Hardest Part of This Is Leaving You
There first meeting
4 years ago...
"Welcome to McDonalds." A girl with black hair and pale blue eyes said odvioulsy not wanting to be there.
"I'll have a number 3 with no cheeze, large frys and a coke."
"And is that it?" she asked.
"Yes that is it."
"Okay your total is 4.32. First window please."
"Ok thank you." so as the young man drove up in a black nison someone caught his eye.
"Ok 4.32 please." she said as he handed him a 5."Thank you." so as she gave hin the change and his food he thoght'wow...'
"Ummmm...sir?" she asked.
"hummm?"
"Your kinda holding up the line."she laughed.
"Sorry." Gerard said driving awat to the local park to find Mikey, Frank, Ray, and Bob.
"What took so long?" Mikey asked schooching over for his brother.
"Getting my food. What else would I be doing?"
"I know that look on your face."
"What look?" he asked while taking a bite of his Big Mac.
"He met someone." Ray said steeling Bobs frys.
"Maybe , but I have a girlfriend so what dose it matter?"
"Everything." Frank said as hafe his chicken flew out of his mouth."Woops."
"Gerard," Bob said as he accidentaly picked up teh hafe eaten chicken."You are a los- hey ewww whose chicken was this?" he asked spitting it out.
Everyone pointed to Frank because he was the only one with chicken.
"If I were you, id run." Ray whispered as Frank ran only to be tripped by a tree root. Everyone laughed.
"Thanks Ray now I wont have to kick his little white ass. The tree did it for me." Bon said sitting back down to enjoy his lunch.
Then a girl who was taller then Frank, with noticable red hair walked up to Frank and helped him up.
"Elle to the rescue!!!!!!!" Mikey said.
"Who am I rescuing? She said as she took Franks spot.
"Bob was gonna kick Franks ass."
"I want to sometimes." she said steeling some of Franks left over frys."But no one can ever stay mad at Frank."
"Im still mad that he stole my eyeliner." Gerard cut in.
"No, you stole my eyeliner first. Then I stole it back." Frank said walking up and slapping Gerard.
"You scrawny midget."
"You wanna go biznach?" he said trying to act ghetto.
"I'll kick your ass." Gerard said laughing at his little friend.
"It seems that Frank wants his ass kicked today." Mikey said finishing up his food and tossing it into the trash bin.
"It seems that way." Gerard said resting his head on the picnic bench. Thinking about the girl he saw at McDonelds. Eventually falling asleep. So everyone left Gerard there to rest. Someone woke him up with a gentle shake.
"Sir, sir...are you okay?
"Humm," he shot up."Oh yeh im fine."
"How long have you been here?"
"I dont know what time is it?"
"6."
"Ive been here 6 hours."
"Sleeping?"
"Sleeping." he said while rubbing his eyes.
"Alright," she said standing up. "I just wanted to make sure that your alright."
"Thanks," he said. "Wait, arnt you the girl from McDonelds?"
"Yeh, how do you kno-" she pased. "Your the dude who backed up the line."
"Yeh, im Gerard."
"Amy Lee." she smiled.
"I like that name."
"It was my grandmothers."
"My grandmothers name is Elena."
"Thats a very beautiful name." So she sat back down. They were talking for another hour or so. Then a black nison XT pulled up and a girl with dark brown hair a little shorter then Gerard but a little taller then Mikey came up.
"Gerard Authur Way!!! Mom and dad are worried sick...and the band needs you!!!"
"Rebecca, all you had to do was call my cell."
"I did but it was the voice mail."
so he pulled out his phone and checked."Ok it was shut off."
"So come on, the band needs you."
"Yes mam" he gave her a look before he said to Amy Lee. "Wanna come watch?"
"Ummm...sure." so as she drove behind gerard she thought...
'Wow...hes acually nicet then I thought. His middle name is Authur...ha thats kinda wierd.' So when they stopped. She saw a old victorian style house with black shudders and cream color siding.
-KNOCK-KNOCK-
"Are you comming?" Gerard asked through the window.
"Yeh." she said stepping out of the car and onto the sidewalk.
"GERARD!!!" Rebecca cryed.
"What now Becca???"
"Nothing I just wanna annoy the hell out of you in front of your new friend." she eyed Amy Lee.
"Sister?" she asked stepping into the door.
"Unfortunitly." he laughed.
