Better for You

I had no idea how long I’d been sitting under the tree for, I’d stupidly left my phone in my bag; which was at the party. I’d pretty much come to the conclusion that I hated Harry styles. I felt so stupid and so betrayed; I had actually thought that he was different to the guy that he was his mates. I thought that the real Harry came out when he was around me; but now I’m starting to realize that it was all just an act.

The way that he actually thought that I wouldn’t care about him kissing Lucy, of all people, was ridiculous. I’m sure that he’s most probably laughing about it to Lucy right now, laughing about the poor, innocent girl who’s too naïve for her own good.

I stood up from the tree, wiping under my eyes and sniffing before I ran a shaky hand through my hair. I could either go back to the dorms now, alone at night and with no phone; or go back to the party, grab my bag and leave, hopefully with Abby or Andy.

I debated this in my mind, deciding on going back to the party as I began walking back to the Frat house. I kept my eyes focussed on the ground as it was dark and so otherwise I couldn’t work out where my feet were going. Unfortunately, I then bumped into something hard. I jumped back from the impact, looking up at noticing a familiar silhouette.

“Zayn?” I asked, squinting my eyes, trying to determine any of his facial features.

“We were all looking for you; Harry seems to be pretty upset you know.” Zayn replied, and I could
hear the amusement dancing on his words.

“You’re a dick Zayn, you know that right?” I asked with bitterness in my voice, as I remembered what he’d done to Andy.

“What’s with the sudden hatred towards me?” Zayn asked, and I just glared at him as I began walking, shoving past him.

“Why don’t you ask Andy?” I shot back at him sarcastically, as he picked up his pace to walk next to me.

“I take it she told you what happened between us?” Zayn asked, with his voice full of cockiness.

“There’s more, but you’ll never know.”

“What do you mean?” Zayn asked, and I stopped abruptly, turning to face him with a sly expression.

“Don’t worry.” I replied, my voice dripping with fake kindness, as I then began walking again.

“Look, I don’t know what Andy told you, but there are two sides to every story.”

“Yeah well I’m not interested in yours.”

“Harry was right about you.” Zayn commented, and I could hear the smirk in voice.

“What did Harry tell you?” I asked, and Zayn’s smirk grew as he knew that he had my full attention at just the mention of Harry’s name, and I cursed for being so affected by just the sound of his damn name.

“Just that you had attitude.” Zayn answered and I nodded my head.

“Well, you know what Harry is? He’s a stupid jerk who doesn’t care about any living organism other than himself. And it’s sad that he’s never going to find happiness with the life that he lives but that’s what he gets for being an ass.” I ranted as we finally reached the house where I could hear a lot of chanting.

I furrowed my eyebrows and went into the house, trying to find Abby. I spotted her on the outside of a circle with tears streaming down her face. “Abby? What’s going on?” I asked, as Abby shakily hugged me.

She then pulled back and pointed in the direction of the circle. “Niall – he got into a fight – with Harry.” Abby chocked and I nodded my head, trying to get past the crowd of people that had gathered to cheer on the fight.

As I made it to the front I saw how bloody the two of them were. Both had busted lips and noses, but they continued to throw punches at each other. “Get off of him!” I shouted at Harry, as I tried to pull Niall away from him.

“Get off of me Izzy, he deserves this” Niall shouted, as he threw a punch at Harry.

“What do you mean?” I asked, wondering if Niall was talking about me, and how Harry had hurt me.

“He kissed Lucy when he knew that you liked him!” Niall shouted, his resistance against my arms wearing off, as he reluctantly backed away from Harry. “Why did you do that?” Niall asked, as we finally made our way to Abby, Andy, Louis and Liam.

“Because, I didn’t want you to get even more hurt.” I replied, scanning over his face for injuries.

“But he’s just such a dick!” Niall quipped, wafting a hand up and down quickly to emphasize his point.

