Status: Sequel soon
Secret Love
Chapter 33
It' been 3 days since the interview and 2 days until they leave for LA.
I was at my shift at the smoothie shop. my dad has said there as been a lot more people coming in, but the business side hasn't picked up, it's just girls wanting to see if i'm there and not actually buy anything. I've had to rearrange my shifts so i'm on during the school day which doesn't stop people coming in after school but it stops them hanging around as i'm not there.
I was sitting behind the till bored as it's the middle of the day on a week day people aren't really out to relax and have a smoothie. I decided to pull my phone out and go on twitter for the first time since everything.
@OliviaJess so bored, come save me
I tweeted. i havent tweeted anything about me or Ashton. I don't think it's my place to address his fans about it. i'm leaving all that to him.
@baileejean GO DIE BITCH
@outofmyhood KILL YOURSELF SLUT
@libby5sosirwin BACK OFF OUR MAN YOU BITCH
@love5soshemmo NO ONE WANT YOU ALIVE BITCH
Hundreds of replies were being sent to my phone from me just saying i was bored. Why were they being so mean to me. i honestly havent done anything wrong. i havent done anything to them and they want me to die. I didn't even realise i was crying until my dad came over to me and asked what was wrong
"is it okay if i go home dad" i asked through my tears
"Yeah sweetie, go ahead you're basically finished anyway and we aren't busy"
i got up and put my phone in my pocket. I hugged my dad before going in the back and getting my stuff
I went out to my car and drove, i drove to his house, i didn't even know if he would be there or not, but i know Anne will be and she knows everything and i just need someone to talk too. I parked outside i looked in the mirror and saw my eyes were red a puffy from crying. There is no way i'm going to be able to hide it. i took a deep breathe to compose myself and got out of my car and headed to the front door. I'm so use to coming here i can just walk right on in like it's my house.
"Hello anyone in" i said as i walked through
"Hi Olivia" Ann said coming round the corner
"Are you okay" she asked clearly noticing i've been crying
"Yeah, no, i don't really know" i answered
"Ash is in his room with the other boys" she said
"okay thank you" i replied
i walked to his room and pushed the door open
"Babe, can i" i stopped mid sentence when i saw all the boys sat by the computer with a twitcam going on
"Oh sorry, i um, i'll be in the lounge"i said backing away
"No it's fine are you okay, you look like you've been crying" Ashton said getting up
"i'll be right back guys" he said to the computer before walking over to me and i burst into tears before he even had the chance.
"Baby, what happened" he said as he pulled me out of his room and we went down the hall a bit
"They hate me" i whispered
"Who"
"Your fans, they hate me they want me to die, all i get 24/7 is people telling me i'm no good for you or i should just go kill myself. I don't know what i did for them to hate me so much, they don't even know me. They are telling me they wish i was dead and all i wish i could do is run to my mum and let her tell me everything is going to be okay but i can't because she isn't here and maybe i should die so i can be with my mum and everyone will be happy" i said raising my voice and not even realising i shouted the last part about my mum. i was looking at the ground not wanting to make eye contact with him. tears were falling like a waterfall
"Babe, Baby, Olivia Look at me please" i didn't move my head. he placed his hand under my chin and raised my head so i was looking at him
"Don't ever think you would be better of dead, you are loved by so many people, i love you so so so much and i would be lost without you okay. I promise you i am going to fix this okay baby. Everything is going to be fine" he said pulling me into a hug, i wrapped my arms around him so tightly
"The boys and i are going to sort his out okay. This isn't okay for people to be wishing death upon somebody. i love you baby so much and your happiness is my number one goal"
"I love you too" i replied
his kissed my head and we stayed like that for what felt like forver
***FANS POV****
I was sitting on my bed with my laptop watching to 5sos twitcam. I love these guys so much i have been a fan since the beginning and when i say beginning i mean before even Ashton was apart of the group. I've know about Ashton and Olivia since the beginning i did think it was weird when he said he was single, but i just went with it because he is getting more known and he was probably just trying to protect her which is sweet.
the boys were talking about LA and how they are excited to go out there and share a house together for 2 months when the door opened and in full view was Olivia. Not going to lie, she looked a mess even from far away you could tell she was crying. She obviously didn't know they were doing a twitcam because once she noticed she panic and started walking away until AShton went to her and we saw her break down. Calum, Luke and Michael were shocked and didn't know what to do. Ashton and Olivia left leaving the boys
"Okay so um" Luke started
"LA, yeah so we're excited to"Calum stopped halfway through when we could hear Olivia Shouting
the boys looked at each other not knowing what to do because clearly they knew we could hear it.
She was talking about Fans wanting her dead. I felt so sorry for her. She literally has done nothing wrong. I wish people would just realise it's about the boys music and not who they date and not get so into their personal lives where they think it's okay to act like this, it makes us all look bad and Ashton, the boys and Olivia are real people who have feelings and clearly by this Olivia is feeling awful.
