Gensokyo 20XXIV: At Winter's Mercy and the World Without Sunshine

Yukari most certainly isn't right in the head, doubly so with the notions of seeing ghosts and that. Of course, it seems, she has gone deeper and deeper into her deliriums. Recently, she's claimed to see the babies of Ran's previous and current litters and explains that she sings them lullabies to calm them and lull them to sleep. If Yukari is truly seeing them, then I could wonder if she laments she could have done so if they hadn't died. Naturally, I knew it would be foolish to deny her something, so I left Yukari to her ghosts. As I did so, I couldn't help but to hear some sort of aggro emitting from the children's room.

It was Chen querelling with Miko for reasons I wanted to find out. "Don't lie! You're almost blind and you know it, you just don't want to tell anyone!" Chen yelled. Miko hissed and said, "Be quiet child!" Chen wiggled her nose and said, "YOU CAN SUCK MY ASS!! You have to tell someone that you are going blind and yet you won't, pretending everything's fine, when it isn't. I can't even use my left arm and leg and I go to the potty in a diaper but you don't see me pretending everything is the same and I know it isn't! Tell someone that you are going blind! You told me but why not them? They care about you, too, and yet you're pretending nothing is wrong, making everyone scared. You tell me to be quiet about it but, you know what? Being quiet won't do any good, this is something you have to tell about and you want to be quiet! Hell no! It won't do any good to be quiet because what is in the dark will come to light! Is that what you want, to be quiet and act like everything is fine, while you stagger around in darkness, living in misery and sadness? If you want to be quiet, fine, suck my ass and live in the misery and darkness that will soon be your life, the life you won't let anyone be the light to." Chen dear was yelling so loudly it summoned everyone to that room. Her face was all red and she sweating.

Stunned, I asked, "Is is true, Miko-dear?" She hesitated until Chen said, "They already know now." She sighed and said, with a trembling lip, she said, "Yes, it's true, I am almost blind." Kosuzu blinked and asked, "Then why didn't you tell us?" Miko hesitated again beforse she spoke, "I was afriad of being pushed aside and I wanted to show I was of some use but my blindness hinders me, so I decided to keep it hidden." Ren and Ran walked over to her and took her hand, saying, "You could have told us, surely we could have done something for you." Suika walked over there, too, saying, "Yeah, ya weren't gonna be pushed aside." Eventually all of us went to confort her.
***

"What the hell happened to you?"

"Yukari knows karate."
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Yukari and Tenten don't like each other very much, which is cool, and, apparently, Yukari knows karate and Tenten took an ass beating. Either way, it must have been funny. It seems the two just don't get along, as yesterday, Tenten took a beating from Yukari over eating her food and the day before Yukari gave her a beating with a broom, a mop, a cookie sheet, a wok, a dustpan, a skillet, a spatula, a ledal, and wheelchair. Today, she pummelled her with fists and threw books at her. Of course, today, Tenshi hit her back and Yukari hit her back harder. Tenshi still hit her saying, "You hit me, I'll hit your ass back!" to which Yukari responded, "To the moon!" They were fighting for over a few hours. They stopped fighting when Yukari one-shotted Tenten, saying, "At three."

Never did seem to figure why they fight.
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"Chen, sweetheart, you still love Mommy, don't you?"
***
One night, when I was sleeping, Ran came into the room. I was barely awake but I could tell she had a worried and sad look on her face. She had her hand to her chest and asked, "Chen, sweetheart, you still love Mommy, don't you?" I blinked and responded, "Of course, I do and I always will." She blinked her wide eyes, shocked, then she picked me and spun around. She put me down and kissed me on the forehead. She smiled and said, "I love you, too." I couldn't understand why she woke in the middle of the night to ask me that. I didn't know why she would because she should know I do love her. I asked Ren about it and he said, "She just asked you that because, sometimes, a mother must be reminded that her children still love her. It shouldn't worry you."
***
"Where baby come from?"
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Reimu, Mary, and Wren, it seems, didn't know about Anohana. Of course, that was because they haven't seen her before, up until now. Naturally, being curious, they couldn't help but to ask the question as to where she came from. However, Chen did give an answer to the littler children and that was, "Oh that's easy, Ran and Ren had sex." Fortunately, the little ones didn't seem to get what sex was but Chen obviously seemed to know. Ducksie and Winston did exchange rather wide-eyed glances and Yukari was just as goggle-eyed. Suika just blinked and said, "She is 1,934, 200, 288,120,260,000th kid I've met that knows what doing the two backed beast is, so that's nothin' new." Suika's words did very little to ease the shock as to how an innocent child like Chen actually knew what sex was.

"Sweetheart, where on earth did you learn that?" Ran asked her, the answer of which she spoke, "A book and I can read." Ren smiled an amused smile and asked, "Yes, yes, but what kind of book?" Chen blinked her brown eyes and answered, "Don't know but it was a book with pictures." Apparently, when Chen reads, she doesn't bother looking at the title. Ran blinked her saucered eyes and asked, "Is there anything else you know?" Chen took a deep breath and went into three hours of explaining in such detail where babies come from. Fortunately, the littler ones weren't in the room to hear it. "See, what did I tell ya'? 1,934, 200, 288,120,260,000th kid that actually knows what the two backed beast is, though she 1,934, 200, 288,120,260,456, 023, 78,89th kid that could actually go explain it."
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"OW!"
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"Shut up, Meg." Yukari said to Tenshi, when she walk passed her. Tenshi hadn't said one word to her. The two never seems to stop fighting, not even for a moment. If they aren't beating each other up, then they are being hostile to each other. I never could seem to remember what their beef was with one another. According to Ran, Yukari doesn't really remember because she has gone insane but states that Yukari hasn't liked Tenshi very much over the fact that Tenshi caused problems out of boredom, the some of which involved destroying Reimu's shrine. Of course, I do wish the two would get along, it does no use to fight.

On the note of Yukari, she is acting strangely. According to Yuuka, she claims she can see ghosts that aren't Yuyuko but we can never really be for sure, as she her sanity has left her. According to Yuuka, she also talks to them but I couldn't seem to figure out which ones she was speaking to and neither did I know. Though, today, she was speaking to someone and she was speaking rather quietly, saying, "They murdered you, Yume, and they may as well have murdered me, too." I was curious as to who Yume was and why they haven't mentioned her (assuming this "Yume" is female). I figured that Yume had passed away because someone contributed to her death and Yukari knows what happened.

