Early Departure
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I looked at him as he packed some of his clothes
into his suitcase with a certain care.
"You should bring that greenish tshirt with the
buttons at the neck, that one looks really great
on you."
I said, softly with a wan smile.
Sebastian smiled at me, with a sadness in his eyes
he always had when he had to leave for promotional
purposes or for making a movie somewhere that wasn't
New York.
"I don't want too much in here, though."
he replied with an apologetic look on his face.
"Still, you should bring that. And wear it so when I see
pictures of you roaming the streets of wherever I can
see the handsome man that's off doing great things."
I said, as I stood up and walked over to his closet.
I searched through the clothes and found it soon enough.
I turned around and walked over to him as he sat on the bed,
watching me.
I handed him the shirt silently and watched him put it in
the suitcase.
"When do you leave again?"
I asked, as I allowed my hands to softly run through his
hair before gently going down to feel the stubble on his
cheeks and chin.
"Around 4 in the morning. I don't want you to wait up
for me. Or set the alarm. I want you to get a good night
sleep. You have work tomorrow."
he said, as he placed his hands on my waist, under my tshirt.
"I'll be fine if I set my alarmclock, Baz. You know I'll want
to kiss you goodbye."
I replied, his head still between my hands as I looked into his
beautiful eyes.
"You know damn well that I'll kiss you goodbye if you're
asleep, that doesn't matter to me."
he said, as he pulled me on his lap.
I placed my legs on the side of him, my knees on the bed,
straddling him somewhat.
"It matters to me. I want to be conscious when you kiss me
tonight, I don't want to be comatose."
I mumbled, as I found a little thread on the shirt he was wearing
and started to pull on it a bit.
"I don't want you to be sleep deprived because of me."
he whispered, while he placed his forehead against mine.
"I won't be. I need that kiss from you or I'll be depressed for the
upcoming 2 months."
I muttered as he chuckled.
"I will! You can laugh but I'll be so sad I missed a chance.
Please wake me up?"
He sighed.
"I'll see. It depends on how tired you are."
I slapped his chest.
"You will wake me, Sebastian Stan. Or I'll put my alarm
on. I'd rather be awakened by your lips against mine but
if you don't want to.."
He groaned in annoyance at my persistence and I smiled.
"Was that a 'yes'?"
"That was a 'sometimes you drive me nuts'."
he said, as he wrapped his arms around me.
"But I love you all the same."
He kissed the top of my head and I closed my eyes, enjoying
the moment and taking everything in.
"I'm gonna miss you."
I said, after a few silent, comfortable minutes.
"I know."
he said and I looked up at him.
"I'm gonna miss you too, sweetheart."
I smiled.
"All I needed to hear. So.. 2 months this time, right?"
"Somewhere around 2 months, yes. I feel like a douchebag
for leaving you again. I'm sorry."
he said, as he wiped his eyes before looking at me.
"Don't apologize. I knew what I was getting into.
I wouldn't want to trade with anyone."
I said as I listened to his heartbeat.
"Some days I wish you were working at a Walmart or something
but then I know it would never make you happy. And I see
how happy this makes you so I won't ever tell you to stop.
As long as you come back to me, I'll be behind you, whatever
you decide to do."
"You're amazing. You know that, right?"
he mumbled as he started to gently caress my hair.
"Yeah, I kinda do. But it's nice to hear it every now and
then."
I said and chuckled at his 'Pffffff!'
Then my phone rang and I groaned.
"I'll just let it ring."
It rang for a while and stopped.
But a few minutes later it rang again.
"For fuck's sake!"
I got to my feet and grabbed my phone and saw it
was my mom.
"Hi, mom."
I said, feeling guilty immediately for not calling her sooner.
"I know, I'm sorry. I'm with Baz and he's leaving tonight so
I didn't.. Yes, I know. I'm sorry!"
Sebastian got up and kissed my cheek before whispering
'good luck' at me and quickly dodged my kick aimed at his
butt.
