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"You ok sweetheart" Trina asked, Sidney turned away from the window and sighed
"No" he said sitting down "I just don't understand why this happened" he said Trina frowned and sat down next to him.
"Son sometimes things happen that we can't control, we can look on the good side and know that MaKenna is in heaven and that Keegan will be with us" she said Sidney wiped his eyes
"I feel like I've let her down, she didn't even want another baby right now, I kinda forced it on her"
"But she agreed"
"But she didn't want to, then it was twins....she was so sick and I was constantly gone and if I wasn't gone we were arguing about stupid stuff or I was being an asshole and now....MaKenna is gone and I just hope and pray that Keegan will be alright but I know Jess and this is going to slowly kill her, this heartache and this guilt she feels"
"Is the same thing you feel Sidney, Jessica knows how much you love her even when your being an ass. Married couples argue and have problems but you work on them, this isn't going to be easy but you have her and she has you, you have the entire Pittsburg area supporting you, and you have friends and family who love you so much, we will be here for you" she said, Sidney looked at her and began to cry "it's ok to hurt and it's ok to cry, don't forget that and don't let her forget that" she said
"Sidney you are wanted" Taylor said, Sidney wipe his eyes "they are about to take her back"
"Let's go in and pray before" Trina said, Sidney walked to Jessica who was now awake and looked scared
"Let's say a prayer for MaKenna" Troy said
"Yes, please" Diana said squeezing her daughters hand, once Troy started Jessica realized it was the prayer for a stillborn and the pain cut her even deeper, she squeezed Sidney's hand and he leaned down to kiss her head
"We are going to be ok" he whispered, she bit her lip and nodded. Everyone began to take turns hugging them before exiting the room
"Wait, were sorry were late" they heard, they looked at the door to see the entire team, 3 of his coaches, dan bylsma who he still remained close with and several of the girlfriend and wives, Jessica looked up at Sidney who looked shocked
"We postponed the next few games" Marc said
"We wanted to be here with you guys, were family" Geno said, Sidney smiled
"We love you guys" Vero said stepping up, Jessica gasped and Vero walked up fighting back tears, she sat down on the bed and hugged her best friend, both girl started to cry
"Were here for you sid" Mike Johnston said
"Thank you guys"
"Addison and Greyson are here" Vero said moving the hair from Jessica's face "do you want to see them"
"5 more minutes please" Dr Anderson said stepping trough the crowd Sidney nodded
"Bring them in" Sidney said
"Mommy" they heard, they turned to the door to see Lauren Lemieux holding a sleepy Greyson, Addison behind her a little frightened of the hospital scene
"Hi sweetheart" she said as Lauren brought Greyson closer
"Daddy" Addison said running to him
"Hi princess" Sidney said picking her up, Lauren gently sat Greyson on the bed.
"Babies ok mommy" Greyson asked
"Baby brother is ok" she said moving his blonde hair
"What about sissy" Addison asked, Sidney sat down on the chair next to the bed, Verc
o wrapped her arms around Marc trying to stop crying
"Sissy isn't going to be coming home with us sweetheart, her heart wasn't strong enough" Sidney said trying to find the words to describe it
"Sissy die" Greyson asked, Jessica looked at Sidney
"Sissy went to be with the angels" Sidney said
"But we will get to bring home Keegan" Jessica said, both Greyson and Addison nodded
"It's time" Dr. Anderson said
"We will see you both in a little bit ok" Sidney said
"Ok daddy" Greyson said
"Love you mommy" Addison said, Jessica hugged everyone before looking at Sidney
"Remember we are going to be ok, if you want to hold her I support that decision" he said she nodded her head and looked at Dr. Anderson
"Were ready" she said
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"You ok" Sidney asked, she looked up at him and nodded
"Ok Mrs. Crosby, are you ready"
"Yes" she said softly, she took a deep breath and closed her eyes, she couldn't feel anything but pressure
"Do you want to hold her" Dr. Anderson asked, she looked into Sidney's eyes and nodded, a nurse wrapped the tiny baby in a blanket and laid her on her chest, Jessica placed her arms around her and stared at the little girl
"I love you so much" she whispered, Sidney wiped his eyes and stared at the baby "it's ok because I know you are in a better place, your sister and all of your aunts and uncles and grandparents and extended family love you too" she said, Sidney wiped more tears away, they both looked up as the cries filled the room
"Here he is" Dr. Anderson said holding him up "we will get him cleaned while you spend time with her" he said
"Daddy is right here" Jessica said, Sidney leaned down and kissed his baby girl softly before breaking down into tears
"I love you" he said to her "I love you so much MaKenna" he said he leaned his head on Jessica as they both sobbed "I want everyone to see her" he said, she nodded as the nurse looked at them
"We will get her cleaned for you" she said taking her gently, Jessica reached for her as the nurse walked away but quickly wrapped her arms around her husband "it hurts so bad" she sobbed
"I know baby, I love you so much" he said kissing her head
"Here is your little boy" another nurse said handing Jessica the small baby
"He is so little" she said, Sidney gently rubbed the baby's cheek
"He is so beautiful" he said, she nodded her head.
