Unwanted

I never knew that I could love so much.
I never thought I would love her so much.
I never thought I would be standing up here on stage about to do this.
Why doesn't she see?
I took a deep breathe.
It can't
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I was anxiously waiting for James to play. I loved to hear him play. His voice was so magical and sexy. It took me to a whole other world. When he appeared on stage, my eyes raked over every inch of him. He was so unbelievably sexy and attractive. I wanted to run my hair through his short, feathered light brown locks. His eyes. I could get lost in those sad looking baby blues and I itched, I itched to kiss his powder pink lips. He was wearing just a soft cotton tee that showed off the tattoos that I loved so much all along his arms.
The sound of the strumming of an acoustic guitar brought me out of my thoughts. He was looking right at me and I beamed a smile at him.
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I got lost in her smile for a few seconds, forgetting what my purpose on this stage was. I pulled my self away and cleared my throat.
“Good Evening everyone, Tonight is a new original song I wrote for a certain someone, I hope she hears me”
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The guitar started once more and I pulled myself out and forced myself to pay attention to the beautiful sound that was about to escape from his lips.

All the making's of a classic
Her eyes were locking across the crowded Room
uh oh you're next
she's made up of all the sweetest of ingredients though disobedient to the charm i put on display

I gave you chance to send out
Send out that sos
You've been threatening for days
send out send out now

Well its beautiful, illogical, the devil dances
Angels sing out of tune
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you thought
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you want

Exit stage left my mind is always at war
Please forget what you saw
When my character divided
And you thought that i could be someone you love
But i don't even love myself
And i will never shake this,
I can leave you chance to send out send out that sos
You've been threatening for days
Send out send out now

Well its beautiful, illogical, the devil dances
Angels sing out of tune
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you thought
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you want
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you thought
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I frowned as I heard his words.I felt pain in my heart. I wouldn't let it show though; he was looking right at me I really thought he loved me. I was suddenly confused about our relationship. Lost in turmoil I decided whether he loved me or not, that the words he were telling me were not true like he believed they were. I would make him see how amazing he was. I wasn't going to give up.When he was no longer paying attention to me I started over to the stage fiercely. I got up on stage right next to him and interjected into the song.

No No NOoo
You can't make me gooo

He looked at me bewildered and then continued on.
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You should go
I'll leave you bleeding tears of joy
I'll reign you in then not by choice
I'll let you go
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I continued to belt out
I said I wont go
I'm in love
Don't you say those words don't come to close
I'm in love i cant help it
I'm in love yes
I'm in love i'm in love
I'm in love
No i wont go
I wont go

I walked off the stage leaving it all out there. I propped myself against the wall. I felt a little weak, continuing to listen to James sing.
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Well its beautiful, illogical, the devil dances
Angels sing out of tune
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you thought
oh whoa oh whoa
I'm not what you want

I'm not
No i'm not what you want.

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When James appeared back stage he slowly, and hesitantly headed over to me.
"Claire', he spoke softly.
"I won't go" I whispered but knew that he still heard me.
There was silence and then he just walked away.
Leaving me devastated.