Steps Back

I went two steps back and no steps forward. My heart can't take much more. Down the road, down the alley, my heart lies in his house. Forgotten on the floor. Stepped on and left there to die. I want to disappear. I wonder if he'd even notice. I want to go back and undo the day I met him. I want to scream at the top of my lungs that it's not fair because it's not. It's horrible. I want everything to go away. I want to drown quietly in the ocean. Close my eyes and breathe in the salt water. Let it fill my lungs. Float silently on the water, on my way to no where. When they ask what happened to me, they'll just say I moved away and it will rain all day. They'll think nothing of it then, until they find my body washed up on the shore. My soul trapped inside it no more. I want to disappear. I never want to see you again. I want to die that way an never breathe again.

3/21/14 - 1:36 AM