*****
"Sidney" Jessica said, Sidney turned and looked at the bed
"How do you feel" he asked walking to her
"Sore, where is Keegan, how long was I asleep"
"A little over an hour, and Keegan is in NICU, he weighed 2 lbs so they have him in a incubator, but he is doing ok" Sidney said
"MaKenna?"
"She got cleaned up, she weighed 1 lbs, when your ready we are going to go down to the chapel and they will bring her in so everyone can see her" he said, Jessica nodded
"Good morning Mrs. Crosby how are you feeling" Dr. Anderson asked
"Tired"
"Expected, Keegan is doing beautifully, after you see MaKenna you will be able to go see Keegan" he said Jessica nodded "are you ready"
"I don't know" she said
"You don't have to go if you don't want to, your body just went through a lot" Sidney said
"I want to see her" she said
"I will send a nurse up with a chair" Dr. Anderson said
*****
"I love you" Nikki said leaning down to hug her, Jessica wiped her tears
"I love you too" she said not letting go of her daughters hand, the room was filled with everyone as they looked in the small bed, MaKenna looked much smaller than when Jessica held her, once everyone was finished they took the baby and Jessica was sent to NICU to see Keegan
"Sid, you ok" Nikki asked grabbing him
"This is going to be a long road" he said before following the nurse down the hallway
"No" he said sitting down "I just don't understand why this happened" he said Trina frowned and sat down next to him.
"Son sometimes things happen that we can't control, we can look on the good side and know that MaKenna is in heaven and that Keegan will be with us" she said Sidney wiped his eyes
"I feel like I've let her down, she didn't even want another baby right now, I kinda forced it on her"
"But she agreed"
"But she didn't want to, then it was twins....she was so sick and I was constantly gone and if I wasn't gone we were arguing about stupid stuff or I was being an asshole and now....MaKenna is gone and I just hope and pray that Keegan will be alright but I know Jess and this is going to slowly kill her, this heartache and this guilt she feels"
"Is the same thing you feel Sidney, Jessica knows how much you love her even when your being an ass. Married couples argue and have problems but you work on them, this isn't going to be easy but you have her and she has you, you have the entire Pittsburg area supporting you, and you have friends and family who love you so much, we will be here for you" she said, Sidney looked at her and began to cry "it's ok to hurt and it's ok to cry, don't forget that and don't let her forget that" she said
"Sidney you are wanted" Taylor said, Sidney wipe his eyes "they are about to take her back"
"Let's go in and pray before" Trina said, Sidney walked to Jessica who was now awake and looked scared
"Let's say a prayer for MaKenna" Troy said
"Yes, please" Diana said squeezing her daughters hand, once Troy started Jessica realized it was the prayer for a stillborn and the pain cut her even deeper, she squeezed Sidney's hand and he leaned down to kiss her head
"We are going to be ok" he whispered, she bit her lip and nodded. Everyone began to take turns hugging them before exiting the room
"Wait, were sorry were late" they heard, they looked at the door to see the entire team, 3 of his coaches, dan bylsma who he still remained close with and several of the girlfriend and wives, Jessica looked up at Sidney who looked shocked
"We postponed the next few games" Marc said
"We wanted to be here with you guys, were family" Geno said, Sidney smiled
"We love you guys" Vero said stepping up, Jessica gasped and Vero walked up fighting back tears, she sat down on the bed and hugged her best friend, both girl started to cry
"Were here for you sid" Mike Johnston said
"Thank you guys"
"Addison and Greyson are here" Vero said moving the hair from Jessica's face "do you want to see them"
"5 more minutes please" Dr Anderson said stepping trough the crowd Sidney nodded
"Bring them in" Sidney said
"Mommy" they heard, they turned to the door to see Lauren Lemieux holding a sleepy Greyson, Addison behind her a little frightened of the hospital scene
"Hi sweetheart" she said as Lauren brought Greyson closer
"Daddy" Addison said running to him
"Hi princess" Sidney said picking her up, Lauren gently sat Greyson on the bed.