"Fuck you!" she said from the kitchen.
"Just gotta love sisters." Gerard sighed walking down stares with her following behind him. "Have any sisters?"
"Nope only child. My parents died when I was 16 so i've beem alone ever scence."
"Oh im sorry to hear that." he said stepping down. "Be carful of your head on the last step, we tend to nearly crack our heads open."
"Thanks for that note." she smiled as she casually went down the last step.
"No problem." he said walking tword the guys. "Im here."
"About damn time." Ray said plugging in the guitar. "Oh yeh your sister tramitized Frak."
"What did she do?"
"She went up to Franks and squeesed his moobs and said. "Man boobs. Then ran away."
"Gerard, your sister is a rapest and just dosent know it." Frank said also plugging in his guitar named Pansy.
"Moobs?" Amy put in.
"Man boobs." Gerard laughed.
"Oh." she smiled.
"Bob, Ray, Frank, and Mikey...this is Amy Lee."
"But please call me Amy."
"Nice to meet you Amy." They all said.
"Amy this is my brother Mikey." he pointed to the guy in glasses and a beany.
"Thats Bob."he said pointing to the guy sitting behind the drums.
"Thats Ray." pointing to the noticably taller one with a afro that could eat his head at any momment.
"And thats Frank." he pointed to the shortest with sleeve tattoo and multaple others. And a lip and nose ring.
"Hi." she just smiled.
"Oh, is this the gi-" Frank began to say but bob elbowed him in the stomach before he could finish.
"Ok lets rehurse." Mikey said finally plugging in his bass.
"Ok, but what song?" Gerard asked everyone.
-shrugs-
"Demolition Lovers?" he asked while grabbing his mic.
-they all nodded-
So the guitars began to play. The bass kicked in.
Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running
But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...
All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this
[x4]
As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun
And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever
"Wow..." was all that could come out of her mouth.
"Were that good?" Gerard said in shock.
"You are amazing." she said smiling.
"Yey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Frank said jumping on her.
"Oh...hi." she laughed.
"Frank, get off Amy." Bob said picking him up and dropping him on the ground.
"Gerard!!!!" Becca yelled.
"What now you tard?!"
"Oh very mature...anyways...Sammies here."
"Tard?" Frank asked.
"What you try living with her and seeing her 24-7."
"It sucks to be you." Frank said as A girl with dark brown hair and blonde highlights cane down the stares.
"Hey Sammie." They all called out.
"Hey everyone." she said then looked at Amy. "Who are you."
"Amy Lee, but everyone calles me Amy."
"Nice to meet you." Sammie said and turned her attention to Gerard. "Did I miss band practice?"
"No acually It just begun."
"I pick the right times." she said giving him a kiss.
Amys phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Where the fuck are you?"
"Im at a friends. Whats it to you?"
"I want you home now."
"Why now?"
"If you dont i'll..."
"Ok, ok, i'll be home in a few minutes." She said shutting her phone. "I gotta get going."
"Why so soon?" Gerard asked.
"Its nothing, i just gotta go home." She said walking up the stares."Bye and nice to meet everyone."
"Bye." they all shouted.
So she made her way to the car and drove home. As she stepped inside Mike came out of the kitchen.
"What took you so long?" He siad comming closer to her.
"Traffic." she said simplely.
"You liar." He stepped even closer.
"Im not lying."
"I can see it in your eyes." He said grabbing both arms."What took you so long?!"
She just descided to say nothing and accept what was comming to her.
"Answer me bitch." he shook her.
Still she wouldent say anything.
"What the hell are you good for?" he threw her down on the ground. "Oh i know...NOTHING!!!!" then walked out of the house. When she had the energy she got back up to check to see how much damage he caused this time. She walked to the bathroom. She turned on the light and stood in front of mirror. She has bruses on both arms, and a torn and bloody lip, a bump on her head, and a barly noticable black eye.
"God, why do I put up with this? Is it because im afraid to leave him? Is it because if i do leave him what hes gonna do to me? Is it because if I leave him for another man he'll kill him or me? Is it because he's the only one who thinks im beautiful? But if he thought I was beautiful then why is he treating me like crap?" she said crying. She walked out of the bathroom and went into there bedroom. She took out her notebook and wrote:
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more (so much more)
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
(Return to me salvation)
(I want to die)
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ?
Tourniquet
My suicide
...then put back her book underher side of the mattressand fell cryed herself to sleep.