I made the obvious mistake of being curious and asking about Yume at dinner. When I did, everyone went silent and Mokou said, "Uh, Kosu, we don't like to talk about that." I blinked and asked why, no wanting to answer. Ran excused herself and I wanted answers. They all looked at me wide-eyed. Slowly, Yuuka said, "Yume, oh, well, she...she...she's...passed on." Kaguya nodded and said, "Yes, she has and we don't like to talk about it, just like we don't like to talk about why Reimu can't walk." I blinked and asked why is it she can't walk. Chen's face had gone white and she said, "We don't talk or think about that and neither should you."

"Okay, there is something that is happening and I want to know what they are, especially, when it concerns Reimu."

"Uh, Kosuzu, maybe we shouldn't--"

"Shut up, Meg! Something happened to her and I want to know. Reimu is my friend and I haven't seen her in awhile up until recently, so I would like to know, so TELL ME!"

"We don't like to talk about, just like every other bad thing that happened."

"You can't hide the past forever."

Yuuka breathed a heavy sigh and said, "Reimu took a bad fall." I asked her how, to which she said, "Well...."

Reimu dear was playing fairly close to an edge and Ran seemed to ignore her. Of course, this was a time in which Ran had gone through a period in which she described as the times have made her a "heartless selfish bitch of a kitsune" and allowed her negligence to take over. Unfortunately, I was too far away and busy to stop Reimu and Ran seemed to pay her no mind. I wanted to call out to her to watch little Reimu but my attention was focused somewhere else. As soon as I turned my back, I heard a loud *THUMP!* and then Reimu's screams. At such a height in which a child like herself had fallen, her legs were paralyzed.

"And, now, dear, you know the story. We don't like to talk about it, as Ran is still reminded of the guilt she feels for allowing it, doubly so since that fall could have very well have killed Reimu, thus effectively driving Ran to end her own life, once her offspring weren't as dependant on her, to make up for the guilt. Now, you see why we don't like to speak of the past because the past still leave everlasting scars and never healing wounds. No, we can't hide it, of course not, but we don't like to speak of it and we won't because speaking of it only makes it worse."

We went to find Ran, lying in her bed, a pile of tissues right next to her. I felt awful for upsetting her. As she was lying there, apparently asleep, I apologized for bringing it up and upsetting her.
***
"Yukari seems to be more spacy than usual."
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Yukari is always a tad spacey but she seemed to be more so than usual, to the point it was hard to discern whether or not she was in her usual delerious state or if she was pushed further into it by smoking some of Huzi dear's funny fags. Naturally, I simply thought not to pay any mind to it, as it would do no good to do so. On the other hand and a much more worrying note, Reimu has taken to biting herself. Reimu is so detached from pain stimuli that she doesn't know what sort of damage she is causing, even as it causes her skin to become raw and it often bled as a result. I couldn't help but to wonder what in bleeding hell would cause her to chew away at her arm. Naturally, this prompted us to bandage it, which made her stop biting at it, but, soon, we had to bandage the other one as well.

If Yukari's lunacy or Reimu's peculiar habit was on our mind, then Ran's thinning hair was. It looked as if she had very fine hair, even on her once fluffy tails, and it looked as if the slightest provacation could cause it all out. According to Winston, she seems to be very hesitant towards allowing anyone to touch her hair, prompting me to see for myself. Her ears flattened and she emitted a low growl, pulling away from being touched. It seems my touch has ended with a few hairs falling out. I couldn't help but to wonder what was causing her sudden attack of alopecia. Perhaps it is a nutrition deficiency, yes, after all, she's really eaten nothing but those confounded dry chalky rice cakes and those are anything short of nutritiously adequate. Winston seems to think so as well, pointing out that she should eat something besides that. Of course, losing her hair came with her being self-conscious about it, thus a reason for her shy away from it being touched. However, Suika, that peculiar dear, went into the lavatory with a pair of scissors, cutting off most of her hair. She ran to her and said, "Ta-da!" Her action made Ducks feel better about herself and she kissed Suika on the forehead saying, "Thank you, sweetheart."

Later that evening, we heard Chen scream. She had had another nightmare and was terrifically upset from it. Ran gathered her into her arms and started to sing her, "Baby Mine" from Dumbo, the rest of us joining in.
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"Piano!"

"Koishi get back here!"
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Koishi seems to have taken notice to a piano and I had learned she could play beautifully. Hauntingly, she was playing the tune to funeral dirge, leading me to wonder as to why my little sister would play something like that. No one died, thus there is really no reason to play funeral dirge. Perhaps, she expressing some sort of sadness to a loss that she hadn't the time to mourn. Of course, Koishi doesn't really think and I not sure of if she feels. I leave Koishi to playing her funeral dirge and I go off to see how the others are doing. I watch as Ran and Ren have an idle but gentle argument about Ran eating those rice cakes and only those rice cakes.

"Surely, dear, you could eat something else."

"No, I'll eat what I am eating, at least I am eating at all."

"Yes, yes, eating is all well and good but eating only rice cakes aren't good for you and, if you are eating only those things, then you may as well be starving."

"Well, I'm not."

"No, no, you're not but, dearest, if I were eating nothing but those things you'd be the first to complain."

"Is that so?"

"Yes, it is so, and eating only those things could lead to a nutritional deficiency, which hurts the health, much like it is doing yours, dearest."

Of course, it wasn't so much as an arguement, as Ren was right and was merely trying to convince her to come to his point of view, using exactly the correct words and not belittling her opinion on the matter, and it seems she has come to his side, pushing away the rice cakes she was always eating and reached for pork sashimi. I've eaten one of those rice cakes once and I found them to taste more like cheap crapass dog treats.

A few hours later, Koishi was still playing the piano. No one bothered to question why there was a piano playing, even if it were playing a funeral dirge. However, someone did seem to notice and I could hear her wheeping. Yukari. She wasn't sane enough to where I could understand her thoughts but I could understand she was upset about something. I found her sitting up in bed, almost like a image on the ninth of swords tarot card. She was wheeping and holding a thin razor blade, the kind that I've used to cut coke with. I placed two and two together and realized that she going to perform the unthinkable. In seeing her, I walked over to her and gave her a hug, taking the blade from her. I held it up, pointed to it, and said, "There is so much to live for, you don't have to do this, the spirits have long forgiven you."

