Gensokyo Diaries XI: Yukari
Violet Diary II: The Secrets I hold
As I write, I suppose what secrets I have are safe but they will still torment me. I know Reimu can't sense danger and that sadistic fuck taunted me with what information he gave me about what he's done to her (though, he never told me why but I could see it). He's mentally conditioned her not to fear or sense danger and I can only hope that her wasn't intending to use have her as his doll, like he had me. I am also aware that Yume passed away and I feel awful for that, as well. I've betrayed them both and Ran and myself as well.
As I write, I must note that I wasn't given a choice in the matter of fate regarding either of the two and it was either I agreed to it or didn't. He took my hand and pointed it to where he wanted it to go and I didn't stop him, effectively making my choice. For allowing that to happen, I feel my "defilement" was much deserved for allowing this happen and I can only hope either of them will and can forgive me.
~八雲 紫
As I write, I must note that I wasn't given a choice in the matter of fate regarding either of the two and it was either I agreed to it or didn't. He took my hand and pointed it to where he wanted it to go and I didn't stop him, effectively making my choice. For allowing that to happen, I feel my "defilement" was much deserved for allowing this happen and I can only hope either of them will and can forgive me.
~八雲 紫