After 30 minutes, my mom was satisfied that she knew
everything about my life again and I was able to
return my attention elsewhere.
"Baz?"
I asked, as I walked in the kitchen and I found him, eating.
"I should have known you were stuffing your face with food.
How are you not getting fat?"
He rolled his eyes and I walked over to him, wrapped
my arms around his neck and kissed him on his lips.
He had one hand on my back and the other on my hip.
"That was.. An experience."
he said when he'd swallowed whatever what was in his
mouth.
"I almost barfed it up."
"Oh God."
I said, disgusted and released him.
"You're such a romantic. You know that? You make me
feel so incredibly special sometimes. Wow."
He chuckled and kissed my forehead.
"I love you."
I smiled and I kissed him again, gently.
"I love you, too. We should spend some time doing
some sexy things."
I said, as I slowly unbottened his button up shirt.
"Sexy things?"
he asked but I saw in his eyes he knew perfectly
well what I mean.
"Yeah, you know. I touch you some places and you
touch me some places.. It could get very steamy.
But if you're not up for it, that's fine. Wanna go and knit
something?"
I asked, buttoning his shirt again.
"Knit something? You don't even know how to knit,
you weirdass."
he replied before lifting me up, placing his hands under my
upperlegs.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me towards
the bedroom.
"No, I don't know how to knit but we can learn it together."
I said, with a shrug.
"Oh God, I love it when you talk dirty to me."
he replied, as he kissed my collarbone.
I smiled at the way he was affectionate with me. He placed me
on the bed, butterfly kisses on the exposed parts of my body
as he pulled of my tshirt.
---
We were enjoying the last few hours together, I was almost
sleeping, seeing it was past midnight.
"I'm gonna miss you so much."
I heard Sebastian mumble before nuzzling his face against
my neck.
"I'm gonna miss you too, love. More than you'll ever know.
But you'll be back in 2 months. And we'll call and text and do
whatever it is that people do to stay in touch."
I replied, as I gently caressed his always perfect hair.
"They'll be over before you know it. And then we'll laugh at
how stupid we were being. We always do."
"I hate leaving you, though. You know that, right? That's the only
downside of this whole acting thing."
he replied as he wrapped an arm around my waist.
"I hate seeing you leave, too."
I said and grabbed his hand to kiss it.
"I'm really tired now, though."
"So sleep."
Sebastian said and turned on his back again.
"Do you promise to wake me up?"
I asked, as I made myself comfortable, almost lying
on top of him.
"I promise. Go to sleep, I'll wake you to kiss you goodbye."
he mumbled as I fell into a peaceful slumber.
---
I felt some pressure on my lips, what woke me up.
"Mhhm."
I mumbled before I realized what this meant.
I sighed and wrapped my hands around his neck to give
him one last hug before he left.
"Is it time already?"
I asked, groggily.
"Yeah. I'm sorry, love. I have to go catch a plane. I'll
call you when I've landed, okay?"
he said softly and kissed every part of my face, gently
leaving my lips for last.
I pressed my lips against him, firmly but not too hard.
"I'm sorry I fell asleep so soon."
I mumbled, opening my eyes and looking at him in the faint
light of a lamp he'd left on in the kitchen.
He smiled before kissing the tip of my nose.
"It was midnight, that wasn't soon. You take care of
yourself while I'm gone, yeah? And you can call me whenever,
wherever. If I'm able to answer, I will."
"You always tell me the same things. I'll be fine and I will.
Good luck and have fun."
I said and sat up, hugging him one last time before kissing
him for the last time.
"I love you."
"I love you more."
he whispered before kissing my forehead and standing up.
This was definetely the hard part but I knew he'd be back
soon enough. As I watched him leave, I felt a little sting in my
heart, knowing I would miss his sillyness and his beautiful
face.
"See you soon."