“I know, but violence isn’t the way to go about it.” I answered softly, picking up my bag. “Come on, you’re going to need to go to the hospital.” I told him and Niall’s eyes blew wide open.

“What do you mean?”

“Your nose is completely broken, and I think that you might need stitches in your cheek.” I told him and let out a groan before reluctantly getting up.

“I can drive if you want.” Abby suggested and I nodded.

“But none of us took a car.” I told them.

“I brought mine.” Louis answered and I nodded as we all walked towards the car. “Ok, well Niall, Izzy and Abby can come with me and then if Andy goes with you?” Louis suggested to Liam and he nodded, ushering Andy towards his car.

After a slightly awkward trip to the hospital, we arrived. “Hi, my friend got into a fight and needs help. I think that he’s got a broken nose and a deep cut on his cheek.” I told the nurse who sighed and nodded.

“Alright, if he could come with me then I can get the doctor to check him out.” She told and I smiled gratefully, leading Niall towards the nurse.

“So what happened?” I asked as I sat down next to Louis and Abby.

“When you ran out from the party we asked what happened and Andy said that Harry made out with Lucy. We were all pretty pissed because we knew how you felt about Harry and walked up to Lucy having a go at her for how she was always out to hurt you. Then Harry returned and began sticking up for Lucy which pushed Niall over the edge. Niall threw a punch at Harry then he threw one back and then the fight broke out.” Abby explained and I nodded my head slowly, noticing Liam and Abby walking through the door.

“I’m sorry Izzy, but guys like Harry don’t change. All they do is hurt everyone around them.” Louis told me softly and I nodded.

“I know; he was just a damn good actor.” I told them sadly, and Andy gave me a sad smile.
The doors opened again and I raised my head watching as Harry, Lucy and Zayn all came through the door. I sighed rolled my eyes as the rest of the group turned to see what I was looking at.

“What are they doing here?” Andy spat bitterly, glaring at their small group.

“Niall must have done a decent job.” I replied loudly, causing them to look our way and glare. Harry then got taken by a nurse as he walked weekly behind her as she led him to see a doctor.

“How’s Niall doing?” Lucy asked as she stood near our group.

“He’s just peachy.” I replied sarcastically to Lucy who rolled her eyes.

“Yeah, well Harry’s pretty good at fighting. I found it pretty sweet how he fought for me and not you.”
Lucy replied bitchily and I inhaled a long deep breath.

“Lucy, I don’t care. Go kiss Harry, go sleep with him; hell you can go bloody marry him. He’s all yours.” I replied steadily, even though I was completely lying. The thought of them kissing each other is disgusting, and it does hurt, because unfortunately I do care. But Lucy will never know that, she will never know how much that kiss had hurt me.

“Oh sweetie, I sleep with Harry all the time. Yeah, we had sex quite recently you know, right after your party.” Lucy said smirking; I looked down at my lap as she said all these words which just punctured all my hopes for any kind of relationship with Harry.

“I think that you should go.” Andy said strongly, glaring at Lucy. Lucy looked at my face with a sly expression, probably realizing the hurt she’d caused before walking away. “Sorry about her, I’ll go sort her out.” Andy told me softly, getting up.

“No don’t it’s fine.” I told her, looking up at her. I was lying, but I knew what Lucy had over Andy and I didn’t want Lucy hurting Andy anymore.

“No; she’s always treating you so badly and I’ve had enough of it. And trust me; it’s been a long time coming.” Andy told me and Abby nodded, getting up with her and they went over to Lucy. I watched from afar as they beckoned Lucy outside.

“I doubt that’s going to go down well.” Louis breathed and I nodded.

“Andy’s right though, this fight has been a long time coming.” I told them as I turned my head towards the direction of where they were arguing, when I saw Zayn getting up and walking towards the exit doors and towards Andy, Abby and Lucy. “I’m going to go join them though; guess who’s joined this argument.” I said, pointing my thumb behind me at the vacant seat Zayn had left and they nodded their heads.

