Half a Heart

dear jack,

i am losing my mind. i am not happy. all i want to do is cry and then sleep. then cry some more. maybe even cry in my sleep. i am so sad and i feel like my heart is in a million different fragmented pieces and i cannot take it. please wake up. please jack. please. i need my best friend back. i need him so much. he's my anchor. the anchor that keeps my feet to the ground. i'm the wings that keeps his heart above the ground.

remember when you used that line on me, jack? when you were trying to convince me that maybe i wasn't as straight as i thought i was? i am straight. i just like you. no, i don't like you. i love you. so much.

so please wake up. wake me up too. i can't stand this nightmare anymore.

to the moon and back,
alex