Delilah

Trying to reach
For the surface,
I grab and scrape
At the things that aren't there.

I watch as the rain
Keeps pouring whilst I swim
In this giant puddle
Of mess.

The feelings start to return,
Like the horrors as I
Pull myself apart
And don't stop.

I unravel myself and
watch as it becomes thicker
And heavier
Until my whole body feels like lead.

It overcomes me,
And takes me away from
All of the mess I'd made.
Until it washes back.

It drowns me.
And finally I
succumb.