Manage Me, I'm a Mess

(a month later)

-Jacks POV-

I raise an eyebrow when I see a piece of paper on my pillow and I go pick it up,

Dear jack,

I'm sorry. None of this is your fault. I love you. I'm just not meant to be alive. I need to join my mum. Im sorry. I'm with her now. I'm so, so sorry.
I'll be leaving at ten.
I love you Jack Bassam Barakat. 
Tell Joyce and Bassam thank you.
I love you all.
Don't miss me.
Don't cry for me.
Its meant to be like this.

Yours lovingly, faithfully and truly, 
Alexander x

'NONONONONO!' I scream and my dad comes running,
'Whats going on?!' he asks,
'Alex is going to kill himself! We need to go to the graveyard where his mum is!' I say hurriedly,
'Okay, shit, come on, let's go.' my dad gasps and we sprint downstairs.

'Alex!' I scream and sprint over to him, collapsing to my knees and gathering him up into my arms,
'Jack...' he sobs,
'Its okay baby, I've got you. You're okay.' I whimper, kissing his hair,
'Nothings okay.' he cries,
'It will be. I can't believe you were going to leave me.' I whisper,
'Im sorry.' he sobs heavily,
'I love you, I love you. Please, don't ever leave me.' I sob,
'I need help.' he whimpers and I nod,
'Then we'll get you help. Don't scare me like that again.' I whisper,
'Im so sorry.' he cries,
'Come on Lexy. Let's get you home.' I sigh and take the pills he's clutching, he strokes his mums grave before letting me help him up.
'Come here Alex.' my dad whispers and hugs him tightly,
'We love you so much. Please, you cant leave us.' he mumbles and I start crying again because I love how much Alex means to my parents,
'We're gonna fix this lex. It's gonna be okay.' my dad sighs, rubbing his back,
'Im sorry.' Alex cries, my dad nods and unwraps Alex arms from his torso and passes him back over to me,
'Get in the car boys. Let's go home.' my dad whispers.

(a week later)

We managed to get Alex emergency therapy and today was his first session.
'How was it darling?' i ask when Alex walks into our bedroom,
'It was actually really good.' he smiles, walking over to me,
'Thats good sweetheart.' I smile and pull him into my lap,
'I got you something.' he whispers, opening his bag and pulling out a hot topic bag, he hands it to me and I open it, inside is a adventure time wallet,
'You're so cute.' I giggle and he laughs,
'Open it.' he whispers and I open the wallet quickly, inside is a picture of us printed like a polaroid, it's my favourite picture, he has his arms around my shoulders and the smile on his face is so beautiful, 
'Alex this is so cute, thank you.' I beam and he chuckles, 
'Look in the bag.' he whispers and I put my hand in the plastic bag and find a small velvet box, 'now, don't think I'm rushing anything. It's not what you think it is.' he chuckles and I open it, inside is two beautiful silver rings, one with "forever" engraved in it, the other with "& always",
'they're promise rings. A promise that we'll always be together and there for each other.' he whispers and I hug him tightly,
'You are the cutest thing ever oh my gosh Alexander I love you.' I whisper,
'so you'll promise me?' he asks and I nod,
'I love you so much.' I breathe as he puts the ring on my finger, I kiss his forehead and take the other ring and slide it onto his finger carefully,
'I love you baby.' he whispers,
'Never, ever leave me.' I sigh, stroking his cheek,
'I promise.' he smiles.

(later on)

I smile when I notice Alex has fallen asleep with his head on my lap, I tap my mums shoulder and point to Alex and she giggles, the three of us are sat on the couch watching tv, well, me and mum are sat on the couch and Alex is lying across us, his legs in my mums lap and his head in mine,
'Hes so cute.' mum whispers and I nod,
'Im gonna take him to bed. Love you.' I smile and lean over and kiss her cheek,
'Love you too babe.' she smiles as I lift Alex up slowly,
'Whats going on?' he mumbles sleepily, clutching onto me,
'Im taking you to bed sweetheart.' I whisper and he nods, nuzzling into my neck,
'I love you.' he mumbles again my skin and I laugh,
'I love you too honey.' I whisper, carrying him upstairs,
'Want to sleep with me darling?' I ask and he nods tiredly, 'Alright babe.' I chuckle and lie him down on my bed carefully and start taking his clothes off for him, sighing softly when I see his arms,
'Im sorry.' he mumbles and I kiss his forehead,
'Don't be sorry baby. It's okay.'
I whisper and take his jeans off for him, 'Im just gonna brush my teeth, go to sleep baby, I'll be back in a minute.' I say softly and he nods sleepily.
I get in bed next to Alex and pull him into my chest,
'I love you.' he mumbles almost incoherently,
'I love you too, go to sleep.' I whisper and he nods slightly and rests his head on my chest comfortably.
I look down at Alex as smile at him, he's sound asleep,
'Alex, I love you so much. You mustn't ever, ever leave me. I'd die without you. I love you. One day I hope I can marry the fuck out of you.' I whisper, trying not to giggle as I stroke his hair,
'Really?' he asks and I jump,
'I thought you were asleep.' I gasp,
'Im a very light sleeper. You want to marry me?' he asks, looking up at me, I blush and nod, hiding my face in his hair, 'Thats so cute. We'll get married one day, okay?' he giggles as I chuckle,
'I love you.' I whisper,
'I know baby. And I love you too. Now, get some sleep.' he chuckles and kisses my temple softly.