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Your Inaccessible Light
“Numbing the pain for a while will only make it worse when you actually feel it,” is what Austin once said to me. That was the moment I realised he was too far gone. He was too caught up in that horrible sick mess and it was too late for him to get out. He knew that. I knew that. Maybe other people knew that too, but they just pretended they didn’t, or they didn’t care enough to help.
Ronnie reminded me of Austin. Ronnie was arrogant and rude and aggressive and troublesome, sweet and funny and honest, all at the same time, just like Austin was. Ronnie was dangerous and my head was begging me to run as far away from him as was humanly possible, but my heart was forcing me to stay. It was my chance to do things over, but this time do it right.
I knew from the start it wouldn’t be easy, but I never imagined just how hard it would be. It brought back memories from my past, some of which I wanted nothing more than to forget. It’s hard to move on from Austin when I see so much of him in Ronnie. Maybe it’s worth it.
Ronnie reminded me of Austin. Ronnie was arrogant and rude and aggressive and troublesome, sweet and funny and honest, all at the same time, just like Austin was. Ronnie was dangerous and my head was begging me to run as far away from him as was humanly possible, but my heart was forcing me to stay. It was my chance to do things over, but this time do it right.
I knew from the start it wouldn’t be easy, but I never imagined just how hard it would be. It brought back memories from my past, some of which I wanted nothing more than to forget. It’s hard to move on from Austin when I see so much of him in Ronnie. Maybe it’s worth it.
- 'What's Your Name Sweetie?'
- 'You Don't Think I'll Let You Get Away With That'
- 'People Are Scared of Me For A Reason Noelle'
- 'Does He Bring A Lot Of Girls Here Then?'
- 'You Better Get Used To It'
- 'You Like It, Don't You?'
- 'Liar'
- 'I've Never Even Kissed A Boy'
- 'Living A Little? I Think You’ll Find It’s More Like Dying A Little?'
- I Find Myself Strangely Addicted
- 'I Never Had Myself Down As A Pushover'
- 'And You Call Me A Liar'
- 'Stop Staring At Me Creeper'
- 'Girls Are Objects To Him'
- 'I Wanted To See You'
- 'I Swear To God I'd Hit You Right Now'
- 'I Wish I Could Say The Same'
- 'What's There To Celebrate?'
- 'I Didn't Know You Have A Brother'
- 'He Was Like You'
- 'Only Cos You'll Kill Me If I Don't'
- 'Do What I Said Ronnie'
- 'Your Definition Of Fun Sucks'
- 'Crazy Is The Best Way To Be'
- 'My Mum Left Me'
- 'Why Would I Want To Go Out With You?'
- 'Sometimes I Wish There Was'
- 'You Don't Talk About Feelings In General Ronnie'
- 'It's A Silly Habit I Will Some Day Break'
- 'You're Mine, Not Theirs'
- 'Ronnie Will Get Killed If Dwayne Finds Out'
- 'You Just Kissed Me'
- 'You Don't Need To See That'
- 'You Shouldn't Have To Take Any Shit For Me'
- 'Ronnie You Can't Just Leave Me'
- 'You're A Drug Addict!'
- 'Don't Take It Out On Everyone Else'
- 'This Isn't About Me Noelle!'