Marshall and I

Why I can't be happy? why everytime something good happens to me and I start to be happy something happens? maybe I starting to think I don't deserve to be happy..

I was looking at the window, thinking about everything what happened just a few minutes ago

-"Marina?"-Marshall says softly

-"huh?"

-"we're arrived"

I put my hands in my hair and breathe, trying to calm myself

-"ok.., bye..." - I say and open the door

-"Marina, wait!!"

I turn my head to look at him

-"what Marshall? what's up now? -" I say rudely

he doesn't say anything, he just looks at me

we stare at each other, god his eyes....

I was mad and now I'm not anymore, how can he has such effect on me?

he grabs my hand,I feel an adrenaline rush inside me

-"I'm sorry babe, please"- he whispers in my ear, which makes me have knots in my stomach

-"Marshall.."

-"I really am, I didn't want you to see this side of me, but seriously Marina,don't want that moron near you"

I pull his hand away from me

-"Marshall! he's not a moron, you should be grateful I met him, because if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have met your brother and I wouldn't have met you, plus he has been nothing but sweet and nice towards me"

-"why do you keep on defending him? why do you have to be like this? why is so fucking difficult for you to understand what I mean ?"-he says frustrated

-"no Marshall, that's not the question, the question is why do you have to be like this? plus he's only a friend, he."

-"hah!"- he says sarcastic

-"hah?, what do you mean with hah!?"

-"are you saying he has never tried to be more than friends, that he's never told you he wants something else or tried to kiss you?"

I didn't want to answer the question because he would get even angrier so I avoid him and remain quiet

-"Marina,I'm talking to you , answer me .."

-"..........."

-"Marina, fucking answer me !!"- he yells

-"what?!! what do you want to say? yes, you're right ok? you're right and yes he kissed me too, are you fucking happy now?!"

-"I knew it! that motherfucker, I'm gonna..."

-"Marshall, will you stop!!"- I say and feel tears coming from my eyes-"he's only a friend a FRIEND!! maybe he likes me but he can't be more than a friend for me, I already told you I don't feel that way!! you're the one who I want to, Marshall you take my my breath away and every time you touch me I feel butterflies and for the god's sake you make my body shakes with your touch"

-"Marina, I.."

-"no, let me finish, you think you have problems and you can't trust people and women only wants you because of who you're but let me tell you something you're not the only one with those problems, you're not the only one who has been treated like shit in a relationship so I'm like that too or at least I was , even my mum tells me I have a retaining wall in my heart, I didn't want to fall in love after what David did to me, I didn't want to trust men again but I met you and you changed everything, I've never thought I could feel like this, Marshall, you're breaking that wall and I'm scared, I'm scared of the way I'm falling for you too, but it feels so right, it feels so amazing , you make me feel alive and I know we don't know each other too much yet but what I know about you is enough to make me wonder what is in store for us

-"babe.."

-"what I'm trying to say is I wanna stay in Detroit, don't get me wrong I'm gonna miss my sister as hell , but I know if I leave, I will regret it , so yes Marshall, I will stay in Detroit with you"-

I finish my speak and then stare at Marshall who is quiet

-"Marshall, say something!you're not happy? you don't want me to stay here anymore? if that's so I understand maybe you think we need some time apart after our fight but please say some.."

I fell Marshall coming closer and put his index finguer in my lips

-"shhhh,"- he says and kiss my neck

-"Marshall...."- I groan

-"you're amazing, you know that?"- he says kissing my lips while his hand is touching my intimate area

-"Marshall.."-I moaned against his lips

-"you're so beautiful"

-"Marshall, do you want go to the hotel?"-

-"what?"

-"I asked you if you want to go to the hotel"

-"and your mum?"

-"she's out with my sister and her boyfriend,it's only you and me babe"- I say and kiss him while my hand grazes his member gently, he bites his lips and closes his eyes enjoying the pleasure

-"but I thought you couldn't.."- he says breathless

-"it doesn't mean you can't either though.. plus there's a shower in the room...." -I say and bite his neck gently

-"ahhh..god babe! you drive me crazy" -he moans against my lips

*note*

Hi :) I'm sorry I know this a little short but I thought you would like to know what's going to happen after the fight so I posted this

I hope you like it :))