"Um i think we are going to have to cut this short guys" Luke said just as Ashton came back into the room. He looked Angry
"Wait before you shut off i need to say something" he said
"Can you all please, please please, stop harassing Olivia, telling her she should go die is not okay and it's not what i expect from our fans, you should all know better than to bully someone with such harsh words. you don't know what Olivia has gone through, you don't know Olivia at all so please stop with this. I'm not angry. i'm disappointed in every single person who calls themselves a 5SOS fan but is sending hate to someone who means so much to me. You're not just hurting Olivia with those words, you're hurting me too" he said
and then it clicked off and the twitcam was over.
I had my twitter open and everyone was talking about it. some people were even still being horrible saying Olivia was fake crying and is just trying to get Ashons attention away from the fans. Like are they actually serious. Were they watching that. There stood a girl in distress over people telling her to kill herself and they want to believe she did that for attention no. But there were alot of people saying nice things and wishing Olivia well and hoping she is okay. i sent out a tweet
@LucieBelle5sos I really hope Olivia is okay. People are so mean and rude. Leave the poor girl alone.
***OLIVIA'S POV****
I walked back into ashtons room and all the boys pulled me into a group hug
"we love you Livbear" Luke said
"Yeah we love you" Michael and Calum added.
"i'm sorry i ruined your twicam, your mum didn't tell me you were doing it" i said as we all sat on Ashtons bed
"She didn't know. it's fine babe, you know i'm always here for you" he said kissing my head. i pouted and looked up at him. he chuckled and then leaned down to kiss my lips
"well that's our cue to leave" Michael said
Just as Luke, michael and Calum were getting up Ann came in
"Is everything okay i heard shouting" she said
"Yeah everything is fine" Ashton said
"Okay but Olivia take it easy yeah don't stress" she said
i looked at her confused before saying okay. she walked back out and the other boys followed behind
"what did she mean by that" Ashton asked
"i honestly have no clue" i replied
"well since i have you to myself know" he said smirking and i giggled as he pulled me on top of me and i started to kiss him
"Jesus, we aren't even out of the house yet" we heard and we looked up to see Luke standing at the door
"don't mind me, just forgot my sunnies" he picked them up from the floor and went back out shutting the door behind me
'lets just cuddle" i said and thats what we need we cuddled and watched movies
I was at my shift at the smoothie shop. my dad has said there as been a lot more people coming in, but the business side hasn't picked up, it's just girls wanting to see if i'm there and not actually buy anything. I've had to rearrange my shifts so i'm on during the school day which doesn't stop people coming in after school but it stops them hanging around as i'm not there.
I was sitting behind the till bored as it's the middle of the day on a week day people aren't really out to relax and have a smoothie. I decided to pull my phone out and go on twitter for the first time since everything.
@OliviaJess so bored, come save me
I tweeted. i havent tweeted anything about me or Ashton. I don't think it's my place to address his fans about it. i'm leaving all that to him.
@baileejean GO DIE BITCH
@outofmyhood KILL YOURSELF SLUT
@libby5sosirwin BACK OFF OUR MAN YOU BITCH
@love5soshemmo NO ONE WANT YOU ALIVE BITCH
Hundreds of replies were being sent to my phone from me just saying i was bored. Why were they being so mean to me. i honestly havent done anything wrong. i havent done anything to them and they want me to die. I didn't even realise i was crying until my dad came over to me and asked what was wrong
"is it okay if i go home dad" i asked through my tears
"Yeah sweetie, go ahead you're basically finished anyway and we aren't busy"
i got up and put my phone in my pocket. I hugged my dad before going in the back and getting my stuff
I went out to my car and drove, i drove to his house, i didn't even know if he would be there or not, but i know Anne will be and she knows everything and i just need someone to talk too. I parked outside i looked in the mirror and saw my eyes were red a puffy from crying. There is no way i'm going to be able to hide it. i took a deep breathe to compose myself and got out of my car and headed to the front door. I'm so use to coming here i can just walk right on in like it's my house.
"Hello anyone in" i said as i walked through
"Hi Olivia" Ann said coming round the corner
"Are you okay" she asked clearly noticing i've been crying
"Yeah, no, i don't really know" i answered
"Ash is in his room with the other boys" she said
"okay thank you" i replied
i walked to his room and pushed the door open
"Babe, can i" i stopped mid sentence when i saw all the boys sat by the computer with a twitcam going on
"Oh sorry, i um, i'll be in the lounge"i said backing away
"No it's fine are you okay, you look like you've been crying" Ashton said getting up
"i'll be right back guys" he said to the computer before walking over to me and i burst into tears before he even had the chance.