After that, Koishi played a much happier tune.
***
"Ducksie, oh, your hair is coming back."
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It seems Ran has started to grow her hair back and her tails were once again fluffy. Of course, Winston has managed to convince her eat something else and she hasn't relapsed. My suspsicions of a nutritional deficiancy as to why her hair was falling out were confirmed. She has also gotten to be more vibrant, if that gesticulation of hers is to go by. Actually, despite not possessing hearing problems, she does seem to use gestures at the most of time, along with dancing. Nevertheless, we understand her as if she were speaking.

On Reimu's note, she seemed to have found more to say and started to articulate her words better, saying, at some point, " 'en needs diaper change." She pointed to Chen and repeated what she said before, except she ended it with, "NOW!" She was calling attention to something important and what was important was that Chen needed her pants changed. Naturally, I complied, saying, "I see, dear." After changing her diaper, Chen promptly asked me why is it I call Ran "Ducksie" or "Ducks", pointing out that Ran really isn't a duck. I thought about it and stated I really didn't know aside from the time I saw her trying to mimic a baby duck, to absolutely no success, or the fact that she walks with her large hips swaying from here to there, like a duck's waddle, from time to time. Either way, I really didn't know why I called her that. Another nickname for her, though, I told Chen was "Kanran" or Cabbage because she was eating cabbage flowers or "Mausuhantā" because I found her chasing mice with full intention to make a snack of them. Of course, calling her Ducksie was my favorite in that it seemed to suit her the most, be it if she isn't a duck. I also noted that Ran hasn't said anything about it

On the note of, Yume Ni, it turns out she wasn't blind at all, actually, she possessed myopic vision and required spectacles. Of course, we didn't know where we would get her any.
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"Ran...Yakumo."
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As I was cleaning up the kitchen, I heard Reimu call my name, my full name. She usually doesn't call anyone by their full names or even their real names so that prompts me to figure out what it was that she's needed. I walked over to her and found her lifting her arms up. It seemed she wanted to be picked up and held, like always. Nevertheless, I did wonder what had prompted her to call me my full name and I did take mental note she doesn't do this with anyone else, not even Ren, but then again, he doesn't have a last name, hence that's why he's taken mine. According to Rinnosuke, she would likely say the last names if she could remember them and she's remembered mine. He also pointed out that she never seemed to remember Mokou's last name or, rather, she thought her last name was her first name, thus calling her Huziwara, then again, we've called Mokou nothing but her last name, so of course Reimu would refer to her as that.

On a more worrying note, the former being more pleasant, Yukari has taken the time out to isolate herself for reasons we don't know. I remember sitting outside of her door and listening. So far, there has been nothing but silence, however, this time, there seemed to more voices besides her own.
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"Yukari did WHAT?!"
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We found Ran, today, with her face as white as the snow outside, and she looked almost as if she were going to faint. When we asked her what was the matter and she gave her answer. Naturally, we were in disbelief and asked, "Yukari did WHAT?!" She explained to us slowly that Yukari managed to open a gap to the past and save some of those lost, the which included a toddler Marisa, Flandre, a kid Sakuya, Remilia, a baby Sanae, and a toddler Alice, also Cirno. We were promted to ask if Yukari died as a result, to which she responded, "No, but she's exhausted." In bringing them from the past, their demises will never have happened. Of course, that begged the question as to how many we were to feed. Of course, even though their deaths had never happened, however, what happened to the world cannot be undone and rebuilding Gensokyo could very well prove fatal for Yukari. She's done what she's wanted to and she wasn't going to do any more.

Since she's bent the borders of time, I do wish she could have at least brought Eirin or Keine or Reisin back. Of course, Keine died of natural causes and bringing Eirin back would very well wipe her fron existance, being that her wish to die overrode her immortality, so bringing her back from the dead via bending the time border could very well erase her from existance. As for Reisin, maybe, it could be that doing so could prove fatal for her. I suppose Yukari did basically what her abilities allowed her to do and she wanted to give someone a new chance at life, without blowing up the fabric of the universe and the space time continuum.

On a humorous note, it seems Marisa has gravitated towards Ran, seeing her as "Mommy" and won't let go.
***
"Ran-mommie and Ren-daddie!"

"Yes, Chen?"

"Two things~!"

"Okay."

"I love you and Reimu bit me again."
***
Reimu had taken to biting people again and we couldn't quite peice together why. She usually bites herself, being unaware of the self-injuries. If she isn't biting herself, then she is biting someone else. If she isn't biting, she's hitting or scratching. Of course, her self-inflicted injuries didn't come from just biting, as recently, she's scratched her face and even gave herself a bruise under one of her eyes. However, her harming others did create some sort of aggrevation amongst everyone, besides Kaguya and Mokou's marifana hijinks and Ren's hair getting cut off (he's rather forgiving towards that), especially between her and the other children, more noticeably Chen.

When Reimu hits, bites, or scratches her, Chen returns the actions but it bounces off of Reimu, as she gives no reactions. Naturally, we have to remind them both not to hit. Chen resents this but Reimu, it seems, understands but doesn't remember the message when we disallow her to harm herself. We don't want her to harm others but, at the same time, we don't want her to hurt herself. However, Kaguya brought up the thought that Reimu herself, mental wise, cannot acknowledge that she has an injury, thus she's prone to ignoring it but her brain, sensory wise, doesn't. Ren pointed out how that doesn't make sense as to why Reimu harms everyone else, to which she said, "Well, she cannot acknowledge her own injuries but it could be possible that hurts others because she cannot acknowledge the fact that she is injuring herself."

Mokou, however, proposed a different theory, in that she only causes others pain because she knows they can respond to injuries and is probably trying to grasp what was conditioned from her and is probably trying to relearn what has been lost or, rather, cannot seem to grasp that everyone can and will respond to injuries and pain if they feel them, whereas, she won't, unless someone else responds to her being injured, in which case, it will click in her mind that somethings needs some attention and that is the only circumstance. Aside from that, her brain responds but she remains ignorant it. On top of that, Kaguya did bring up the fact that Reimu probably resorted to self harm as a way of coping while we were imprisoned.

Nevertheless, we wanted nothing more than to quell this habit.
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"MOMMY!"
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Damn, Maris was awfully attached to Rannie. Maybe she's hungry and that is probably why she follows her around so much, which is weird, 'cause she can clearly walk and has teeth but that most certainly doesn't stop her. I cannot help but to laugh at a little human child mistaking a kitsune as her mother, then again, Reimu did the same thing with Yukari, of course, Yukari doesn't have a tail, let alone nine of them. Nevertheless, maybe she is just hungry and maybe her other mommy didn't stop feeding her before this point. Rannie, on the other hand, isn't amused, and stated, "Marisa is weaned and Maribel, Renko, and Reimu do the same thing." I still poked fun at it, to which she asked, "Okay, does immortality mean you can regrow your teeth?" Before I could answer, I was slugged in the mouth.

