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Hidden Bundle of Joy.
Chapter 17
I couldn't believe it, yesterday i woke up thinking it was just going to be an exciting day for Ashton and the boys with their album release and i was so proud of them turned into the birth of our little girl. Growing up when me and my friends use to talk about having babies and the birth some always said they would want a c-section because it would be less painful, but yeah the birth process is less painful but afterwards is horribly, i'm so sore an i can hardly move, i'm on painkillers and it's just a horrible time.
Yesterday after everyone left and it was just me, Ash and Ayla, we both just couldn't get over how precious she is. Our daughter, we made her together and she is the love of our lives. Ash went home for a bit to get a few things as i didn't have time to get anything and he didn't get the chance to get anything for him as i have to say in the hospital for another day or two. The nurses set up another bed for ash to sleep in, As much as i wanted to snuggle with him, it would have just been too uncomfortable one as its hosiptal bed and two my stitches in my stomach just wouldn't have liked it.
Ash told me this morning that Luke, Michael and Calum would be coming in at some point today. Of course they had to come barging in when i was feeding Ayla and my boob was basically out.
"CONGRATULATIONS" Michael shouted as he came in with a massive teddy bear
"please don't shout" Ash said
i pulled my hospital gown up a bit and shuffled Ayla a little. I mean i know i'm feeding my child, but having the boys here just makes me feel uncomfortable, i guess as time goes on i will feel less awkward breast feeding around people.
"Congrats guys" Luke and Calum said as they came in with Balloons saying "it's a girl" "congratulations"
"How did you get those balloons and teddy in without people seeing you" i asked
"have no fear, they have a place here with them" Luke said
Ashton told me yesterday when he came back that word got out that i was in the hospital, apparently a fan or someone was at the hospital saw him and my dad, maui and his family and put it together that i'm the reason they are here, but he also said they don't know why i'm here, they just think i'm sick.
which has caused some issue about Ashton leaving the interview and album release for me just being in the hospital. Some people saying it's what anyone would do when a loved one is in the hospital, others weren't so kind.
"can we hold her" Calum asked
"yeah once she's finished eating" Ashton said
"So what's it like" Luke asked
"it's the most amazing thing mate, i didn't think i could love anyone as much as i love her"
"Yeah, i swear i cant even describe how i feel" I said
"So who wants to hold her first" i said as Ayla finished
they all shot there hands up
"how about you Lukey"
"no fair, you're only saying that because hes Luke" Michael said
"Uncle Lukey gets the first hold" i said
Ashton took Ayla from me and went over to Luke while i sorted myself out
"Alright Luke, Sit back, support her head, don't hold her too tight"
"i've got it Ash, i've held a baby before"
i laughed a little, he was treating Luke worse than Lauren and Harry
"i just want you to be careful with my daughter"
Once Ashton was happy with the way Luke was holding her, he stepped back and i could see Luke and Ayla
"Hey princess, i'm your uncle Lukey"
"she's so cute guys" he said looking up at me.
He played with her little fingers and i just watched them.
"So when do you guys leave" i asked
"we only just got here, wanting us gone already Jesus" Michael said
"i meant leave for America you idiot"
"oh, well 3 days" Calum said
"can we hold her now" michael said
Ashton took Ayla from Luke and gave her to Michael, i could tell he was more on edge about Michael holding her than he was with Luke. Michael did pretty much the same as Luke did, just held her and looked at her in awe. She then went over to Calum, before resting with Ashton. I took pictures of Ayla with each boy.
"So what kind of dad do you think you're going to be" Luke said
"a good dad, she going to be in head to toe clothing until shes 30 and shes not going to any music festivals, i know the type of guys you go to those and she isn't going near them"
"Oh so an overly protective dad" Michael said
"Ash you're literally the type of guy, dads hate their daughter with. You're a boy in a band" I said
"you're dad likes me"
"Yeah but at first he was concerned that you were a band boy with no future, he only started coming around when he saw you were actually going somewhere with the band"
"Talk of the devil" Calum said we looked at the door and my dad was there
"Who" he asked coming in
"Oh Liv was just telling us how you didn't like Ashton being in a band at the beginning"
"Oh yeah, i secretly hoped it was only a fling, but look at us now" he said laughing
"that hurts Jay" ash said laughing
"Hey give it 16 years and Ayla comes home with a boy and you will know just how i felt"
"Oh Ayla's not allowed boys until shes at least 30" ash said seriously
"If shes turns out anything like her mother, you're in trouble" dad said
"Hay" i said
"I'm joking Liv" dad said
"So why are you here" i asked
"Oh am i not allowed to visit my daughter and granddaughter"
"Yeah, but i thought you had to work"
"I did but it was slow and Maui said shes fine on her own, so here i am"
"Do you want to hold her Jay" Ash said
"hand her over then" dad said
Seeing my dad hold my daughter, it's just amazing, but i also couldn't help but think about how i wished my mum was here for this moment. My mum holding my daughter, her holding her granddaughter, seeing the love in my mums eyes, but no she isn't here and she wont ever get to hold her and Ayla wont ever meet the most amazing women. i didn't even realise i started crying.