"Welcome to McDonalds." A girl with black hair and pale blue eyes said odvioulsy not wanting to be there.
"I'll have a number 3 with no cheeze, large frys and a coke."
"And is that it?" she asked.
"Yes that is it."
"Okay your total is 4.32. First window please."
"Ok thank you." so as the young man drove up in a black nison someone caught his eye.
"Ok 4.32 please." she said as he handed him a 5."Thank you." so as she gave hin the change and his food he thoght'wow...'
"Ummmm...sir?" she asked.
"hummm?"
"Your kinda holding up the line."she laughed.
"Sorry." Gerard said driving awat to the local park to find Mikey, Frank, Ray, and Bob.
"What took so long?" Mikey asked schooching over for his brother.
"Getting my food. What else would I be doing?"
"I know that look on your face."
"What look?" he asked while taking a bite of his Big Mac.
"He met someone." Ray said steeling Bobs frys.
"Maybe , but I have a girlfriend so what dose it matter?"
"Everything." Frank said as hafe his chicken flew out of his mouth."Woops."
"Gerard," Bob said as he accidentaly picked up teh hafe eaten chicken."You are a los- hey ewww whose chicken was this?" he asked spitting it out.
Everyone pointed to Frank because he was the only one with chicken.
"If I were you, id run." Ray whispered as Frank ran only to be tripped by a tree root. Everyone laughed.
"Thanks Ray now I wont have to kick his little white ass. The tree did it for me." Bon said sitting back down to enjoy his lunch.
Then a girl who was taller then Frank, with noticable red hair walked up to Frank and helped him up.
"Elle to the rescue!!!!!!!" Mikey said.
"Who am I rescuing? She said as she took Franks spot.
"Bob was gonna kick Franks ass."
"I want to sometimes." she said steeling some of Franks left over frys."But no one can ever stay mad at Frank."
"Im still mad that he stole my eyeliner." Gerard cut in.
"No, you stole my eyeliner first. Then I stole it back." Frank said walking up and slapping Gerard.
"You scrawny midget."
"You wanna go biznach?" he said trying to act ghetto.
"I'll kick your ass." Gerard said laughing at his little friend.
"It seems that Frank wants his ass kicked today." Mikey said finishing up his food and tossing it into the trash bin.
"It seems that way." Gerard said resting his head on the picnic bench. Thinking about the girl he saw at McDonelds. Eventually falling asleep. So everyone left Gerard there to rest. Someone woke him up with a gentle shake.
"Sir, sir...are you okay?
"Humm," he shot up."Oh yeh im fine."
"How long have you been here?"
"I dont know what time is it?"
"6."
"Ive been here 6 hours."
"Sleeping?"
"Sleeping." he said while rubbing his eyes.
"Alright," she said standing up. "I just wanted to make sure that your alright."
"Thanks," he said. "Wait, arnt you the girl from McDonelds?"
"Yeh, how do you kno-" she pased. "Your the dude who backed up the line."
"Yeh, im Gerard."
"Amy Lee." she smiled.
"I like that name."
"It was my grandmothers."
"My grandmothers name is Elena."
"Thats a very beautiful name." So she sat back down. They were talking for another hour or so. Then a black nison XT pulled up and a girl with dark brown hair a little shorter then Gerard but a little taller then Mikey came up.
"Gerard Authur Way!!! Mom and dad are worried sick...and the band needs you!!!"
"Rebecca, all you had to do was call my cell."
"I did but it was the voice mail."
so he pulled out his phone and checked."Ok it was shut off."
"So come on, the band needs you."
"Yes mam" he gave her a look before he said to Amy Lee. "Wanna come watch?"
"Ummm...sure." so as she drove behind gerard she thought...
'Wow...hes acually nicet then I thought. His middle name is Authur...ha thats kinda wierd.' So when they stopped. She saw a old victorian style house with black shudders and cream color siding.
-KNOCK-KNOCK-
"Are you comming?" Gerard asked through the window.
"Yeh." she said stepping out of the car and onto the sidewalk.
"GERARD!!!" Rebecca cryed.
"What now Becca???"
"Nothing I just wanna annoy the hell out of you in front of your new friend." she eyed Amy Lee.
"Sister?" she asked stepping into the door.
"Unfortunitly." he laughed.
"Fuck you!" she said from the kitchen.