Worth it!
***
"Remi, are you okay?"

"Just ill, Flandre."
***
Remilia dear, it seems, has taken ill and has been rendered bedridden. Of course, we expected it so as, she hasn't fed on human blood in a long time and probably won't ever. Flandre on the other hand, remained well, and that was only because Flandre is far stronger than her sister. It would only be a matter of time before Remilia will waste away completely. Flandre begged for her to be saved but the only way we could save Remilia was to turn her human with treatments and spells, some of which Kaguya had learned under Eirin's tutilage. Initially, she refused but, when we informed her there wasn't any other way, she relented. Her new human form, minus her wings was going to be some pain to her and she seemed to be upset.

If Remilia's health wasn't on our mind, then Ducksie's most certainly was. She was up the duff again and that brought new worries. She needed some sort of guidance but we didn't know what sort in which to give her. Anohana, she remembered, was still dependant on her and relied on her attention and care. To further twist the knife, Sakuya, being a rather naive if not a tad wordly child, suggested she's drink some herbal tea. Naturally, Ran was horrified, as were the rest of us. Of course, Sakuya didn't know what had frightened her and was genuinely remorseful for upsetting her. We let her be for awhile, concluding that she's needed some time to herself. In the end, it turns out her pregnancy was hysterical, brought on the worries she will have otherwise had or did have. She was relieved to know she wasn't really up in the duff and that she didn't miscarry.

On a happier note, Chen was starting to reconnect with Yukari, reforming a bond that it seemed had been lost. It took some time for Yukari to get used to Chen's prescence but, after awhile, she warmed up and grew to interacting with her, seeing her as mostly as a child needing her protection, love, and guidance, despite it being mostly the other way around. It was a tad humorous to see her following Chen around, watching her every move, like one would do a tot. At the same, Chen was shielding her from sort of unseen if not outright imaginary dangers.
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"I wish I had a mommy!"
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Sakuya told me she wished she had a mommy and asked me if we could share one. I didn't really know what she meant but Ran-mommie said it had something to with the fact that she doesn't one and has been without parents for as long as she could remember. Of course, I didn't really want to share Ran-mommie because I already had to. When she asked, I said, "Maybe Yukari can be your mommy." She blinked and decided to see about it but ended up startling Yukari. She was't used to Sakuya or, for that matter, wasn't used too much to being petted by someone that isn't me. Of course, she also has terrible vision and startles easily on the account of that. After awhile, Yukari got used to her, sorta becoming Sakuya's mommy. They didn't really do too much together, as Yukari mostly sleeps and Sakuya tends to forget not to startle her.

It seems Reimu is sick, as she has been coughing. She never stopped. Kaguya says its asthma and that she has been around dust, while Yuuka insists something is really wrong. I really wish Eirin were here because she always knew what was what. Of course, Reimu's coughing came with the others saying it was this or that or that or this and she continued coughing until she fainted. When she did faint, everyone stopped saying what they thought it was. Yukari walked over to her, picked her up, and hit her pretty hard on the back, like she did Ran one time when she was choking. She did that twice before Reimu coughed again and spit out something, along with a little blood. I didn't know what it was but it had to be sharp and Reimu was choking on it. She was okay after that but we couldn't let her out of our sight and Yukari spent most of time picking up any sharp object.
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"Ran, my sweet, you are...loved..."
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Yukari went to sleep and didn't wake up until a month and half later. The last thing she said to me when she went to sleep was, "Ran, my sweet, you are...loved..." It had been awhile since she had even spoken to me and that was the last thing she's said. For some reason, I couldn't wrap my head around why she would say that, doubly so, when I was used to her rambling madly, but, this time, for once, after so long, she said something coherant and it was something directed at me. As I spent that month and a half pondering why she said what she said to me, I found myself being petted on the head by her hand, after she had awakened. She hadn't petted me in a long time and the last time she had is but a distant and fading memory.

As she was petting my head, I could have sworn I heard her voice say, "These memories, my sweet, I give to you." and, then, "....loved.", when she stopped petting my head to go somewhere else. I found myself to be surprised, when I heard Reimu say, "She, Mommy, r'members you." My eyes widened and I had become aware of the fact that Yukari has some semblance of sanity within her memories but, at the same time, I couldn't help but to wonder what it was that she had lost in that warped up mist that is her the remains of her mind. Perhaps, she was starting to "wake up" but I can never be for sure, however, I do hold out hope.

Some day, she may come back to us.
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"What the hell did you do?!"
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Never again will I allow Kaguya anywhere near the kitchen. Of course, Huzi told me not to and I figured nothing could go wrong but, damn, I was wrong and the crippled fucker caused a kitchen explosion. I really do hope the motherfucking kids are not deaf from that and that Reimu isn't hurt, since the blast threw her up against a wall. She was unconscious and comotose for a few days, Yukari, Kaguya (who is repentant), and Ren watching over her vigilantly. She awoke, dazed, and sat up. She blinked, looked around, and, surprisingly, started to move her legs. When she took notice to her barely wiggling toes, she reached out to grab them, almost as if they were something alien. She's never noticed her toes because she couldn't feel her legs and they now work but she can never walk fully. After some observation, we found that she could walk again but it was limited and she could only walk some distance and we found she couldn't run, thus her legs could only function to limited ability and she would always require something to get around. Nevertheless, she didn't seem to know that but was happy anyway.

On the note of Yukari, she did me a kindness by returning Youmu to me, as a baby she had spirited away from the past through her gaps. I had missed Youmu since her demise and wanted nothing more than to have her with me again. It felt good holding her again. Along with Youmu, she brought Suwako to love and look after Sanae. Her using her abilities like that exhausted her and I doubt she would ever muster the strenght to do that again.