"why are you crying Livbear" Luke said
"nothing, it's silly"
"what is it babe" Ash said geting up and cover to me
"I just, seeing my dad hold her and thinking about how my mum isn't here"
"Oh baby" Ash said leaning down and kissing my forehead
"it's okay to feel emotional babe, but you're mum is here, shes all around us and she will be watching Ayla from her special place"
"I know, like i said i'm being silly"
"And Ayla-Mai has a part of your mum with her in her name Liv"Michael said
"Yeah"
a nurse came in and check on us and asked if i had done any walking today, reminding me that i needed to start to move and not just sit around
"So who wants to go for a walk" Ash said
"not me" i said
"Yes you babe, come one, Jay will stay here with Ayla and we will go for a walk"
"We should be gong now anyway, we have to do some stuff before America" Calum said
"It was good seeing you guys, if i don't see you before, have fun in America"
they all came and kissed me cheek and said bye to Ayla before they left
"Come on babe, up you get"
Ash helped me up and to say moving was painful would be an understatement, it was horrible pulling myself up and the way my stomach moved, oh my God
"you okay" Ash asked
"Yeah, yeah just hurts a lot"
"We'll go slow princess"
"see you in a minute baby" i said as we went by dad and Ayla
we slowly made our way down the hallway of the hospital, where my room was, you could go round in a circle in the ward to get back to the room, so thats what we did
"i'm so proud of you baby, i love you so much" Ashton said as we came round the corner to the room
"Thanks babe, i love you too"
"I still camt believe we have a little girl"
"me neither, i also can't get over how much she looks like you"
"lets just hope she goes up to be as pretty as you"
i ignored his comment and went back into the room and back into bed. That was enough walking for today, it was so sore to move. but apparently the more i move the quicker it's going to become less painful. Dad left us shortly after and we had a quick visit from Anne on her way to pick up Harry and lauren from school. We had a couple nurses come in and do check ups and see how i'm getting on and stuff. Day one of being parents went okay, i just cant wait to take her home and be settled at home.
Yesterday after everyone left and it was just me, Ash and Ayla, we both just couldn't get over how precious she is. Our daughter, we made her together and she is the love of our lives. Ash went home for a bit to get a few things as i didn't have time to get anything and he didn't get the chance to get anything for him as i have to say in the hospital for another day or two. The nurses set up another bed for ash to sleep in, As much as i wanted to snuggle with him, it would have just been too uncomfortable one as its hosiptal bed and two my stitches in my stomach just wouldn't have liked it.
Ash told me this morning that Luke, Michael and Calum would be coming in at some point today. Of course they had to come barging in when i was feeding Ayla and my boob was basically out.
"CONGRATULATIONS" Michael shouted as he came in with a massive teddy bear
"please don't shout" Ash said
i pulled my hospital gown up a bit and shuffled Ayla a little. I mean i know i'm feeding my child, but having the boys here just makes me feel uncomfortable, i guess as time goes on i will feel less awkward breast feeding around people.
"Congrats guys" Luke and Calum said as they came in with Balloons saying "it's a girl" "congratulations"
"How did you get those balloons and teddy in without people seeing you" i asked
"have no fear, they have a place here with them" Luke said
Ashton told me yesterday when he came back that word got out that i was in the hospital, apparently a fan or someone was at the hospital saw him and my dad, maui and his family and put it together that i'm the reason they are here, but he also said they don't know why i'm here, they just think i'm sick.
which has caused some issue about Ashton leaving the interview and album release for me just being in the hospital. Some people saying it's what anyone would do when a loved one is in the hospital, others weren't so kind.
"can we hold her" Calum asked
"yeah once she's finished eating" Ashton said
"So what's it like" Luke asked
"it's the most amazing thing mate, i didn't think i could love anyone as much as i love her"
"Yeah, i swear i cant even describe how i feel" I said
"So who wants to hold her first" i said as Ayla finished
they all shot there hands up
"how about you Lukey"
"no fair, you're only saying that because hes Luke" Michael said
"Uncle Lukey gets the first hold" i said
Ashton took Ayla from me and went over to Luke while i sorted myself out
"Alright Luke, Sit back, support her head, don't hold her too tight"
"i've got it Ash, i've held a baby before"
i laughed a little, he was treating Luke worse than Lauren and Harry
"i just want you to be careful with my daughter"
Once Ashton was happy with the way Luke was holding her, he stepped back and i could see Luke and Ayla
"Hey princess, i'm your uncle Lukey"
"she's so cute guys" he said looking up at me.
