Infamous

"1961 was when TJ and I first met...it was November 25th and I was out patrolling the streets. Making sure the vampires were in check and behaving because at that time, we didn't want humans knowing about us. And I came across a vampire who was walking alone on Ricket bridge. I figured he was new to the area because I had never seen him before. And me being an officer, I knew everyone. So I decided to introduce myself" He took another deep breath and I could tell that he was very uncomfortable with talking about this. I felt slightly guilty about making him talk about it but this needed to be said. I needed to know why TJ torched my wedding. I had to know.

"So I stopped him and asked him what his name was...and said he went by TJ. I had asked him where he was headed. His answer was that his clan was killed but he was the only who had survived the slaughter. So we moved far away and stumbled upon the town where I had lived" Chris looked at me and nodded for him to keep going.

"I felt for him. You know? Your clan members are your family. And it's tough losing anyone in your clan. But imagine losing all of them and you being the only one to live" I felt a pang of sadness for TJ. Only because I couldn't imagine losing anyone in my family. And I couldn't think about losing all of them...I didn't want to think about it.

"So...I offered him sanctuary. I offered him a place in my family and he accepted it immediately with happiness and it made me happy as well. So I brought him home after I did my patrols and introduced him to everyone. The guys seemed to like him a lot and he fit in with us just fine. After a few months though, TJ and I began a romantic relationship, after realizing we liked each other more than just friends" I couldn't help but roll my eyes. Chris smiled apologetically at me and placed his hand over mine before continuing.

"It was great in the beginning. We spent all of our time together. You know going out on lunch dates and then more romantic dinner dates. Just being near each other was amazing. And one year later, I had finally realized that I was in love with him. So one night, over a romantic dinner I had prepared for us. I told him how I felt. And what made me happy was that he felt the same towards me. We were together and in love. After that night, we were the perfect couple...until 2 years later" I lifted Chris's hand to my lips and placed a soft kiss on it, to.comfort him. Because I had a feeling that he was gonna need it.

"Entering our third year together, I began to notice that TJ was acting...weird around me. He would leave for hours at a time. Not telling me where. Every time I would kiss him, he would feel uncomfortable and push me away. I would try to spend time with him, he would make excuses of why he couldn't and then he would leave. And I would tell him that I loved him and he would say it back...but I could see the lies in his eyes..."Chris's voice cracked and I could see the tears forming in his eyes. I moved closer to him and put my arms around his shoulders. No matter how pissed I was, I couldn't help but feel sadness for my Chris. Talking about this must have been harder than I thought for him. But I'm tired of the secret.

"So after a few months of the dismissive behavior. I got suspicious enough to follow him. So one night, after his excuse of why he had to leave. I decided to trail him. I had excellent stealth abilities, so he never knew I was following him. So as I'm following him, I noticed that I vaguely recognized the area he went to. There was a house there too but I didn't recognize it. Only the area it was in. So, I stayed hidden behind the trees that surrounded the house and watched as he approached the door. He knocked a few times and waited." Tears were streaming down his cheeks and he brought his hands up to his eyes. My heart shattered as my love began to sob in front of me and all I could do was hold him in my arms and comfort him.

"When the door opened...I couldn't believe my eyes...I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. I never felt pain like that before. I truly believe I was feeling the pain of heartbreak" He spoke after managing to calm down a little. I placed a soft kiss to his temple.

"Who was it baby?" I whispered in his ear. He turned his head and looked at me before speaking.

"Danny" As soon as he spoke, my heart dropped, my jaw dropped and my.eyes literally popped out my skull. Wait....WHAT???

"Danny as in...Worsop???" My voice was full of shock and absolute disbelief. Chris nodded and I could see a flash of anger in his eyes.

"I stood in the trees, watching as they kissed each other on the lips, moving on to full blown making out. And I knew. I knew right then and there that TJ had been seeing Danny for months. It all made sense to me. The constant leaving, the secrecy, the rejection, the distancing. All of it came into play" My mind was still trying to process the fact that TJ was sleeping with Danny....Okay Ew.

"What did you do?"

"I couldn't stand to watch...so I ran home, immensely upset and I just ignored everyone in the house. I just couldn't bring myself to speak to anyone because I was so hurt and so angry. The man I loved betrayed me in the worse way possible and with the worse person possible. So I stayed in my room all night until TJ came home the next morning. And I confronted him. TJ knew he had been caught so he told me everything" I hummed for him to go on.

"He explained to me that he met Danny a year before but he didn't tell me because he knew about Danny and I's past. So they were secret friends. And I had never noticed. Then he went on to explain that he started to develop feelings for Danny and that they had started to sleep together. Then TJ had said he was falling in love with Danny and was falling out of love with me, hence the weird behavior...but that's not the worst of it" Chris sighed and looked up at me.

"They had been planning to kill me and the rest of the clan members" Now it made sense. Everything. The hatred towards TJ, the avoidance of TJ, the violent reactions from.everyone on the TJ topic. Now I know why. And ultimately...I had my reason to kill him.

"What did you do after?" I asked, striking his hair. Chris shrugged before wiping his eyes.

"Believe it or not..I still loved him...and I couldn't bring myself to kill him. So I told him that I wanted him to leave and I never wanted to see him again. So he did. But the pain didn't stop there. I was so heartbroken that I started drinking heavily. Everyday I would drink until I didn't know who I was anymore. I would sleep with anyone, just to make the pain stop. Just to make it go away because I couldn't handle it. After I'd sleep with them, I would kill them afterwards, so I didn't have any reminders of the disgusting person I had became. I was so far under...that not even Austin could help me"

"For almost 50 years, I hated myself. I destroyed myself everyday. I hated everyone and everything. Until I looked at myself in the mirror....and saw this monster staring back.at me. I didn't even recognize myself anymore. And it terrified me. So I decided enough was enough. I couldn't keep living like that. I couldn't keep living in the past, holding onto a hope that it was one big nightmare. So...I stopped drinking and I stopped killing so ruthlessly. I had returned home. And when I did, something happened, that changed my life" He looked at me, a small smile on his lips and I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Well what babe? I can't read minds" I chuckled at him. He leaned forward and pressed a kiss to my forehead.

"I heard the most cutest laugh in the world. I was so captivated by it and I yearned to hear it again. So I followed the giggle and it led me to a room. Where I saw the most beautiful man in my entire life. Despite the nasty bruise around his eye, he was still gorgeous" I blushed a little and looked down, biting my lip as I remembered the day we first met.

"I knew, when our eyes met, that the past didn't matter to me. TJ didn't matter to me. Because I knew that I would love you more than anything in this world. It's you Kade...your the one I belong with. Your my everything baby" Chris brought his hands up to my face.and cupped my cheeks, looking into my eyes. I gazed into his and I saw pure love swimming around in them.

"I love you" He whispered gently. I smiled brightly as I cupped his cheeks as well.

"I love you too baby" I whispered before bringing his lips to mine with force and fiery passion. I felt as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and by the way this kiss felt, I could tell he felt the same. I was so happy that Chris finally opened up to me. Even though I knew it hurt him, I was still happy he told me the truth.

Chris really did love me more than anything.