My Secret
Chapter 22
I look at him straight in his eyes, I run my hands through my hair trying to calm myself
-"I don't know.. "- I say whispering
-"you don't know?! what the fuck does that mean?"- he says getting frustated and angry
-" it means I don't know anymore.. I don't know what to believe .."
-"what?, are you seriously going to believe her over me?!"- he says almost yelling
-" it's not that I belive her over you it's."
-"then what is it? what is it?! "- he says cutting me off
-"it's the fact that I knew this wasn't going to last, that we were going to fight, Marshall everytime we're together something or rather someone comes and get in the middle of us"
-" you know what? I'm done with this, I'm tired of this shit"
I look at him and frown
-"you're done?"- I say trying to hold back the tears
-"Vic, I'm tired of this, I don't know what you want from me seriously, I don't know what else to do to prove you that I do love you and this time is gonna be different, all you do is complain about how much I hurt you and how you had to raise Cristian by yourself or when you say the first time it didn't work for us let me tell you something it was your fault, we were great together, we DID work, we just had some problems but you left I wanted to be with you and I wanted to raise Cristian together but you didn't even tell me about him .. by the way you weren't going to tell me about it ever , did you? how could you wait 10 fucking years to tell me about it? what did you say to Cristian everytime he asked about me? but of course you keep blaming it on me, you're such an hypocrite "
I didn't know what to say.. I look down at my hands, I was about to break down again
-" I gave you everything you wanted , you know I would have done anything for you, you fucking know it, the only thing I do is trying hard to win you back, I'm doing everything to show you how much I love you and trying to make you understand that we can be happily together, that it can work but the only thing you do is rejecting me and telling me that you aren't sure.. "
-"Marshall.. I.."
-" let me talk ,I didn't finish! I have the feeling that you don't love me as much as I do, I have a feeling that you don't even want to be with me, that you're just doing this for Cristian, because Cristian wants us to be together, Vic do you really want to be with me? do you really love me? and don't give me bullshit , don't say of course you love and you always will because I'm Cristian's father, I need you to be honest with me because we can't be like that and it's hurting us, I'm shick of having the same conversation over and over I need you to tell me if you love me , if you really are going to be with me, if you're going to fight for our love and for me as I'm going to fight for you and our love.."
for a brief moment our eyes met his hand touches mine, we stayed like that for a few seconds, I opened my mouth as I tried to talk but before I could someone opened the door of the room
-" mum, dad I won!!"- says Cristian as he comes in along with Paul
-" that's my boy, well done buddy!"- Marshall says and does the high five with Cristian
-"I'm better than you Paul!"- Cristian says and sticks his tongue out
-"yeah whatever, Marshall we need to get going.. ."
Marshall looks at me for a second before he nods at Paul
Paul looks at us with a confused look
-"something wrong?"
-"yes mum , is something wrong with dad? did you fight again?"- Cristian added
-"no guys everything is ok"- I say with a small smile
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we arrived at the stadium, there were a lot of people waiting outside , we went towards the private area
-"oh my god that's the Tyler the Creator!!!"- Cristian says and points his finger at him
-"Cristian, don't do that and calm down please!"- I say reprimanding him
-"you wanna meet him buddy?"- Marshall asks
-"yes please, can I ?"
-"of course you can"
I roll my eyes
we go towards Tyler, who is talking to some people, he saw us
-"Hi Marshall! "
they hug each other
-"Tyler, look , this is Cristian he's a fan and wanted to meet you"
-" really? you like my music?"
-"of course I do, you're fucking amazing, Ive seen tons of videos of you rapping with your group"
-"Cristian!! I told you I don't want you to use that word!"- I spat
-"oops sorry mum"- he says innocently
-" ha ha! thanks man, do you want a pic?"
-"yes please"
they take the pic and sighs an autograph for him
-"thank you!"
-" where is the bathroom?"-Cristian says
-"come with me, I need to go as well"- Marshall says, they walk off and now it's just me and Tyler
-"so, who are you beautiful?" Tyler says seductively
-"I'm Victoria, Cristian's mother"
-" you're too young to being a mum,you're a hot mamma though"
-"excuse me?"
