The Lost Souls
February
I don't remember much of anything for this month. It is very vague. However, not vauge enough to say that I don't even remember how fast or where this month went. We continued to talk before bed online, we would continue hang out in the mornings before class, we would still be giving each other tight hugs in the hallways, we still ate lunch together, we still hung out at my house during band practice.
I think that since I was blocking anything more than a mutual feeling, I started to focus my attention to somewhere else in order to keep burying my crush on you. My girlfriend had proposed our relationship to be open...whatever the heck that meant. I just knew it was ok if she had a boyfriend and if I had a boyfriend all while we were "dating." So, when your best friend started to flirt around with me, I guess this is where I started to focus my attention to in order to forget my feelings for you.
I think that since I was blocking anything more than a mutual feeling, I started to focus my attention to somewhere else in order to keep burying my crush on you. My girlfriend had proposed our relationship to be open...whatever the heck that meant. I just knew it was ok if she had a boyfriend and if I had a boyfriend all while we were "dating." So, when your best friend started to flirt around with me, I guess this is where I started to focus my attention to in order to forget my feelings for you.