I walked out of the hospital noticing now cold it was outside this late at night, and wishing that I had brought a jacket with me; although I would have never predicted this happening.

“You’re such a bitch Lucy. You go whoring around from man to man and you don’t even care.” Andy shouted as I saw the group of them there, Lucy and Andy standing face to face, trying to intimidate each other.

“I feel like there’s more reason towards your hatred towards me than you’re saying.” Lucy replied, egging Andy on. Andy looked at Lucy’s eyes and I saw realization flickering in them. Lucy must have known about Andy seeing her with Zayn.

Andy took a step back from Lucy, hurting flashing in her eyes as I walked over to Andy and placed my hand around her shoulders comfortingly. “1 month Zayn. We were together for a month and you just broke up with me because I wouldn’t go all the way with you?” Andy cried out, with tears falling down her face as guilt flashed in Zayn’s eyes. “Because I couldn’t satisfy your ‘sexual needs’?” Andy asked.

“Andy, I-“Zayn began saying, his tone sounding so guilty.

“No! Don’t pretend to care because you don’t. You slept with Lucy the following day!” Andy cried out as Zayn clenched his jaw and guilt flooded his features.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you when I did that, I just-“Zayn began, being cut off by Andy.

“You just what?” Andy pushed, freeing herself from my grip and taking a step towards Zayn. “You just had to sleep with her? You know what really hurt me, is that I was so broken when you dumped me that I was actually going to sleep with you! I was actually planning on sleeping with you, which was a big thing for me because guess what; I’m a virgin!” Andy revealed, her voice loud and fake happiness in it.

Zayn and Lucy’s jaws dropped as they stared at Andy dumbstruck. “You- you’re- you’re a-“ Zayn stuttered and Andy nodded.

“That’s right. I’m a virgin. That’s why I was holding back, and I was ready to give myself to you; but then when I found you, you were making-out with her.” Andy said, almost spitting out the last part of her sentence, as she pointed her finger at Lucy.

“Andy, I had no idea, if I’d have known then I’d-“ Zayn began, but was once again cut off by Andy who’s cheeks were now stained with tears and she was full of crying.

“You’d have never gone out with me. Because you don’t have time for virgins do you?” Andy hissed bitterly.

“Harry did.” Zayn pointed out, catching me off guard.

“Don’t go there.” I growled and Zayn smirked.

“Why not?” Zayn pushed. He wanted to rub Harry hurting me in my face and I was sick of that group always trying to hurt me.

“God, you two are just the same.” I hissed.

“No, trust me we’re not.” Zayn replied with his sentence being cut off by Abby’s fist making contact with Zayn’s left eye. “Fuck!” Zayn hissed, “What the hell Abby?” He shouted.

“Leave my friends the fuck alone or I swear next time it’ll be much worse.” Abby threatened and led us away from Zayn and into the hospital.

“What happened?” Louis and Liam asked as they came rushing up to us to console Andy. I followed them and sat down next to them and pretended to listen as Andy and Abby explained the argument.
The truth was though, that I felt so numb. SO much had happened today and it was all still sinking in. But as I looked around the room, with Louis and Liam listening to Abby and Andy while waiting for Niall; and with Lucy examining Zayn’s eye as they waited for Harry I realised how much of a split there was between the two groups.

There was such a division and although I knew which side I was on I honestly didn’t at the same time. There was literally a raging war going on between the two groups with mutual feelings of hatred shared. And although I was sure that I hated Harry after what happened tonight I know that there’s a thin line between love and hate and at the moment I feel like I just may still love him.

Although it’s stupid because there is definitely no future between us after tonight, my heart is still stuck on him. The time that Harry and I had shared together had stirred up feelings that I had never felt before. I had fallen hopelessly for the feeling of his touch, the look of his smile, the sound of his voice in the morning, the taste of his lips, the smell of his cologne; all of him and there was nothing that I could do about it; I was in-love with the enemy.