-"you're beautiful babe, after the show we are going to have a little party, why don't come over so we can talk a bit more and get to know each other?" -he says coming closer to me and making me feel unconfortable
-"what's going on?"-Paul says coming towards us
-" I'm just talking to this hot mamma, and telling her to come to the party afterward ,right beautiful?"
-" you know what? you have to stop talking to me like that , don't call me names , don't call me hot mamma, you don't know me and thank you but I don't like you and I'm not going to fuck you "
when I finish speaking I notice that Marshall and Cristian are there watching the scene
-" what's going on Paul?"- Marshall asks while glares Tyler
-" Tyler called.."
I cut him off
-"Paul, don't, everything is ok now, it doesn't matter anymore"- I say, trying to forget it , I know Marshall, and I know how jealous he can be so I didn't want to cause a scene
-" Paul , tell me what happened"
I look at Marshall with a frown,
-"Tyler called Vic hot mamma, he said he likes her and invited her to the party"
-"did you call my mum hot mamma?"- Cris said getting angry
-" you respect my mum, she's not a slut , she's not a gruppie that you can fuck with !!"
-"Cris!!"
-" but it's true, he is disrespecting you!"
-"Paul, take Cristian to my room"
-"dad, but .."
-"go with Paul I will be there in a min"
-"dad? did he just call you dad?"-Tyler asks surprised
I roll my eyes, great now he knows it too!
-" is he your son?"
Marshall nods
-"so you and this girl are..?"
-"yes, she's my girl and I would appreciate if you stop flirting with her"
-"I'm sorry man, I didn't know she was your girl"
-"I'm sorry, I really am, I didn't want to offend you"- he says now looking at me. he seemed genuine
-"it's ok like I said everything is ok now"-I say with a small smile
-"I gotta go now, enjoy the concert "- he says and walks off
I note how Marshall is staring at me
-"what?"
-"why you didn't want Paul to tell me ?"
I roll my eyes
-"because I know the way you are, and I know you get jealous, it doesn't matter,
he wasn't rude anyway "
-" I can't blame him tho, you do look beautiful"- he says looking at me smirking
-"thanks"- I say smiling at him
-"I don't know.. "- I say whispering
-"you don't know?! what the fuck does that mean?"- he says getting frustated and angry
-" it means I don't know anymore.. I don't know what to believe .."
-"what?, are you seriously going to believe her over me?!"- he says almost yelling
-" it's not that I belive her over you it's."
-"then what is it? what is it?! "- he says cutting me off
-"it's the fact that I knew this wasn't going to last, that we were going to fight, Marshall everytime we're together something or rather someone comes and get in the middle of us"
-" you know what? I'm done with this, I'm tired of this shit"
I look at him and frown
-"you're done?"- I say trying to hold back the tears
-"Vic, I'm tired of this, I don't know what you want from me seriously, I don't know what else to do to prove you that I do love you and this time is gonna be different, all you do is complain about how much I hurt you and how you had to raise Cristian by yourself or when you say the first time it didn't work for us let me tell you something it was your fault, we were great together, we DID work, we just had some problems but you left I wanted to be with you and I wanted to raise Cristian together but you didn't even tell me about him .. by the way you weren't going to tell me about it ever , did you? how could you wait 10 fucking years to tell me about it? what did you say to Cristian everytime he asked about me? but of course you keep blaming it on me, you're such an hypocrite "
I didn't know what to say.. I look down at my hands, I was about to break down again
-" I gave you everything you wanted , you know I would have done anything for you, you fucking know it, the only thing I do is trying hard to win you back, I'm doing everything to show you how much I love you and trying to make you understand that we can be happily together, that it can work but the only thing you do is rejecting me and telling me that you aren't sure.. "
-"Marshall.. I.."
