Marshall and I

I remained quiet all the time but I couldn't take it anymore

I glared at him

-"I'm sorry you regret everything and that I fucked your life up,and take your phone I don't want it "-I say, give him the phone and open the car's door and leave

I just wanted to break down and cry but I can't , no now, not in front of him , I won't let him see me like that

-"Marina, Marina"

I ignore him and keep on walking

-"Marina!!"

I don't look back and keep on walking but I hear someone coming closer then someone grabs my arm

I turn around and see it's Marshall

-" shit! you didn't hear me?"- he says with anger

I pull away and glare at him

-" fuck you"-I say and walk again

but he grabs my arm again

-"Marina let's go inside the car and .."

I pull away again

-"no!! I'm not going with you anywhere, you made everything perfectly clear, it's a good thing I have my ticket and I'm still going to Spain because I won't come back, you see? problem solved, you don't have to worry about it because you're not going to see me more"- I say

-"Marina that wasn't what I meant."

-"that was exactly what you meant"-

I was shacking in anger

-" no,it wasn't , at least you could let me explain it "

I glance at him

-" ok"- I mumble

-"let's go to the car"- he says and grabs my hand

I pull away

-"no! I'm not going to the car,you can tell me here"

-"Marina, I'm not going to talk about it on the fucking street people will notice me, let's go to the car"

-"which people? the woman from the store didn't even know who you were"

he glares at me

-" why do you have to be so fucking difficult?, just do as I told"

-"whatever"-

I wasn't in the mood to argue

we go inside the car and he locks the doors

-"why do you lock the doors?"

-"I don't want to run after you again"

-" don't do it then, I don't even know why I'm here, you already said everything and made it very clear"

-"Marina shut up and let me explain myself, will you?"

-" I guess I don't have another option, do I?"- I say trying to provoke him

he rolls his eyes

-"I regret NOTHING,lat night was amazing, I loved every second of it, it felt so good, so right"

I avoid to look at him , I can't, I know if I look at him I would cry

-"Marina, look at me"

.............................

-"Marina, please"-he whispers and grabs my face gently

-"why did you say those things then?"

-" I freaked out , when I went to the bathroom and saw I didn't wear a condom ,panic overwhelmed my body"

-"how did you think I feel?"

-"I know babe and I'm sorry but it's just I barely slept last night , I couldn't stop thinking about it , thinking about how I was going to tell my daughters, it scares of shit out of me and the age too"

-"age? what do you mean?"

-" I'm 41 I'm way too old to be a father"

I could feel he was really sad about his age

-"Marshall you're not old.."

-"you think so?"

-"I know so.. you are always full of energy you look younger , and sometimes you act like a teenager"

-"well I do feel like a teenager when I'm a with you, you make me feel so carefree, you make feel live"-he says looking at me and holds my hand

-"Marina, I'm so sorry I was such an asshole and.."

his phone is ringing

-"shit! I'm sorry"- he excuses himself and grabs the phone

-"what's up?"

-"Paul, I can't talk right now"

-"Cali?"

-"she's with me right now,

-"ok , I'll ask her"

-"ok bye Paul, yes see ya man" he says and keeps his mobile on his pocket again

-"babe, Paul says we're going to Cali to record a part of the video" he says looking at me

-"ohhmm ok... and when?"

-" in 2 weeks"

-"ok.. cool"

-" is that ok?"

-"yes yes , I always wanted to visit Cali,there are amazing beaches in Cali"

-" ha , yes that's true, do you want to go to beach?"

-"I'd love to, but I don't know if we're going to have enough time for that"

-"don't worry I'll take care of it"

-"thank you!!..you wanna go to the beach too?"

-"no, I'm doing it because if we go I can see you in a bikini"-he says flirting

I roll my eyes

-"you already have seen me naked so what's the point?plus there're more things you can do in a beach than just see someone in a bikini, you know?"-I say provoking him

-"like?"-he says raising a eyebrow

I inch towards him

-"like having sex in the night "-I whisper in his ear and touch his inner thigh

I hear him groaning

-" you're killing me"

we look at each other

-"Marina, we are cool right?"- he says and caresses my face

-"yeah yeah, we ..are cool,don't worry"

-" I can tell you're still upset about it tho"

-"I'll be fine"

-" I'm so sorry"

-"I know.."

-"do you want to come to the studio with me?"

-"no thanks I'm a little tired and I have the flight so I'd rather go to the hotel and rest a little bit before we head for to the airport if you don't mind"

-"ok .. whatever.. no problem"

-"thanks"-I mumble

he starts to drive and soon we're in the hotel

-"thanks for the drive"

-"no problem"

we stare at each other

-"when will you come back?"

-"I don't know Marshall... I need to take care of some things first "

-"but you're coming back, aren't you?"

-"maybe.. maybe not.."-I tease him

-"Marina.... if you don't come back to Detroit I swear I'll go myself to Spain and bring you back!"

-" is that so?"

-"the hell is it"-he says pissed

-"yes I'm coming back"

-"you better"-he mumbles

I look at him

-"ok, I'm going now.."

-"Marina, wait"

-"what?"

-"when are you going to know if you're...welll you know.."

-"it's soon yet I have to wait 14 days or so I think.."

-"14 days!! shit! ok..I think it's better is we try no to think about it"

I nod

-"and we shouldn't say anything till we know it for sure"

-"yes, you're right, it's probably the best option"

-"and Marina I wanted to say that whatever comes you can count on me, I'll be there for you "

-"thanks.."-I whisper

-"don't worry ok?everything is gonna be ok, you'll see"-he says and kisses my forehead

-"Marshall you can count on me too" I say and rest my head on his shoulder

he smiles and kisses my head while wraps me into his arms

-" you know? I would repeat last night over and over again"

-"would you?"

he nods

-"I would, it was amazing the feeling and your body against me felt so good I loved how your body reacted to mine and how good you felt when I had my cock inside you"

-"Marshall!"-I blush

I felt embarrassed

-"you don't need to be shy about it, don't be ashamed"

-"I'm not, it was amazing for me too"-I say

I look at his watch it was 12 am

-"I gotta go"-I say and press my lips against his

-"don't"- he mumbles against my mouth

-"Marshall.."-I pull away

-"ok fine! have a good journey and call me as soon as you arrive in Spain"

-"thank you ,I will "

-"I'm going to miss you you know? you better come back soon"

he pushes me against him and kiss me passionately

-"I'll miss you too"- I moan against his lips

-"bye"-he says and pulls away

-"bye, bye"-

I grab my things, close the door after me and leave

GOD! I'm really going to miss him