"Babies ok mommy" Greyson asked
"Baby brother is ok" she said moving his blonde hair
"What about sissy" Addison asked, Sidney sat down on the chair next to the bed, Verc
o wrapped her arms around Marc trying to stop crying
"Sissy isn't going to be coming home with us sweetheart, her heart wasn't strong enough" Sidney said trying to find the words to describe it
"Sissy die" Greyson asked, Jessica looked at Sidney
"Sissy went to be with the angels" Sidney said
"But we will get to bring home Keegan" Jessica said, both Greyson and Addison nodded
"It's time" Dr. Anderson said
"We will see you both in a little bit ok" Sidney said
"Ok daddy" Greyson said
"Love you mommy" Addison said, Jessica hugged everyone before looking at Sidney
"Remember we are going to be ok, if you want to hold her I support that decision" he said she nodded her head and looked at Dr. Anderson
"Were ready" she said
*****
"You ok" Sidney asked, she looked up at him and nodded
"Ok Mrs. Crosby, are you ready"
"Yes" she said softly, she took a deep breath and closed her eyes, she couldn't feel anything but pressure
"Do you want to hold her" Dr. Anderson asked, she looked into Sidney's eyes and nodded, a nurse wrapped the tiny baby in a blanket and laid her on her chest, Jessica placed her arms around her and stared at the little girl
"I love you so much" she whispered, Sidney wiped his eyes and stared at the baby "it's ok because I know you are in a better place, your sister and all of your aunts and uncles and grandparents and extended family love you too" she said, Sidney wiped more tears away, they both looked up as the cries filled the room
"Here he is" Dr. Anderson said holding him up "we will get him cleaned while you spend time with her" he said
"Daddy is right here" Jessica said, Sidney leaned down and kissed his baby girl softly before breaking down into tears
"I love you" he said to her "I love you so much MaKenna" he said he leaned his head on Jessica as they both sobbed "I want everyone to see her" he said, she nodded as the nurse looked at them
"We will get her cleaned for you" she said taking her gently, Jessica reached for her as the nurse walked away but quickly wrapped her arms around her husband "it hurts so bad" she sobbed
"I know baby, I love you so much" he said kissing her head
"Here is your little boy" another nurse said handing Jessica the small baby
"He is so little" she said, Sidney gently rubbed the baby's cheek
"He is so beautiful" he said, she nodded her head.
*****
"Sidney" Jessica said, Sidney turned and looked at the bed
"How do you feel" he asked walking to her
"Sore, where is Keegan, how long was I asleep"
"A little over an hour, and Keegan is in NICU, he weighed 2 lbs so they have him in a incubator, but he is doing ok" Sidney said
"MaKenna?"
"She got cleaned up, she weighed 1 lbs, when your ready we are going to go down to the chapel and they will bring her in so everyone can see her" he said, Jessica nodded
"Good morning Mrs. Crosby how are you feeling" Dr. Anderson asked
"Tired"
"Expected, Keegan is doing beautifully, after you see MaKenna you will be able to go see Keegan" he said Jessica nodded "are you ready"
"I don't know" she said
"You don't have to go if you don't want to, your body just went through a lot" Sidney said
"I want to see her" she said
"I will send a nurse up with a chair" Dr. Anderson said
*****
"I love you" Nikki said leaning down to hug her, Jessica wiped her tears
"I love you too" she said not letting go of her daughters hand, the room was filled with everyone as they looked in the small bed, MaKenna looked much smaller than when Jessica held her, once everyone was finished they took the baby and Jessica was sent to NICU to see Keegan
"Sid, you ok" Nikki asked grabbing him
"This is going to be a long road" he said before following the nurse down the hallway
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I'm sorry its super sad, I promise things will get happier... On a better note I added Keegan to the characters, he is sooooo cute and its what I vision their baby to look like :) of course when he gets a little bigger since he was premature