"Just gotta love sisters." Gerard sighed walking down stares with her following behind him. "Have any sisters?"
"Nope only child. My parents died when I was 16 so i've beem alone ever scence."
"Oh im sorry to hear that." he said stepping down. "Be carful of your head on the last step, we tend to nearly crack our heads open."
"Thanks for that note." she smiled as she casually went down the last step.
"No problem." he said walking tword the guys. "Im here."
"About damn time." Ray said plugging in the guitar. "Oh yeh your sister tramitized Frak."
"What did she do?"
"She went up to Franks and squeesed his moobs and said. "Man boobs. Then ran away."
"Gerard, your sister is a rapest and just dosent know it." Frank said also plugging in his guitar named Pansy.
"Moobs?" Amy put in.
"Man boobs." Gerard laughed.
"Oh." she smiled.
"Bob, Ray, Frank, and Mikey...this is Amy Lee."
"But please call me Amy."
"Nice to meet you Amy." They all said.
"Amy this is my brother Mikey." he pointed to the guy in glasses and a beany.
"Thats Bob."he said pointing to the guy sitting behind the drums.
"Thats Ray." pointing to the noticably taller one with a afro that could eat his head at any momment.
"And thats Frank." he pointed to the shortest with sleeve tattoo and multaple others. And a lip and nose ring.
"Hi." she just smiled.
"Oh, is this the gi-" Frank began to say but bob elbowed him in the stomach before he could finish.
"Ok lets rehurse." Mikey said finally plugging in his bass.
"Ok, but what song?" Gerard asked everyone.
-shrugs-
"Demolition Lovers?" he asked while grabbing his mic.
-they all nodded-
So the guitars began to play. The bass kicked in.
Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running
But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...
All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this
[x4]
As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun
And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever
"Wow..." was all that could come out of her mouth.
"Were that good?" Gerard said in shock.
"You are amazing." she said smiling.
"Yey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Frank said jumping on her.
"Oh...hi." she laughed.
"Frank, get off Amy." Bob said picking him up and dropping him on the ground.
"Gerard!!!!" Becca yelled.
"What now you tard?!"
"Oh very mature...anyways...Sammies here."
"Tard?" Frank asked.
"What you try living with her and seeing her 24-7."
"It sucks to be you." Frank said as A girl with dark brown hair and blonde highlights cane down the stares.
"Hey Sammie." They all called out.
"Hey everyone." she said then looked at Amy. "Who are you."
"Amy Lee, but everyone calles me Amy."
"Nice to meet you." Sammie said and turned her attention to Gerard. "Did I miss band practice?"
"No acually It just begun."
"I pick the right times." she said giving him a kiss.
Amys phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Where the fuck are you?"
"Im at a friends. Whats it to you?"
"I want you home now."
"Why now?"
"If you dont i'll..."
"Ok, ok, i'll be home in a few minutes." She said shutting her phone. "I gotta get going."
"Why so soon?" Gerard asked.
"Its nothing, i just gotta go home." She said walking up the stares."Bye and nice to meet everyone."
"Bye." they all shouted.
So she made her way to the car and drove home. As she stepped inside Mike came out of the kitchen.
"What took you so long?" He siad comming closer to her.
"Traffic." she said simplely.
"You liar." He stepped even closer.
"Im not lying."
"I can see it in your eyes." He said grabbing both arms."What took you so long?!"
She just descided to say nothing and accept what was comming to her.
"Answer me bitch." he shook her.
Still she wouldent say anything.
"What the hell are you good for?" he threw her down on the ground. "Oh i know...NOTHING!!!!" then walked out of the house. When she had the energy she got back up to check to see how much damage he caused this time. She walked to the bathroom. She turned on the light and stood in front of mirror. She has bruses on both arms, and a torn and bloody lip, a bump on her head, and a barly noticable black eye.
"God, why do I put up with this? Is it because im afraid to leave him? Is it because if i do leave him what hes gonna do to me? Is it because if I leave him for another man he'll kill him or me? Is it because he's the only one who thinks im beautiful? But if he thought I was beautiful then why is he treating me like crap?" she said crying. She walked out of the bathroom and went into there bedroom. She took out her notebook and wrote:
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more (so much more)
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
(Return to me salvation)
(I want to die)
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ?
Tourniquet
My suicide
...then put back her book underher side of the mattressand fell cryed herself to sleep.