"Baby, what happened" he said as he pulled me out of his room and we went down the hall a bit
"They hate me" i whispered
"Who"
"Your fans, they hate me they want me to die, all i get 24/7 is people telling me i'm no good for you or i should just go kill myself. I don't know what i did for them to hate me so much, they don't even know me. They are telling me they wish i was dead and all i wish i could do is run to my mum and let her tell me everything is going to be okay but i can't because she isn't here and maybe i should die so i can be with my mum and everyone will be happy" i said raising my voice and not even realising i shouted the last part about my mum. i was looking at the ground not wanting to make eye contact with him. tears were falling like a waterfall
"Babe, Baby, Olivia Look at me please" i didn't move my head. he placed his hand under my chin and raised my head so i was looking at him
"Don't ever think you would be better of dead, you are loved by so many people, i love you so so so much and i would be lost without you okay. I promise you i am going to fix this okay baby. Everything is going to be fine" he said pulling me into a hug, i wrapped my arms around him so tightly
"The boys and i are going to sort his out okay. This isn't okay for people to be wishing death upon somebody. i love you baby so much and your happiness is my number one goal"
"I love you too" i replied
his kissed my head and we stayed like that for what felt like forver
***FANS POV****
I was sitting on my bed with my laptop watching to 5sos twitcam. I love these guys so much i have been a fan since the beginning and when i say beginning i mean before even Ashton was apart of the group. I've know about Ashton and Olivia since the beginning i did think it was weird when he said he was single, but i just went with it because he is getting more known and he was probably just trying to protect her which is sweet.
the boys were talking about LA and how they are excited to go out there and share a house together for 2 months when the door opened and in full view was Olivia. Not going to lie, she looked a mess even from far away you could tell she was crying. She obviously didn't know they were doing a twitcam because once she noticed she panic and started walking away until AShton went to her and we saw her break down. Calum, Luke and Michael were shocked and didn't know what to do. Ashton and Olivia left leaving the boys
"Okay so um" Luke started
"LA, yeah so we're excited to"Calum stopped halfway through when we could hear Olivia Shouting
the boys looked at each other not knowing what to do because clearly they knew we could hear it.
She was talking about Fans wanting her dead. I felt so sorry for her. She literally has done nothing wrong. I wish people would just realise it's about the boys music and not who they date and not get so into their personal lives where they think it's okay to act like this, it makes us all look bad and Ashton, the boys and Olivia are real people who have feelings and clearly by this Olivia is feeling awful.
"Um i think we are going to have to cut this short guys" Luke said just as Ashton came back into the room. He looked Angry
"Wait before you shut off i need to say something" he said
"Can you all please, please please, stop harassing Olivia, telling her she should go die is not okay and it's not what i expect from our fans, you should all know better than to bully someone with such harsh words. you don't know what Olivia has gone through, you don't know Olivia at all so please stop with this. I'm not angry. i'm disappointed in every single person who calls themselves a 5SOS fan but is sending hate to someone who means so much to me. You're not just hurting Olivia with those words, you're hurting me too" he said
and then it clicked off and the twitcam was over.
I had my twitter open and everyone was talking about it. some people were even still being horrible saying Olivia was fake crying and is just trying to get Ashons attention away from the fans. Like are they actually serious. Were they watching that. There stood a girl in distress over people telling her to kill herself and they want to believe she did that for attention no. But there were alot of people saying nice things and wishing Olivia well and hoping she is okay. i sent out a tweet
@LucieBelle5sos I really hope Olivia is okay. People are so mean and rude. Leave the poor girl alone.
***OLIVIA'S POV****
I walked back into ashtons room and all the boys pulled me into a group hug
"we love you Livbear" Luke said
"Yeah we love you" Michael and Calum added.
"i'm sorry i ruined your twicam, your mum didn't tell me you were doing it" i said as we all sat on Ashtons bed
"She didn't know. it's fine babe, you know i'm always here for you" he said kissing my head. i pouted and looked up at him. he chuckled and then leaned down to kiss my lips
"well that's our cue to leave" Michael said
Just as Luke, michael and Calum were getting up Ann came in
"Is everything okay i heard shouting" she said
"Yeah everything is fine" Ashton said
"Okay but Olivia take it easy yeah don't stress" she said
i looked at her confused before saying okay. she walked back out and the other boys followed behind
"what did she mean by that" Ashton asked
"i honestly have no clue" i replied
"well since i have you to myself know" he said smirking and i giggled as he pulled me on top of me and i started to kiss him
"Jesus, we aren't even out of the house yet" we heard and we looked up to see Luke standing at the door
"don't mind me, just forgot my sunnies" he picked them up from the floor and went back out shutting the door behind me
'lets just cuddle" i said and thats what we need we cuddled and watched movies