Bless Your Beautiful Heart

After switching seats with Kellin and making my back to the house, I put a pot of tea on and thanked

God that Harlow was out with her man. I worried for kellin. I worried that his stress would cause the

shrinking tumor in his brain to flair. Right now I wanted nothing more than to get rid of it myself.

“Do you want a blanket Kel?”

As soon as we walked in the door, he had plopped down on the couch. No T.V., no music, he didn't

speak. It wasn't uncomfortable but I wished he would join me in the kitchen. I thought the things I had

said to him in the car would have made him feel better but I understood and had experienced myself

the Self-doubt that came afterwards.

“Um…” was all he said. I just walked back to the kitchen. I didn't know what else to do. My stomach

tightened both at the hurt I felt at the lack of an answer he gave me, and guilt for even beginning to

feel sorry for myself. The tea was whistling now in time with the thoughts whirling in my head.

“Im sorry.” Kellin was in the doorway of the kitchen. His face had calmed, his color back and his eyes

bright.

“You haven't done anything wrong.” I said and smiled meekly.

“Im being moody. Like a girl.” he said and we both let out breathy laughs. He walked to me then and

wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted a little. I clung to him with everything I had, trying again,

to leak some love and comfort into him.

“Thank you Addilyn. For helping me get through this. Sometimes I cant figure out why you stay with

me. But …just…don’t go anywhere. Please.” His breath was soft and floating gracefully along my neck,

giving me chills.

“Kelling Quinn. How dare you.” I said he put me down. But the smile only face didn't reflect the words

he thought were meant to scar.

“I will never leave you. Until you no longer want me in your life then I will be here every second of

everyday.” I said and turned to get some mugs from the cabinet.

“Are you saying you want to spend the rest of your life with me?” When he said that I almost dropped

the tea pot from my hands. But the thought was interesting. Technically I had said that. But I wasn't

ready to marry Kellin. I mean we had only kissed like once for real. Yes I feel solid with Kellin. Yes in a

more literal sense, I want to be in Kellin’s life for the rest of my own.

“Kellin, I…”

“Im just teasing you.” he said and turned me toward him. I pulled a cup of tea with me and swirled it

under his nose.

“Chamomile, mmmmmm.” He lifted up on his toes making me fall into a fit of giggles. He stole the mug

from my hands and then mine from behind me, making his way to the couch. He reached for the

remote, turned on my favorite movie,grabbed my favorite blanket from the chair next to him, and pulled

my favorite couch pillow from the little basket under the coffee table. He knew all of it.

“Ok, she told you everything didn't she?” I said, crossing my arms and slowly walking into the living

room. The evil smile on my face was evident. He looked to me and smiled the biggest smile.

“Ok, yeah, I might have asked Harlow for some tips.” The puppy dog face he was wearing was enough

to make me take long, quick strides towards him and sit on his lap.

“Kellin Quinn, you sneaky little fox. Those things are supposed to be things you find out on your own.

Your cheating.” I said.

“Ok i’m sorry. I did cheat. Just a little. I just wanted to make you comfortable.”

I looked up to the ceiling smiling, closing my eyes and shaking my head. I swear.

“You don't even understand how perfect you are.” I said and he pulled me down by the chin so that my

eyes locked within his.

“I think you've mistaken me for you.” He said. This touched me so deeply. So did his lips when they

reminded me of everything I want in my life.