When Reimu caught sight of Ran and Ran did the same, she tried to walk over to her, to the best that her legs would allow. Ran was in tears and it seemed the guilt she had for allowing Reimu to become parylized seemed to fade. Only time will tell if her guilty feeling remained.
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"An anthem for the queenliest dead that ever died so young-
A dirge for her the doubly dead in that she died so young."
***
I think Winston has quite a fondness of poetry, often reciting it from memory during times he's idle or when busy (like folding those mountains of clothes). It is indeed fascinating to hear him recite lines from haunting and gothic poetry. Of course, that begged the question as to why he prefers something like that. Then again, the lot of people do prefer that and he is probably the same.

Throughout the day, I would hear him recite some of Poe's literature, this time it was The Raven. "This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, 'Lenore!' – Merely this and nothing more....", I heard him recite. He was reciting this to Ran, the very one he loved, his beloved indigo flower. He had reason to recite the poem, as Ran would become his lost Lenore if she died. He often stated that he wouldn't really know what to do or how to live if she perished, much like Poe apparently didn't when his wife died, according to Ren, anyway, as he doesn't have very much knowledge on Poe, besides his literature being inspired by someone close to him dying. If he isn't reciting Poe's poems, he is reciting haiku by Basho, like yesterday, "The Dutchmen, too, / kneel before His Lordship— / spring under His reign." He often chuckled at that one, as it did mock a position of authrority under another position of authority that was alien. It was fascinating to see a kitsune normally so quiet and meek recite poetry with eloquence or to see him recite it from memory.

If he wasn't reciting poetry, he was often telling the children stories. He never liked to tell sad stories, though he did tell humurous ones, particularily times of his childhood. "I never did forgvie my cousin for that." He said as he ended the story.

Sometimes, when he recites Poe's literature, I cannot help but to feel a bit haunted by it.
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"RAN!!"
***
Today, was awful and here we thought we were safe. Ran had walked outside only for but a moment to get some snow for bathing water and the next thing we had known was that Ran was screaming. We hurried outside to find her, about a few yards away, covered in blood and with her clothes torn. She was unconscious but not dead. We brought her inside and I inspected her for any injuries (be noted that this isn't pleasant). I stayed quiet about it and decided to speak to Ren and Yukari in private about on the matter. Ren wanted nothing more than to be by her side and Yukari, like I did, wanted to kill the monster who did that to her. As for Ran, the shock and trauma of it all made her cataleptic. She was bedridden most of the time and seemed to be once again apathetic. My heart was broken and so was Ren's. We didn't know what she was to do or how long she was to remain like this. It was agonzing either way.

Why one earth would anyone want to do something that evil to her? It was horrible thinking about and I could not really seem to fathom any reason as to why anyone would wish to hurt her, especially in that way. I wish something a thousand fold awful on whoever did that to her because no one deserves to have that done to them, especially Ran. I couldn't go out and get revenge and getting revenge would make Ran feel even worse. Of course, what happened to her did bring back memories of what Yukari went through during our time of imprisonment. Her heart is bleeding from it and I feel it, too! Dammit! If only I could turn back the hands of time and undo what had been done, then I will have! If I didn't take revenge for what happened to Chen, then our house wouldn't have been burned down, then we wouldn't have come here, then Ran wouldn't have had that done to her. I want to make things right but I always screw up and, now, I wish I could make this right, yet, I don't know how.

In feeling all of this sadness, I sat down somewhere and cried, only to stop when I felt someone wiping away my tears. It was Yuuka, her usually curly hair desheveled and near total mess, barely bound back with a hair scarf. Things were starting to fall apart again. Doubly so, since there is a possible food shortage and some of us are too terrified to go outside, except for Yukari, Cirno, and me. However, Cirno was basically born yesterday and Yukari was much too occupied with knitting, taking care the children, or rambling, grunting, and, more often than not, screaming angrily. For someone who isn't coherant most of the time, she seemed to be coherant enough to understand what happened and she seemed to be pissed but, at the same time, deeply saddened because there is really nothing she can do about it, let alone the fact it brought back memories of what she really couldn't do, which was to protect her. Of course, that was one of her many regrets, which also plunged her into insanity.

After about a few days, I gathered a few of my things in a bundle and left to find some food.
***
"Kagu, Kagu, where's Kagu?!"
***
I opened my dim eyes to the sound of Mokou looking for Kaguya. I blinked and figured Kaguya couldn't have gone far, thus I figured there should be no cause for alarm. However, it became more apparent that she had left and she gave no reasons, none. Along with her, Cirno, who is as stupid as a sack of rocks, went her. Both of them were gone and she was rather distraught that she had lost her "little buddies". Of course, she secretly liked company and had been in Kaguya's for a long time and she has appreciated Cirno's company as well, so not having them both around did a number on her. Actually, she went into a mental breakdown, much like Ran did, only went she went into for a different reason. Once again, I sense the world around falling apart. For once, I hoped for a bit of stability but there isn't. Que sera sera, whatever will be will be, I suppose. I've had enough of all of this and, frankly, I do wish I would just fall asleep and never wake up. However, that is not really possible, so I am forced to live the remainder of my pitious existance. On the other hand, so much of this turmoil has started to make me wall off my own heart, cancelling out any sadness or worries. I guess these sort of things have made me jaded.

With the obvious side-effect of longing, I distanced myself, shoving away my feelings of closeness and sadness. In the end, my heart shattered beyond repair. For a person who can sense the desires of others, I can also sense their pain. Of course, I never thought to manipulate that, as it would do no good. Sincerily, I do hope Ran eventually recovers so Ren can his beloved indigo flower back and that Kaguya and Cirno returns. In the meantime, I shall suffer this storm, too.
***
"Hello, Huzi-dear, has Ducks eaten?"

"She did but she threw it back up."
***
It has been a little while since Ran went into a cataleptic fit and, when she finally came out of it, she ate but was sick with nausea, prompting her to vomit. Along with that, according to Huzi, she has quite the loathing of being touched, retaliating with violence if it is someone so much as lightly brushes her. Of course, both were signs of her trauma and no one comes out of that too receptive to that. Yukari most certainly didn't, rather, she prefered limited if she wasn't to have none. Aside from wanting to cradle Reimu or Chen, she, behaving almost as if she were an autistic child, would stiffen and push someone way if they did vice versa, rarely if ever accepting it without feeling obligated or trying to imagine something else. However, besides the mental trauma she's suffered, it also came from the fact that she had weakened vision and startled fairly easily. Nevertheless, it did take some time in an asylum for her to recieve some sort of help for it, however, as for Ducks, she doesn't have that luxury. Poor Winston! He loves her but knows he cannot touch her, lest he recieves some injuries.