I murmered before I fell back to sleep, dreaming
of the time I would see him again.
into his suitcase with a certain care.
"You should bring that greenish tshirt with the
buttons at the neck, that one looks really great
on you."
I said, softly with a wan smile.
Sebastian smiled at me, with a sadness in his eyes
he always had when he had to leave for promotional
purposes or for making a movie somewhere that wasn't
New York.
"I don't want too much in here, though."
he replied with an apologetic look on his face.
"Still, you should bring that. And wear it so when I see
pictures of you roaming the streets of wherever I can
see the handsome man that's off doing great things."
I said, as I stood up and walked over to his closet.
I searched through the clothes and found it soon enough.
I turned around and walked over to him as he sat on the bed,
watching me.
I handed him the shirt silently and watched him put it in
the suitcase.
"When do you leave again?"
I asked, as I allowed my hands to softly run through his
hair before gently going down to feel the stubble on his
cheeks and chin.
"Around 4 in the morning. I don't want you to wait up
for me. Or set the alarm. I want you to get a good night
sleep. You have work tomorrow."
he said, as he placed his hands on my waist, under my tshirt.
"I'll be fine if I set my alarmclock, Baz. You know I'll want
to kiss you goodbye."
I replied, his head still between my hands as I looked into his
beautiful eyes.
"You know damn well that I'll kiss you goodbye if you're
asleep, that doesn't matter to me."
he said, as he pulled me on his lap.
I placed my legs on the side of him, my knees on the bed,
straddling him somewhat.
"It matters to me. I want to be conscious when you kiss me
tonight, I don't want to be comatose."
I mumbled, as I found a little thread on the shirt he was wearing
and started to pull on it a bit.
"I don't want you to be sleep deprived because of me."
he whispered, while he placed his forehead against mine.
"I won't be. I need that kiss from you or I'll be depressed for the
upcoming 2 months."
I muttered as he chuckled.
"I will! You can laugh but I'll be so sad I missed a chance.
Please wake me up?"
He sighed.
"I'll see. It depends on how tired you are."
I slapped his chest.
"You will wake me, Sebastian Stan. Or I'll put my alarm
on. I'd rather be awakened by your lips against mine but
if you don't want to.."
He groaned in annoyance at my persistence and I smiled.
"Was that a 'yes'?"
"That was a 'sometimes you drive me nuts'."
he said, as he wrapped his arms around me.
"But I love you all the same."
He kissed the top of my head and I closed my eyes, enjoying
the moment and taking everything in.
"I'm gonna miss you."
I said, after a few silent, comfortable minutes.
"I know."
he said and I looked up at him.
"I'm gonna miss you too, sweetheart."
I smiled.
"All I needed to hear. So.. 2 months this time, right?"
"Somewhere around 2 months, yes. I feel like a douchebag
for leaving you again. I'm sorry."
he said, as he wiped his eyes before looking at me.
"Don't apologize. I knew what I was getting into.
I wouldn't want to trade with anyone."
I said as I listened to his heartbeat.
"Some days I wish you were working at a Walmart or something
but then I know it would never make you happy. And I see
how happy this makes you so I won't ever tell you to stop.
As long as you come back to me, I'll be behind you, whatever
you decide to do."
"You're amazing. You know that, right?"
he mumbled as he started to gently caress my hair.
"Yeah, I kinda do. But it's nice to hear it every now and
then."
I said and chuckled at his 'Pffffff!'
Then my phone rang and I groaned.
"I'll just let it ring."
It rang for a while and stopped.
But a few minutes later it rang again.
"For fuck's sake!"
I got to my feet and grabbed my phone and saw it
was my mom.
"Hi, mom."
I said, feeling guilty immediately for not calling her sooner.
"I know, I'm sorry. I'm with Baz and he's leaving tonight so
I didn't.. Yes, I know. I'm sorry!"
Sebastian got up and kissed my cheek before whispering
'good luck' at me and quickly dodged my kick aimed at his
butt.