-" let me talk ,I didn't finish! I have the feeling that you don't love me as much as I do, I have a feeling that you don't even want to be with me, that you're just doing this for Cristian, because Cristian wants us to be together, Vic do you really want to be with me? do you really love me? and don't give me bullshit , don't say of course you love and you always will because I'm Cristian's father, I need you to be honest with me because we can't be like that and it's hurting us, I'm shick of having the same conversation over and over I need you to tell me if you love me , if you really are going to be with me, if you're going to fight for our love and for me as I'm going to fight for you and our love.."
for a brief moment our eyes met his hand touches mine, we stayed like that for a few seconds, I opened my mouth as I tried to talk but before I could someone opened the door of the room
-" mum, dad I won!!"- says Cristian as he comes in along with Paul
-" that's my boy, well done buddy!"- Marshall says and does the high five with Cristian
-"I'm better than you Paul!"- Cristian says and sticks his tongue out
-"yeah whatever, Marshall we need to get going.. ."
Marshall looks at me for a second before he nods at Paul
Paul looks at us with a confused look
-"something wrong?"
-"yes mum , is something wrong with dad? did you fight again?"- Cristian added
-"no guys everything is ok"- I say with a small smile
***********************************************
we arrived at the stadium, there were a lot of people waiting outside , we went towards the private area
-"oh my god that's the Tyler the Creator!!!"- Cristian says and points his finger at him
-"Cristian, don't do that and calm down please!"- I say reprimanding him
-"you wanna meet him buddy?"- Marshall asks
-"yes please, can I ?"
-"of course you can"
I roll my eyes
we go towards Tyler, who is talking to some people, he saw us
-"Hi Marshall! "
they hug each other
-"Tyler, look , this is Cristian he's a fan and wanted to meet you"
-" really? you like my music?"
-"of course I do, you're fucking amazing, Ive seen tons of videos of you rapping with your group"
-"Cristian!! I told you I don't want you to use that word!"- I spat
-"oops sorry mum"- he says innocently
-" ha ha! thanks man, do you want a pic?"
-"yes please"
they take the pic and sighs an autograph for him
-"thank you!"
-" where is the bathroom?"-Cristian says
-"come with me, I need to go as well"- Marshall says, they walk off and now it's just me and Tyler
-"so, who are you beautiful?" Tyler says seductively
-"I'm Victoria, Cristian's mother"
-" you're too young to being a mum,you're a hot mamma though"
-"excuse me?"
-"you're beautiful babe, after the show we are going to have a little party, why don't come over so we can talk a bit more and get to know each other?" -he says coming closer to me and making me feel unconfortable
-"what's going on?"-Paul says coming towards us
-" I'm just talking to this hot mamma, and telling her to come to the party afterward ,right beautiful?"
-" you know what? you have to stop talking to me like that , don't call me names , don't call me hot mamma, you don't know me and thank you but I don't like you and I'm not going to fuck you "
when I finish speaking I notice that Marshall and Cristian are there watching the scene
-" what's going on Paul?"- Marshall asks while glares Tyler
-" Tyler called.."
I cut him off
-"Paul, don't, everything is ok now, it doesn't matter anymore"- I say, trying to forget it , I know Marshall, and I know how jealous he can be so I didn't want to cause a scene
-" Paul , tell me what happened"
I look at Marshall with a frown,
-"Tyler called Vic hot mamma, he said he likes her and invited her to the party"
-"did you call my mum hot mamma?"- Cris said getting angry
-" you respect my mum, she's not a slut , she's not a gruppie that you can fuck with !!"
-"Cris!!"
-" but it's true, he is disrespecting you!"
-"Paul, take Cristian to my room"
-"dad, but .."
-"go with Paul I will be there in a min"
-"dad? did he just call you dad?"-Tyler asks surprised
I roll my eyes, great now he knows it too!
-" is he your son?"
Marshall nods
-"so you and this girl are..?"
-"yes, she's my girl and I would appreciate if you stop flirting with her"
-"I'm sorry man, I didn't know she was your girl"
-"I'm sorry, I really am, I didn't want to offend you"- he says now looking at me. he seemed genuine
-"it's ok like I said everything is ok now"-I say with a small smile
-"I gotta go now, enjoy the concert "- he says and walks off
I note how Marshall is staring at me
-"what?"
-"why you didn't want Paul to tell me ?"
I roll my eyes
-"because I know the way you are, and I know you get jealous, it doesn't matter,
he wasn't rude anyway "
-" I can't blame him tho, you do look beautiful"- he says looking at me smirking
-"thanks"- I say smiling at him