However, we all love her but none of us can touch her without eliciting some sort of violent reaction. The little children, even the Marisa and her offspring keep a distance. If she wasn't lashing out, then she was sitting alone, not doing anything or staring off into emptiness, or or scrubbing herself to the point of irritation and bleeding, muttering, "Dirty, dirty, dirty, slutty, whore, disgusting, worthless, unfaithful, weak...." Every time I would hear her, my heart would shatter and I would die a little, wishing I could comfort her. As time went by, I had noticed she seemed to have put on a little weight. Actually, she had gained much weight that it was hard to tell if she wasn't pregnant. Of course, she might have been but, at the same, she might not be, however, she did put on so much weight from eating and she seemed to be going through a self-destructive phase, as she smoked and drank along with eating. Her moods would swing and she would have bouts of lunacy and spaciness. Still, Winston loved her and told me she thinks she is still as beautiful as when they first met. To me, romance is quite a complicated mystery but this particular romance is exceptional. He still loves her and will never part her company.

Curiously, she hasn't attempted suicide, like she had tried to before, but we knew not to leave her alone with the children, as she was slowly slipping more and more into insanity. It seemed there was almost no way she could recover and we mourned that but, at the same time, we wanted to help her, empathized with her, and wanted her back, not, as Mokou dear put it, a raging fat bitch. Of course, I don't much care for the change in her but it's not the first time I've seen someone turn this way, especially if they already have prexisting mental problems, like Ran does.

It seems, on the other hand, that Mokou has grown rather tired of her behaviour and got her attention by yelling, "BITCH!" in her direction. That naturally had the effect of her turning around slowly and walking over, asking, "What did you call me?" Mokou blinked and said, "I said 'Bitch', bitch."

"Take it back." Ran said, her eye twitching. Winston tried to intervene but was told to be quiet.

"Um okay, no, I won't take it back, 'cause you're a raging kitsune bitch."

"....."

"Yeah, praise me, go ahead, after all, you're a bitch."

"You're trying my patience....."

"Am I gonna get hit? Okay, hit me! It won't change the fact that you're a bitch who's started to take her problems out on everyone else. Yeah, you've gone through hell, we all have, and Yukari, also known as Tosca has gone through what you've gone through, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over, and, yet, she didn't turn into anything like you, BITCH! Now, before you think of sayin' anything, shut the hell up, mmkay. It's not the fact that you don't like to be touched, that of which almost caused you to be a small child through the wall, or the trauma you went through, which had to have been brutal, trust me, I know, it's the fact that you have other underlying problems that you've tried to shove away and would have done so if the box that is the deepest recesses of your being wasn't already full. Yeah, I can understand that you can and have to heal but that doesn't give you a reason be bitchy and damn near negligent. No, your fiance, who I should note is extremely nice, doesn't want that from you and doesn't even bring it up but Chen wants her mom back and says she wants her to love her again. Not cool, as she's given up on life. Hell, you almost put a small child, Reimu, through a wall because she grabbed onto you, somethin' that she does when she wants to be held. Lemme axe ya' a questions, what the hell is ya' problem? The problem is with you is that you have never at all bothered to to talk about your problems to those who care and when they do show ya' some interests, you are quick to say, "Oh, it's fine." or push them away, much like your doing now. So lemme axe ya a questions, why the hell is it you're a bitch?!"

Ran naturally had nothing to say and was genuinely shocked, while Mokou dear seemed satisfied, having said what she thought needed to say. However, even though she was satisfied, I could see the faint hint of tears in her eyes. She turned around walked away, leaving Ran to stand where she was. We were all shocked and didn't have any clue on what to say or whether or not to comfort Ran. There were about two hours of silence, aside from hearing the water run. However, we didn't think to notice the water running, until we heard Yukari scream, "CHEEEEN!" We hurried to her, with due reason to expect the worse. Chen had attempted suicide by drowning herself. We've managed to revive her but we couldn't really tell if she's suffered significant brain damage from that, rather, it seemed, she couldn't talk. She blinked her empty wide eyes and didn't seem to be there. She was catatonic and was to the edge.

The next day, it was hard to believe she hadn't died, thank goodness. She never gave any sort of motives for it but it was clear she had given up on life. Tears had fallen from my eyes and I wish I had seen it coming. It seemed Reimu never gotten over that, the poor thing. She's seen it, watching as Chen had gone limp under the water and as the bathtub flooded, and was powerless to do anything. That is a memory that will stick with her, forever, and I can only imagine what sort of trauma it will deal to her. The most frightening thing about that was was the fact that she remained silent throughout the entire thing.

And, she couldn't make sense of it....
***
"Mother-in law?"

"Yes?"

"Shall we mourn together and comfort each other?"

"Yes, dutiful son-in law, we shall."
****
What happened those couple of days ago is something I will never forget and Ran felt considerably worse. Granted, we didn't like "Bitch Ran" any more than Mokou did but I feel she was a tad harsh. However, Mokou was right in that Chen only wanted her mom back and and had given up on life when she felt she wasn't going to have her back. I horrible for her and Reimu both, more because she attempted suicide right in front of her and I can only imagine what sort of mental scarring that had given her. If her memory could be erased of it then that would be mercy. I wish, to a certain degree, that Chen at least gave her reasons for it. Of course, if asked, then she may not have given any reasons, but it wouldn't matter anyhow as she seems to have lost her ability to speak, having been underwater for a certain period of time. I cannot even imagine what could have been going through Reimu's mind as she watched Chen attempt suicide but what I do know is that that will stick with her forever.

Nevertheless, Ran feels an immense sadness, heartache, confusing, and guilt, as well as self-blame, because of what had happened. Today, I witnessed her crying and it was really her, not Bitch Ran, her, and I had listened to each and everyone of her thoughts. As I witnessed her crying, I knew none of us were so above it all and we were not so different. The times could turn us all into a Bitch Ran or make us do things we didn't wish to. The times even forced my sister and I to a live of crime, that of which was futile. We were addicts, I'll admit that entirely, and I could only wish we had decided to go clean long before then. The times made victims of us all but it really does a number on innocent children, Chen and Reimu, especially, driving the former to suicide and the latter to become brainwashed. Children shouldn't be thinking of suicide and are supposed to be happy but, at the same time, the times don't care and will break everyone and anyone that happens to live in unfortunate circumstances. Hell, the times even turned one of the sweetest gentlest people cruel, twice, and she is now left a wreck. At least, she didn't become as bad Kanako, as Kanako beat on Sanae and that, as I can see, probably contributed to her death but the telling thing between them is that Ran could attone, whereas Kanako couldn't.

