Marshall and I

-"now?"

-"Marshall we need to wait a bit more.."- I say annoyed

he growls

what does he think huh? that I don't want to know it straight away?

-"Marshall please, I wanna know it too, calm down"

-"shit I'm sorry , I.."- he says running his fingers through his hair

-"I think it's time now"

I go to the table and take the stick

I take long breaths and finally look at it

I break down and cry and sit down on the bed, putting my hands over my face Marshall looks at me

-"what, what ?" -he says concerned

I can't even talk so I give him the stick so he can see it himself

-" so that means you are not pregnant.." -he sighs

I nod

-"I'm not pregnant "- I snivel

he puts the stick on the table and sits next to me

he looks at me but I avoid looking at him and look down

-"Marina.. babe, are you ok?"- he says and holds my hand

-" yes, yes, it's just I thought I was pregnant.. I don't know why I'm crying , I should be happy"

he sighs

-"you wanted to be pregnant, don't you?"

-"I don't know.. it's just that after everything you said..I.. gosh!! I'm so stupid!"

-"hey! you're not stupid , I.."

I cut him off

-"yes I'm stupid because this is crazy, we just have started to date, it's too soon and you didn't want children.. so I should be happy, I shouldn't be crying but happy "

-"Marina.. everything I said was true I meant everything I understand how you feel, I thought you were pregnant too"

-" you understand?"

-"of course I'd lie if I said that I'm not a little sad like I said I meant everything I said but I think also it's good that you're not because like you said it's soon ,we're knowing each other and we don't know what the future holds so it's better if we wait and.."

I glare at him and pull his hand off me

-"wait? wait for in case we break up ? is that what you meant? you're not sure about us and you want no strings attached so in case it doesn't work you can get ride of me easily"

-"what the fuck? are you hearing yourself?"

-"fuck off!" -I say and get up trying to go the bathroom, I didn't want to see him but before I could he grabs my arm with force, I look at him, his eyes are with sadness, rage

-"don't talk to me like that ok? you ungrateful bitch! how can you say that after everything I've done for you?"- he says with anger

-"everything I've done for you?"-I repeat

he comes closer to me our faces almost touching , I step back but he comes closer to me then I collide with the wall

-"you have the nerve of saying I haven't done anything for you? well let me tell you something you're doing a song thanks to me, you have a job as assistant thanks to me , you have a house thanks to me, you're in California thanks to me, I've opened myself to you, I've let you in! I wanted you to have the best room of this hotel so I paid more for this room , I've been by your side all this time, I've been worried for you, I've been calling you , giving you my support , I've asked you to meet my daughters, doesn't it mean anything for you? are you fucking serious right now?" he shouts

I look down all the time and don't say anything which makes him angrier

-"answer me when I'm fucking talking to you"

I refuse to say anything

-"fuck!!" he says and I see how his fist is coming towards me

Is he going to hit me?

I close my eyes and feel how he hits the wall with force

after a few seconds I slowly open my eyes

his hand was bleeding

-"shit!, are you ok?" I say and grab his hand

-"don't touch me right now, don't even come closer to me ..seriously"- he says cold, and pull away and sits on the chair next to the tv

well done Marina..

-"fuck, it hurts like a motherfucker"- I hear him mumble

-"Marshall let me see.."-I say while I come closer to him

-"NO!! I told you, don't touch me, fuck!"-

-"Marshall listen .. I'm sorry ok?"

but he doesn't say anything nor even look at me and leaves the room slamming the door after him

what? did he just leave like that?

I break down

what do I do now?

I think I should give him space so I decide I will wait for him , he has to come back sooner or later , right?

after 20 min he hasn't appear and I was desesperate and worried what if something bad happened to him?

I shake my head

don't say that Marina he probably just went for a walk to try to calm himself or maybe he's with Paul

I was lost in my thoughts when my phone rings

Marshall I thought

I ran towards the night stand and grab the phone and look at the screen

I frown, it was my mom, it was 3 am in Spain, why is she calling me this late?

-"hi mum"

-"Marinaaa, how ar ya ?"

-"mum are you drunk?"

-"tipsy Marina typsy"

I roll my eyes

-" why are you calling me this late?"

-"I have something to tell you "

-" what is it?"

-"Elton proposeddddddd!!-she shouts

-"shit, mum!! I'm not deaf"

she bursts into laughter

-"sorry honey but I'm so happy!"

-"I'm happy for you, I know you love him.."

-"thanks babe.. and how are you? did you already did the test?"

-"yes.."-I sigh

-"and you didn't call me right after ???"- she says pissed

-"mum, I'm not in the mood ok? I've had enough!"

-"what do you mean? what happened?"

-"mum... Marshall and I had a fight and left and I don't know where he's now"

I say breaking down

" why did you fight? are you pregnant and he got mad?"

-"no mum, I'm not pregnant the test was negative"- I say snivelling

-"you wan ted to be pregnant , don't you?"

I feel tears falling on my cheeks

-" mum ... I'm so stupid... I don't know what's wrong with me, this is not normal, why do I have to feel like this?"

-"because you're in love, no sorry ,you're madly in love with him"

-"but this is crazy , we met 3 weeks ago"

-"Marina love is not about time but feelings, it doesn't matter if you only met him yesterday if he's the one you would know it, like it happened to me with Elton , I knew he was the one right after I met him, I just knew it , it was that feeling, Ive never felt like this before not even with your father, what you feel is what I felt for Elton"

-"yes? "

-"Marina look at you! you are living in another country for him, when we you were together you couldn't stop looking at him , and he was the same and now you're crying because you are not pregnant! Marina I have never seen you like this with David , and you dated for years!

-"What do you mean?"

-"I mean I think he's the one for you Marina"