I'm Not Okay

After they took Bryce away and cleaned me up I was sent into recovery, Gerard followed me every step of the way, and he would constantly tell me how proud he was of me or thank me. Back in my room, my mom and Mikey were waiting for me.

“So how’s my grandson?” My mom asked.

“He’s perfect. They’re cleaning him up and he should be here real soon.” I said, as I sat back down in my bed, my belly was really sore from just being cut open.

“So, I got the car seat,” Mikey said pointing to the box in the room, “I just don’t know how to put it together.” He said nervously scratching the back of his head.

“Oh little brother, that’s why I’m here.” Gerard said and they went to work on putting it together.

“So baby,” My mom said as she sat on the edge of my bed, “How are you feeling?”

“Not bad, it feels good not to be pregnant.” I said and we both laughed, “But my stomach is a bit sore.”

She gave me a sad look then kissed my head.

“So, what’s my grandbaby’s name?” She asked.

“Bryce Antonio Iero-Way.” I told her, Gerard’s head popped up when he heard Way.

“Iero-Way? Are you sure Frank?” He questioned.

“You seemed real when you said you were gonna be a part of his life, so as long as you promise not to leave us or anything yeah.”

“I swear on my life Frankie.” He said as he leaned down and pecked my lips.

“Not to interrupt the touching moment but this still needs to be built Gerard!” Mikey said waving around some pieces. We both laughed and Gerard went back to putting together the car seat with Mikey. My mom and I were talking about what I would do with the baby when I went back to the band, my mom offered to watch him whenever she was available but I would probably hire a nanny for when the times she wasn’t. Before we knew it the hour had passed and Dr. Shannon came in holding Bryce in her skillful arms.

“Okay Frank, looks like someone has been waiting to see you again.” She said as she came over with my baby.

Gerard and Mikey dropped what they were doing and came over to my bedside as she handed Bryce over to me. He wasn’t crying anymore, just looking around at all the people. He looked at me and I looked back at him and it was a moment that will I forever remember. Soon he let out a yawn and I couldn’t help but smile at how cute that was.

“Aw, is my baby tired?” I asked him then kissed his forehead.

“I wish I could hold him so badly.” Gerard said very sadly.

“Do you think we can lay him on your chest? He’s not that heavy.” I suggested.

“He’s six pounds and nine ounces. How many stitches do you have Gerard?” Dr. Shannon asked him.

“I got staples instead, I got six of them.”

“Hmm, we could lay him down on your chest, but you mustn’t move with him, and hold his feet down. We don’t want him kicking your injury.”

Gerard violently nodded and I made room for him on my bed and he laid down, I tucked Bryce’s hands and feet in his blanket and laid him down on Gerard’s chest. Gerard cuddled him close and placed kisses all along his forehead. Bryce made a noise of protest and we all laughed.

“Sorry peanut, I just want you to know how much I love you.” He said then kissed him one more time before holding him close. Everything was fine for a few minutes before Bryce scrunched up his face and started to cry again.

“What’s wrong peanut?” Gerard asked him.

“I think he’s hungry, I’ll be back with a bottle.” Dr. Shannon said before leaving.

I took Bryce out of Gerard’s arms and held him in mine as I waited for the bottle, there was no way Gerard could feed him without lifting him up, I think he might be able to change a diaper or give him a bath. Bryce kept crying in my arms and it was a sound no parent wanted to hear, thankfully Dr. Shannon didn’t take long to come back with his formula. When I took it and placed it to his mouth, he instantly started to drink it.

“Whoa my baby sure was hungry.” I said and giggled. Gerard sat up and wrapped his arms around my shoulders and kissed the corner of my mouth.

“You know, you and I sure did make a cute baby.” He told me.

“We sure did.”

“Can I hold him?” My mother asked.

“Sure.” I smiled at her and passed him along after I burped him. She started gushing over him and making all sorts of faces at him while Mikey and Gerard went back to building the car seat. While they were doing that Dr. Shannon and me fill out the birth certificate and told me we could leave the next day. I smiled and thanked her for everything before she left then turned all my attention back to my baby after Mikey got the chance to hold him.

When night time came around Mikey and my mom left for the night while Gerard stayed with me and Bryce, Mikey was gonna come back the next day with some clothes for Bryce to wear and my mom was going to meet my and Gerard back in my house after I get discharged. While it was just me and Gerard, I took a picture of Bryce sleeping in my arms and sent it to Ray and our manager Brain to tell them I got the baby. Both of them told me congratulations and they wanted to come and visit him but I told them I was out of state and as soon as the two of us got back in town they could come visit.

I kinda felt bad about lying, but I needed to protect my baby.