Of course, forgiveness of another doesn't come so easily to the self. Ran is one of those that suffer because of self-blame and lack of forgiveness for herself. Our hearts are all shattered by what has happened, the pain of which we all shared, especially amongs Ren and Yukari. Ren clearly he knows won't allow him to get near her, so he doesn't attempt to for fear it will do damage or that she'll think he's forcing her, but Yukari most certainly he gives comfort to, as per what would be Ran's wishes and is very well accepted by her. He is truly a dutiful son-in law, as far as I can see, though in my opinion, I think he is too damn nice.

As for Chen and Reimu, Reimu seemed to want to separate from Chen's side, reacting violently if she was to be. Chen, however, remained fairly apathetic and very much depressed. Her only thoughs I could hear were, "Dammit!" and, "Why?!" It made sense, considering she was wondering why it was she wasn't allowed to die and was angry that she wasn't. After listening to her thoughts for a few minutes, a new one came and it was, "I'm sorry...." My heart shattered. If she could speak, then she would have but she couldn't. She is fully aware, capable of recovery, and yet she suffered silently.
***
"Flandre, little sister, what is that you hold?"
***
Usually, my little sister Flandre has blushing cheeks and bright cheerful curious eyes, but, this time, she seemed to have a rather somber look and in her hand, she held a folded piece of paper. I took it from her and unfolded it, reading what was inside. I had felt the blood in my veins run cold and myself started to become sick to my stomach. I had read Chen's suicide note, which read:

To who it may concern,
I love you all very much but I just can't go on. I wish Ran-mommie still loved me but she doesn't and she's gone now. I can only how you'll forgive me, especially you, Reimu, assuming you can read, and never forget me. Ran, if you're reading this, I missed you and I wanted my mommy back and for us to be a family and happy again. I love you and I wish you still remembered that. By the time, you wake up and come back to us, I won't be here but promise me you'll take of them for me.
Sincerily,
----橙
Flandre sat next to me and asked me what it is we do with it. "I don't know." I answered her. She blinked her sad eyes and asked, "Should we destroy it, sister?" I shook my head and told her it would be very well pointless cruelty to withold the truth but, yet, Flandre insisted we destroy it for fear of what it will do to Ran. I made my tone solemn and said, "Flandre, listen to me, we cannot withold the truth, no matter the sort of damage it may cause." Flandre eyes welled up in tears and she said, "I see." She nodded and started to cry. To my absolute sadness, I do wish I could have withheld the truth but it didn't matter as Ran was standing outside of the door listening to us as we spoke. Actually, she was standing right in the doorway, as I held the note, something she barely glanced at. Her eyes wide and to the brim of tears, she hurried off.

We later found her, later that night, sitting at the table, drinking the sorrows she felt away. In her drunken ramblings, I could hear her questioning why it was she still persisted on living. As she rambled, Yukari walked into the room and, for once coherant and in the longest period of coherance she may ever be in, asked, "Is this it then?" Ran looked up and asked, "What do you want?" Yukari blinked and said, "To talk."

"......."

"You're silent because you're a confused and scared fragile flower, who's so full of guilt, self-loathing, and the pain of yet to be healed wounds and questioning on whether or not she should allow herself to live."

"Well, I--What the-.....well."

"You are at a lost for words, my sweet. Listen to me, snap out of it, your children need you."

"She still loves me,..... doesn't...... she?"

"She always has, why else would she attempt suicide? She wanted her mommy back and couldn't make sense of why you had changed, being devastated by it. What's more to her suicide attempt is that it vaguely mimicked your own, only it was she who attempted suicide while Reimu watched and you've attempted suicide right in front of her, much like she's done right in front of her. The only difference was that Reimu was silent, whereas she cried out. I only fear of what that will do to Reimu, as I can see what witnessing your suicide attempts did to her."

"But.....I-"

"She needs you. Go, Ran, go."

As we watched, a tearful Ran hurried to where Chen was and said, "I'm sorry and I love you, Chen." Chen barely opened her eyes and smiled, reaching for her hand. In the end, we all reconciled with her. It seemed she was recovering well.
***
"Can, Chen tawk yet?"

"No, so far, she hasnt' really started but I like her recovery to be as slow and as steady as it could be."
***
So far, Reimu learned more words and put them together in sentences and Ran lost a little weight, though, she was still chubby, only a little less so, but Chen still can't talk and only makes noises. Then again, she was underwater for a while without air so she might have had her brain damaged. Besides that, she's still Chen and acts almost as if things didn't change, so we behave in the same way. I never can understand her noises but Reimu can, then again, Reimu cannot really talk either, though she did say, "I love you, Flandre!" to me. Actually, that was the first thing she really did say to me besides making bubble-purring sounds when I was near her. At least, Chen doesn't bite me, Reimu always does.

I really like having Chen around, though, even if she can't talk or meow. Once we did talk, only she made words with her hands in some way. Two knocks for "yes", one for "no" or it was little gestures. According to Ren, Chen speaks in sign language or whatever if she doesn't make noises. The loudest noise she made so far was an, "Eeeeee~!" and I cannot remember why she made that. Speaking without words is kinda weird to me but it interesting and I haven't seen a lot of people talk like that.

Either way, she is still Chen and Chen is Chen.
***
"Is Reimu okay?"
***
Reimu has been behaving strangely, alternating between crying, screaming (in anger, that is) and laughing or experiencing a bizarre combination of all three at any given interval. Naturally, I just assumed it was the mental trauma taking a toll on her and it was starting manifest itself that way. Then again, it was clearly the sign that she was suffering from the budding signs of mental illness. Sincerily, I do hope she'll get well, as she is only an innocent child and I have seen far too many a person go insane from all of this madness. If my beloved and I had it any other way, we would try to find her some help but, alas, we can't. However, her showing the manifestations of a budding mental illness is something to be expected as she was mentally conditioned and has endured so much hell that a child should not have to endure. I do wish circumstances were much kinder but they aren't and there is very little

Despite her mental problems, she still remained a rather sweet child, well, aside from the hitting, scratching, and sometimes biting, the either of which I learned to endure. Of course, it feels like a knife to the heart to see such a sweet child suffering from mental illness, knowing that there really isn't much that can be done and to imagine how she'll turn out later on or, rather, if she even survives to that point. In times like these, I know I shouldn't imagine that but, at the same, it is difficult to. We all think that, especially Ran and Mother-in law.