He played with her little fingers and i just watched them.
"So when do you guys leave" i asked
"we only just got here, wanting us gone already Jesus" Michael said
"i meant leave for America you idiot"
"oh, well 3 days" Calum said
"can we hold her now" michael said
Ashton took Ayla from Luke and gave her to Michael, i could tell he was more on edge about Michael holding her than he was with Luke. Michael did pretty much the same as Luke did, just held her and looked at her in awe. She then went over to Calum, before resting with Ashton. I took pictures of Ayla with each boy.
"So what kind of dad do you think you're going to be" Luke said
"a good dad, she going to be in head to toe clothing until shes 30 and shes not going to any music festivals, i know the type of guys you go to those and she isn't going near them"
"Oh so an overly protective dad" Michael said
"Ash you're literally the type of guy, dads hate their daughter with. You're a boy in a band" I said
"you're dad likes me"
"Yeah but at first he was concerned that you were a band boy with no future, he only started coming around when he saw you were actually going somewhere with the band"
"Talk of the devil" Calum said we looked at the door and my dad was there
"Who" he asked coming in
"Oh Liv was just telling us how you didn't like Ashton being in a band at the beginning"
"Oh yeah, i secretly hoped it was only a fling, but look at us now" he said laughing
"that hurts Jay" ash said laughing
"Hey give it 16 years and Ayla comes home with a boy and you will know just how i felt"
"Oh Ayla's not allowed boys until shes at least 30" ash said seriously
"If shes turns out anything like her mother, you're in trouble" dad said
"Hay" i said
"I'm joking Liv" dad said
"So why are you here" i asked
"Oh am i not allowed to visit my daughter and granddaughter"
"Yeah, but i thought you had to work"
"I did but it was slow and Maui said shes fine on her own, so here i am"
"Do you want to hold her Jay" Ash said
"hand her over then" dad said
Seeing my dad hold my daughter, it's just amazing, but i also couldn't help but think about how i wished my mum was here for this moment. My mum holding my daughter, her holding her granddaughter, seeing the love in my mums eyes, but no she isn't here and she wont ever get to hold her and Ayla wont ever meet the most amazing women. i didn't even realise i started crying.
"why are you crying Livbear" Luke said
"nothing, it's silly"
"what is it babe" Ash said geting up and cover to me
"I just, seeing my dad hold her and thinking about how my mum isn't here"
"Oh baby" Ash said leaning down and kissing my forehead
"it's okay to feel emotional babe, but you're mum is here, shes all around us and she will be watching Ayla from her special place"
"I know, like i said i'm being silly"
"And Ayla-Mai has a part of your mum with her in her name Liv"Michael said
"Yeah"
a nurse came in and check on us and asked if i had done any walking today, reminding me that i needed to start to move and not just sit around
"So who wants to go for a walk" Ash said
"not me" i said
"Yes you babe, come one, Jay will stay here with Ayla and we will go for a walk"
"We should be gong now anyway, we have to do some stuff before America" Calum said
"It was good seeing you guys, if i don't see you before, have fun in America"
they all came and kissed me cheek and said bye to Ayla before they left
"Come on babe, up you get"
Ash helped me up and to say moving was painful would be an understatement, it was horrible pulling myself up and the way my stomach moved, oh my God
"you okay" Ash asked
"Yeah, yeah just hurts a lot"
"We'll go slow princess"
"see you in a minute baby" i said as we went by dad and Ayla
we slowly made our way down the hallway of the hospital, where my room was, you could go round in a circle in the ward to get back to the room, so thats what we did
"i'm so proud of you baby, i love you so much" Ashton said as we came round the corner to the room
"Thanks babe, i love you too"
"I still camt believe we have a little girl"
"me neither, i also can't get over how much she looks like you"
"lets just hope she goes up to be as pretty as you"
i ignored his comment and went back into the room and back into bed. That was enough walking for today, it was so sore to move. but apparently the more i move the quicker it's going to become less painful. Dad left us shortly after and we had a quick visit from Anne on her way to pick up Harry and lauren from school. We had a couple nurses come in and do check ups and see how i'm getting on and stuff. Day one of being parents went okay, i just cant wait to take her home and be settled at home.