My Secret

I keep looking at the box on my hands more concretely at the ring I couldn't stop looking at it over and over again

I run my hand through my hair trying to calm myself down and put the box with the ring in my bag

what did I do?

I can't go on like this, WE can't go on like this

I should go and talk to to Marshall I thought

so I went to his studio

I stay in front of door , take some deep breaths and knock the door waiting for his response

I wait a few seconds no response

I knock the door again .....

nothing..

I slowly open the door

I take a look around the room searching for him but the room was empty

I walk off and search for him but he was nowhere to be seen

I frown

so he left , that's so typical of him .... everytime he doesn't want to hear something or don't want to confront you he will do that he will just leave untill he wants to , then he will do like nothing happened ...

I decide to call my sister and tell her everything I needed to vent myself and talk about this with someone and my sister was perfect fot that she always understands me and she knows me very well too

I grab my mobile and dial her number

-"Pulgas no"- I say to Pulgas as he places his toy on my thigh

he takes the toy and lays next to me

-"Hi sis"-I say

-"Hi"- she says in a serious tone

I frown

-"what's wrong?are you ok?"

-" I can't.. listen I will call you later ok?"

before she could hang me up I speak

-"wait, what's wrong?"

I hear her sighs

-" come on tell me"- I say nervously

-"it's mum, she's very ill again, dad had to call to the ambulance and they took her to the hospital "

I open my mouth in shock

-"Vic... they aren't sure if she will make it"- she says crying

I take deep breaths trying to hold my tears back

-"why the hell you didn't call me as soon as you knew?!"- I shout

I was so mad at her right now

-"Vic, I didn't want to worry you,I wanted to wait to see what doctors say and.."

I cut her off

-"you wanted to wait to what? ? to when she's dead?! she's fucking dying and I want to be able to see her for the last time"- I spat

-"what the fuck is your problem?! I told you I was going to call you you know what? I don't need this,

I go with dad to wait for the doctors bye."- she says and hangs up

I was furious right now, I was a bitch to her she didn't deserve it but I guess that was the straw that broke the camel's back and I was so tired of fighting for everything

I need to go to Spain right now to see my mum

I go upstairs to pack my suitcase, Pulgas follows me

I grab my suitcase and put it on my bed to put my clothes

I was grabbing my clothes when I hear the door

Pulgas walks off and goes downstairs

seconds later I hear Cristian's voice

-"Pulgas, oh my god!! you're here"

what am I going to do with Cristian? maybe he should stay but what if it's the last time he sees her?

I break down thinking about it , no Vic, don't say that, she can't die, she just can't..

I hear some steps , they are getting closer and closer and 2 seconds after Marshal opens the door

I look at him

he looks at me and quicky he turns away and sees the bed with the suitcase and the clothes

he frowns and his face turns pale, an expresion of horror and fear is writing all over his face

oh no, shit , he is not thinking I'm leaving him again,is he?

-"Marshall, it's not .."

before I could explain it to him he cuts me off

-"it's not what it seems? that's what you were going to say? because it seems like you're packing your stuff to walk away AGAIN! "- he shouts, his face turns red, while he glowers in anger

I open my mouth to speak but he continues while he comes closer to me looking at me straight in the eyes

-"you are nothing but an ungrateful bitch, after everything I did for you , you were going to walk away like that AGAIN, Vic I fucking love you, so so much, and believe me I don't want to fucking lose you again, but you act like a bitch towards me ,it's like you want me to cheat so you have an excuse and you can fucking break up with me, Vic I'm sick and fucking tired of this shit"

-"Marshall what do you mean?"

-"I mean that we're over, I'm tired of fighting for us when you don't want me and the only reason you came to Detroit and you accepted to be with me was Cristian, you did all for Cristian not for me, so what's the point? you can leave I'm not going to stop you ,now I wanna keep seeing my son and be able to spend time with him and see him as much as I want to"

-"are you fucking serious right now? I wasn't walking away or leaving you I was packing because I need to go to Spain, my sister called and told me my mum is very ill she's at the hospital and the doctors don't know if she will fucking make it ok?!! "- I cry

Marshall looks at me with a confused look before we hear some steps coming

-"mum, I'm back"- he says and walks in the room

-"Hi babe"- I say hugging him

-"Cris sit down please I need to talk to you"

-"mum what's wrong?"

-"it's grandma, she's very ill, she's at the hospital and I need to go to Spain"

-"what? is she going to die?"-he asks me crying

oh my god it breaks my heart to see him like that

-"I don't know babe, but she's very ill, and I need to go to Spain as soon as possible"- I say caressing his face

-"mum, please I wanna go with you please"

-"we all are going "- Marshall says

I look at him and he looks at me with a sorry look