he ever sees us together, he's gonna kill you.' I sob,
'He's not gonna hurt either of us baby, I promise.' Alex whispers, rubbing my chest gently,
'it just scares me.' I sigh,
'I know darling, but its okay. Babe... Have you been eating properly?' he asks,
'No.' I say bluntly,
'Why not honey?' he whispers,
'I feel fat.' I mutter,
'Sweetie... Baby... Jacky... You're not fat. Please, you need to eat.' he sighs,
'I know... I just... I don't know.' I whisper,
'Come on, let's go get Joyce to make something. Have you eaten at all today?' he asks,
'Zack tried to get me to eat but I refused. So no.' I mumble and he nods, taking my hand.
'Joyce, can you make me and Jack something to eat? He hasn't eaten for a while.' Alex says softly and my mum looks at me sadly,
'Of course. What would you boys like?' she asks, standing up and hugging me quickly and then hugging Alex,
'I don't mind mum.' I say, slightly embarrassed,
'Jack, look at me, you don't need to be embarrassed about this babe. Okay, so you should of eaten but it's all a part of recovery. You have people that love you surrounding you, you can do this.' she whispers, I nod and take Alex's hand.
-Jacks POV-
I get home and walk into the lounge to find Alex being cuddled by my mum,
'You okay babe?' I ask and he doesn't look up,
'Where the hell have you been?' My mum snaps,
'At Zack's. I'm sorry, my phone died.' I sigh,
'Jack, he's been worried sick. So have I. God knows where you could of been.' she says quickly,
'I was at Zack's!' I exclaim,
'I called him. He didn't answer either. Then I called Rian and he had no clue.' Alex mumbles, looking up at me sadly,
'Im so sorry baby, I should of told you where I was going.' I sigh and run a hand through my hair,
'Yeah you should of.' he sighs and kisses my mums cheek before standing up and going upstairs,
'He was so scared babe. Go talk to him.' she sighs and I nod.
When I get upstairs, Alex is changing out of his zip up hoodie an into my old blink 182 sweatshirt. The one with the holes in the sleeves that he hooks his thumbs through so they don't ride up and show his scars,
'Alex, baby... Are you mad at me?' I ask softly,
'M'not mad.' he mumbles,
'You are.' I sigh, kicking a pair of my shoes that are in the middle of the floor,
'Im not mad.' Alex says quietly,
'You fucking are!' I snap, turning and slamming my hand against the wall, Alex runs up behind me and wraps his arm around me from behind, his hands splayed across my chest and his cheek on my back,
'In not mad. I was scared. I'm just glad you're safe. I love you.' he whispers, holding me tightly, I take a shaky breath and burst into tears, putting a hand on the wall in front of me for support and the other over Alex's on my chest,
'Jacky, what's wrong?' he whispers,
'I ran into Oli on the way home.' I whimper and Alex tightens his grip on me,
'And...?' he whispers,
'He said he's heard a rumour that we were dating and he said that if he ever sees us together, he's gonna kill you.' I sob,
'He's not gonna hurt either of us baby, I promise.' Alex whispers, rubbing my chest gently,
'it just scares me.' I sigh,
'I know darling, but its okay. Babe... Have you been eating properly?' he asks,
'No.' I say bluntly,
'Why not honey?' he whispers,
'I feel fat.' I mutter,
'Sweetie... Baby... Jacky... You're not fat. Please, you need to eat.' he sighs,
'I know... I just... I don't know.' I whisper,
'Come on, let's go get Joyce to make something. Have you eaten at all today?' he asks,
'Zack tried to get me to eat but I refused. So no.' I mumble and he nods, taking my hand.
'Joyce, can you make me and Jack something to eat? He hasn't eaten for a while.' Alex says softly and my mum looks at me sadly,
'Of course. What would you boys like?' she asks, standing up and hugging me quickly and then hugging Alex,
'I don't mind mum.' I say, slightly embarrassed,
'Jack, look at me, you don't need to be embarrassed about this babe. Okay, so you should of eaten but it's all a part of recovery. You have people that love you surrounding you, you can do this.' she whispers, I nod and take Alex's hand.