After 30 minutes, my mom was satisfied that she knew
everything about my life again and I was able to
return my attention elsewhere.
"Baz?"
I asked, as I walked in the kitchen and I found him, eating.
"I should have known you were stuffing your face with food.
How are you not getting fat?"
He rolled his eyes and I walked over to him, wrapped
my arms around his neck and kissed him on his lips.
He had one hand on my back and the other on my hip.
"That was.. An experience."
he said when he'd swallowed whatever what was in his
mouth.
"I almost barfed it up."
"Oh God."
I said, disgusted and released him.
"You're such a romantic. You know that? You make me
feel so incredibly special sometimes. Wow."
He chuckled and kissed my forehead.
"I love you."
I smiled and I kissed him again, gently.
"I love you, too. We should spend some time doing
some sexy things."
I said, as I slowly unbottened his button up shirt.
"Sexy things?"
he asked but I saw in his eyes he knew perfectly
well what I mean.
"Yeah, you know. I touch you some places and you
touch me some places.. It could get very steamy.
But if you're not up for it, that's fine. Wanna go and knit
something?"
I asked, buttoning his shirt again.
"Knit something? You don't even know how to knit,
you weirdass."
he replied before lifting me up, placing his hands under my
upperlegs.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me towards
the bedroom.
"No, I don't know how to knit but we can learn it together."
I said, with a shrug.
"Oh God, I love it when you talk dirty to me."
he replied, as he kissed my collarbone.
I smiled at the way he was affectionate with me. He placed me
on the bed, butterfly kisses on the exposed parts of my body
as he pulled of my tshirt.
---
We were enjoying the last few hours together, I was almost
sleeping, seeing it was past midnight.
"I'm gonna miss you so much."
I heard Sebastian mumble before nuzzling his face against
my neck.
"I'm gonna miss you too, love. More than you'll ever know.
But you'll be back in 2 months. And we'll call and text and do
whatever it is that people do to stay in touch."
I replied, as I gently caressed his always perfect hair.
"They'll be over before you know it. And then we'll laugh at
how stupid we were being. We always do."
"I hate leaving you, though. You know that, right? That's the only
downside of this whole acting thing."
he replied as he wrapped an arm around my waist.
"I hate seeing you leave, too."
I said and grabbed his hand to kiss it.
"I'm really tired now, though."
"So sleep."
Sebastian said and turned on his back again.
"Do you promise to wake me up?"
I asked, as I made myself comfortable, almost lying
on top of him.
"I promise. Go to sleep, I'll wake you to kiss you goodbye."
he mumbled as I fell into a peaceful slumber.
---
I felt some pressure on my lips, what woke me up.
"Mhhm."
I mumbled before I realized what this meant.
I sighed and wrapped my hands around his neck to give
him one last hug before he left.
"Is it time already?"
I asked, groggily.
"Yeah. I'm sorry, love. I have to go catch a plane. I'll
call you when I've landed, okay?"
he said softly and kissed every part of my face, gently
leaving my lips for last.
I pressed my lips against him, firmly but not too hard.
"I'm sorry I fell asleep so soon."
I mumbled, opening my eyes and looking at him in the faint
light of a lamp he'd left on in the kitchen.
He smiled before kissing the tip of my nose.
"It was midnight, that wasn't soon. You take care of
yourself while I'm gone, yeah? And you can call me whenever,
wherever. If I'm able to answer, I will."
"You always tell me the same things. I'll be fine and I will.
Good luck and have fun."
I said and sat up, hugging him one last time before kissing
him for the last time.
"I love you."
"I love you more."
he whispered before kissing my forehead and standing up.
This was definetely the hard part but I knew he'd be back
soon enough. As I watched him leave, I felt a little sting in my
heart, knowing I would miss his sillyness and his beautiful
face.
"See you soon."
I murmered before I fell back to sleep, dreaming
of the time I would see him again.