Status: a re-upload. currently active.
Shades of Gray
[ten]
At 2 AM, Josh asks me if I'm feeling alright.
I don't reply.
At 3:23 AM, Josh asks me if I want a cold washcloth or something.
I stay silent.
At 4:17 AM, Josh comes back from the coffee shop, stores a coffee in the Hot Cabinet, and sips the other offhandedly.
A few minutes later, he tells me I have a fever of 101.3.
At 5:55 AM, Josh is taking a quick nap to recover from his coffee crash. I haven't moved in nearly four hours.
Somewhere between 6:03 and 6:07, a hot sweat breaks across my forehead, and the feeling is back.
I am not asleep.
It feels like I am too much. Like I am trapped in a box I don't fit inside. The ticking of the clock doesn't match the fast frequency of my heartbeat. I am so afraid of nothing.
Josh wakes up at 6:45, probably because he has a class at 8. He doesn't glance at me until the hot coffee from hours earlier is in his hands. I feel like shit.
He asks me if I'm okay. I say no. He checks my temperature again. Josh doesn't even tell me what it is. He just dials 911.
I can't move.
I don't reply.
At 3:23 AM, Josh asks me if I want a cold washcloth or something.
I stay silent.
At 4:17 AM, Josh comes back from the coffee shop, stores a coffee in the Hot Cabinet, and sips the other offhandedly.
A few minutes later, he tells me I have a fever of 101.3.
At 5:55 AM, Josh is taking a quick nap to recover from his coffee crash. I haven't moved in nearly four hours.
Somewhere between 6:03 and 6:07, a hot sweat breaks across my forehead, and the feeling is back.
I am not asleep.
It feels like I am too much. Like I am trapped in a box I don't fit inside. The ticking of the clock doesn't match the fast frequency of my heartbeat. I am so afraid of nothing.
Josh wakes up at 6:45, probably because he has a class at 8. He doesn't glance at me until the hot coffee from hours earlier is in his hands. I feel like shit.
He asks me if I'm okay. I say no. He checks my temperature again. Josh doesn't even tell me what it is. He just dials 911.
I can't move.
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so i was contemplating whether or not to put this with the other part. i will not. therefore, this one is short, but i feel like it speaks for itself.