Manage Me, I'm a Mess

(a few weeks later)

From Zack:
Is Jack with you? x

To Zack:
Yeah x

From Zack: 
Talk to him x

To Zack:
Why? What about? x

From Zack:
He's stopped eating again x

To Zack:
Really? x

From Zack:
Yeah x

From Zack:
Fuck. Okay, I'll talk to him x

'Jack?' I ask and he rolls over to face me, 
'Yeah?' he whispers,
'When was the last time you ate?' I say softly,
'this morning.' he shrugs,
'Are you lying to me?' I sigh,
'No...' he whispers,
'Jack...' I breathe,
'I'm not lying.' he says sternly and I get out of bed and walk over to him, I get in next to him and kiss his forehead, 
'You are. Why are you not eating?' I ask, stroking his cheek, 
'Im fat.' he shrugs,
'You're not. Not at all.' I sigh, rubbing his back comfortingly,
'I am. I'll eat tomorrow if it's bothering you.' He whispers,
'What about tonight at dinner?' I ask and he shrugs,
'Give me your hand.' I sigh and he puts his hand in mine and I guide him to our balcony, I open the door and make him step outside,
'Look up. You see the clouds?' I ask and he nods, 'see how they just float along? But as they go they get smaller and smaller. What happens to clouds Jack?' I sigh,
'They evaporate?' he says, confused,
'Exactly. They get smaller and smaller until they are gone. They leave forever.' I whisper and his whole body shudders before he turns round and hugs me tightly.

(a few weeks later)

I sigh as I stroke my fingers over the cuts and scars on my arms, fucking hideous. 
'Alex? I got you some stuff.' Jack calls, I tug my sleeves down and leave the ensuite bathroom quickly,
'Hey.' I fake a smile,
'Hey bud. Here.' he grins and hands me a bag, inside is a two new sweatshirt and a hoodie, the hoodie is black with the blink 182 logo in white on the back and one sweatshirt has the green day heart grenade on and the other has the batman logo,
'Awh thank you, hang on I'll give you some money.' I smile and he laughs,
'No, I bought them for you. You don't need to pay me back.' I smile and ruffles my hair,
'Thanks bro.' I grin, he sits next to me and pick my lyric book up, reading through the new song, Lullabies, that I'm writing, he sighs quietly and takes my pen and starts doodling in the corner,
'Jack, those are my lyrics.' I say gently,
'They are beautiful but I want to make them happier.' he whispers as he draws a smiley face and the sun and a few stars,
'The sun and stars... Well I've never seen them together.' I giggle and he looks up and smiles sadly,
'Mum and dad are out tonight. Do you want to have a movie night?' he asks,
'Ive got a party to go to.' I shrug and his eyes widen slightly and his face falls, 'Im joking! Do you really think I'd go to a party?!' I laugh and he chuckles and hugs me,
'You're a special one.' he whispers, ruffling my hair.

(later on)

I look down to see Jack has fallen asleep with his head in my lap, he looks so cute and peaceful, you would never be able to tell there are demons in his mind.

Jack suddenly starts flinching and thrashing around slightly so I help him sit up and shake him lightly,
'Jack, jacky it's okay, I'm here.' I whisper and he takes a shaky breath and runs a hand through,
'Thank you. Was I wriggling?' he asks and I nod,
'I didn't hurt you, did I?' he asks and I chuckle,
'No Jay, I'm fine. Come here.' I whisper and hug him tightly.