Even if we could get Reimu some sort of help for her problems, some dumbass would say it is a phase or whatever that clearly isn't it. We can only hope she'll be able to recover and regain her sanity.
***
"Ducks, are you alright?"

"Yes, just worried is all."

"Whyever for?"

"Mmm, just worried is all. Don't worry, I'll be fine."
***
Ducks looks almost as if she is worn out and has been worried about something, though I think she is suffering from an illness, probably from eating bad food, people are quick to waste food these days. Then again, it could be nerves, as times have been a tad harsh, especially with Reimu's budding lunacy. On the other hand, Yukari has developed more lapses of being coherant if her behaviour was to go by. Neverthless, things were starting to change in some ways good and some ways bad. In a bizarre twist of fate, Chen's convulsions seemed to have become less frequent and she seems to be able to remember more things. Of course, she is a child, so whatever damage to her brain has occured will likely heal in five years at the most and one or two at the least, however, she is making progress.

In light of all that is going on, I couldn't help but to wonder what had become of Kaguya and Cirno. The two had departed some time ago and it seems they are no more than a faded memory. It really couldn't have been that long since the two left but it has been, then again, it was. We haven't much spoke of the two since their departure and didn't think of what could have very well have happened to them. Now that I think of them, I cannot help but to worry or feel some sort of joy that they may have found a new place to live. If that is certainly the case, then albeit, as this will not probably be their home anymore, so they may not have a home any longer.

Times are indeed changing.
***
"Reimu, where are you?"
***
Reimu it seems to have gotten out again. How is something I had yet to find out but it seems yet again, she got out. Naturally, I decided to seek her out, hoping she didn't get very far. She couldn't have as she can barely walk and would at the fastest if she was on all fours. After seaching the surrounding area closest to our location, I had realized she really managed to far enough away and that she needed to be found. I concluded I would not find her this way, so I reverted to my fox form and started to find her scent. After an hour, I managed to hit on the scent of soiled diaper and followed it. I continued following that scent, up until I had found her, over a hundred miles away.

As I was searching for her, I can across what used to be a roadway, something that elicited my curiousity. What have we here? I sniffed, searching for Reimu and her soiled diaper, trying to find her. I was determined, yet curious, to find her and explore. Maybe she was like this when she got out, then again, she doesn't have any fear to hold her back, so it makes her more curious. It was a rather densely forested area. Still I continued, searching for Reimu, trying to find her. I continued searching until I came across an abandoned settlment. There I had found Reimu, sniffing the flowers that were growing out of the snow. I reverted back to my hunam form and gathered her into my arms, saying, "Well, you've had an adventure, let's go home."

It was a little past nightfall when I found her and it was early morning when I had returned home. Everyone was overjoyed to see us. When asked, I said, "Reimu took me on an adventure."
***
"Eirin..."
***
There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about Eirin, much like there isn't a time where Huzi doesn't think of Keine. I could just hear it now, Eirin's voice and thinking of what sort of memories we could have had if she had lived and what she could have done for us. I wonder how things could have been if she had survived. We are a long way from home and already snowflake tears are falling from my eyes. The nuclear winter and Cirno are cold but I feel even colder and that is exactly what Eirin felt, before she died. At the same time, she is free and, in thinking of her, I no longer remember why it is I even left home at all. Yup, that's me again, fucking around, doubly so since I cannot seem to find my way back and neither can Cirno. Well, I suppose it would be okay to begin anew and probably go back to the others when it is springtime.

As we journey onwards, I look up at the sky and ask, "Eirin, can you hear me?" Heh, I guess it is foolish to ask that, as Eirin isn't here to guide me anymore or any of us for that matter. To a certain degree, I do wonder what could have kept her from suicide. Her diary, which I still have, stated it was from all of the hell that she had endured up until that point and Yuuka did tell me she was happy so at least she is free.

As I think about Eirin, I wonder what the others are up to.
*****
"Hello, Princess."
******
Eirin, can my voice reach you now?
******
"Kaguya, how are you?"
***
Eirin....
******
"Kaguya, let's go to the festival!"
******
Eirin.....
******
"Kaguya, it's Reisin's birthday today, let us go and plan a party."
******
Eirin....
*****
"Again, Princess?"
*****
Eirin!
*****
"How long has it been since the war, really?"

"I don't really know. Probably 'bout a year or so."

"Actually, it has been more than a year and, at the most, it would have been three if not five years, as Reimu, Maribel, and Renko are much larger than what they once were and Yume Ni is, as I remember, clearly older than two or three."
****
It had been awhile since the nukes were dropped during that war and, yet, we have no idea how long time has passed since then. Ran did point out that the children had grown, as Reimu, Maribel, and Renko are much bigger than what they were and that Yume Ni is older than one, two, and three, so it had to have been more than two years since then. If memory serves, the nuclear weapon was dropped when I think it was still warm. To think that all that has happened hasn't happened in a short amount of time make it the more bewildering. Even with time, Yukari has grown more and more coherent with only bouts of lunacy and Reimu has finally gained comprehensive speech. I knew it to have been a long time since then.

On the note, I do wonder how long this winter was to last. Nothing, even on a catastrophic level, can last for very long. As I sat thinking, we all noticed Yukari uttering something. She uttered the word, "Atonement." As she uttered it, I could hear voices saying exactly what it was we were going through and what we had gone through.

"Sacrifice."

"Secrets."

"Sorrow."

"Love."

"Devotion."

"Infertility."

"Miscarriage."

"Scars."

"Bonds."

"Ghosts."

"Innocence."

"Imprisonment."

"Joy."

"Light."

"Dark."
****
"It's not snowing, anymore."
***
It has been about a couple of years since then but I remember when I little, about five or six, I can't remember, when it finally stopped snowing. Like now, it was when I was still crippled and Yukari-mommie had carried me outside. For once, I had seen the sunshine and for once I no longer felt the cold air of winter. It had finally stopped snowing and the clouds were starting break up. It was the morning. It felt nice to see the sunshine and Kaguya and Cirno, too. We were back together again and Yukari let me play outside, in the sunshine. After that, we seen other people and people were building a new town. I also got these things that I wear that will help me walk. We stopped living in that underground house and bought an apartment building and that is where we live. Also, Chen can talk now and Ran and Ren got married and had more babies.

If it's meant to be, I hope we meet again. Byebye!