Hidden Bundle of Joy.

Being home with Ashton has been nice, it's just been me, Ash and Ayla enjoying family time, we've taken day trips out like to the Zoo, park, beach. Of course there has been some unhappy tweets about Ashton not being with the band and once again the blame is put on me forcing him to come home when he should be out there. But do these fans not realise he isn't just Ashton from 5sos anymore, he's a father and there's a little girl growing up who needs her daddy and daddy needs to see her grow up too. She might only be 7 months, but a lot happens in the 1st year of a child life.
Ashton has taken Ayla to his mums as i have to go to the smoothie shop, plus it's his last full day here and it's nice for him to have a daddy daughter day.
I grabbed my bag and a shoes before leaving the house, i took the all familiar route to the shop and parked up taking over from dad who was looking like he needs about a weeks sleep
"whats up with you" i asked as i walked round the counter
"long day of bill paying, taxes, booking you know shop owner requirements"
"sucks for you daddy-o, well here i am to take over"
"good, here's the keys, your're closing"
he left and i got right into work, cleaning the tables and sorting the place out. Every so often a customer would come in and i would serve them but apart from that it was a slow day.
At around 2 hours after i started a group of girls came in.
"hi what can i get you" i said as they got up to the counter
"we'll have 4 strawberry and bananas"
i went to make them
"3.25 or 13 if paying together" i said as i set the drinks down.
"So like can you get Ashton to come here, we know hes home" one girl said
"i'm sorry, i cant he's at his mums, he leaves tomorrow"
"why did you make him come home anyways" another said rudely
"i didn't make him, he made the decision to come home to see his daughter"
"i bet you just had her to make him stay with you"
I snapped, i normally can handle this stuff online, i just laughed it off but them having the nerve to say it to my face made my blood boil
"are you serious, i'm so fed up of the bullshit that is thrown at me day in and out. Say whatever the fuck you want about me, but don't you dare bring my daughter into this"
"you could always just leave him, it would be for the best" one said not even phased by my outburst
"best for who? little girls like who you think they would have a chance with him? because i don't think it would be the best for my daughter to grow up with separated parents, he's hardly here as it is. It wouldn't be best for me or him. The only people it would please would be the people not involved in our relationship. He's not going to suddenly date one of you because he left me"
"exactly like you said he's hardly here anyway so whats the point" one rolled her eyes at me
"the point is, i love him, he loves me. We have a daughter, we are a family. we are in a grown up relationship for 3 fucking years, this isn't petty primary school love sweetheart, now would you kindly leave"
I watched them get up and leave, i fell back against the counter and looked around the empty shop, i still had another hour and half till close but i decided i'm going to close early and head home, i am done for the day.
I tided up the seating and made sure everything was in it's place for tomorrow and hung up my apron as i gathered my belonging and headed out to my car. I sat in my car for a minute trying to compose myself. How much longer can i take this kind of abuse. Why do some of these people think it's okay to say this stuff to my face, would they say it if Ashton was standing next to me, would they even dare to. Do they think it's okay. Do they think i'm not human and don't have feelings.
I left a few tears drop before i started to drive home. As soon as i parked my car in my drive my phone went off, i was expecting it to be my dad questioning why i left. but Ashton's ID showed up. i took a deep breath to make sure my voice doesn't sound like i've been crying before answering
"Hey babe" i said
"hey, so where are you"
"At home" I replied
"oh, well Ay and I just went to the smoothie place to pay you a visit and it's closed, i thought you were working"
"i was, i closed early, please come home"
"babe, what happened, it doesn't like you're about to cry"
"just come home" i clicked off and ran into the house and collapsing on the couch.
about 15 minutes of my just staring at the ceiling while laying on the couch i saw Ashton arrive with a sleeping Ayla and i watched him go into her room and come back out to the living room.
"what happened Li"
"okay, well i was minding my own business the shop was empty when these young girls came in, i want to say they were like 14 15 and they were like can you get Ashton to come here and i was like no then they started saying shit like why did i make you come home, i only had Ayla to keep you around, you should leave me and shit and i snapped and told them to leave and i closed up and came home" i rambled on
"baby, i am so sorry"
"i know, but like when is it going to end, they always seem to find something to hate me"
"i don't know baby, i don't know" he pulled me close to him and kissed my forehead
"i just have to put my foot down and say something, i wont have them talking about Ayla like that"
"can i please just make a huge ass statement on your account"
"my account or the bands account" he questioned
"the bands"
"i don't know babe, maybe just write it on your twitter then i will link it to the band account"
"okay fair enough"
i pulled out my phone and sat up straight now leaning against him and went to work
"hi everybody, i just wanted to say you can call me a bitch or whatever after this but i've honestly had enough. I've had enough of people talking shit about my daughter, i could put up with you all hating me for whatever useless reason you have but when you bring my daughter into this that's crossing the line. I don't know why some of you think it is okay to abuse me on the internet constantly, i really don't know why a few of you think it's okay to come up to me in person and sya nasty things about me, my relationship and my daughter. Telling me i only had my daughter to keep Ashton around is hurtful not only towards me you are all targeting but you are also hurting Ashton, she is his flesh and blood too. I DID NOT have our daughter to keep him around, do you know how how terrified i was when i found out i was pregnant at the worst possible time for his career, it was a struggle i went through a lot during my pregnancy to make sure his career was okay, would i have done that if i just wanted to keep him to myself? no i wouldn't and why would i, we have been in a relationship for 3 years, we are very committed to each other and you telling him he deserves better than me or that he should leave me wont make it happen and it sure as hell wont make him come running into the arms of some 14 year old fan who spent their spare time talking shit about the mother of his child. You all just need to take a step back and question what are you doing. i am a human who has feelings, just because i am in a relationship with your "celebrity crush" or whatever doesn't give you the right to bring me down every fucking day. It does not give you the right to come up to me in my place of work and abuse me with hurtful words towards my family. Like it or not i am here to stay. I am in no way forcing Ashton to take time away from the band during this world tour. All his decisions to come home are up to him, the band and his management. I just simply get told when he will and will not be here. If Ashton had it his way, myself and our daughter would be on the whole world tour but that just inst practical with a 7 month old baby. Yes remember that our daughter is 7 months old, Ashton wants to be with her as much as possible, he is gone for a good chunk of her first year of life, without a doubt he is going to miss important milestones she is going to make. Do you know how hard that is for him to know, do you even care? But he is out there going on tour to see all of you, doing what he loves, being with his best friends. He isn't going anywhere, i am not going to make him leave the band. That is the last thing i want. I love 5 Seconds of Summer, i love Luke, Calum and Michael i wouldn't do that to them. Remember this has been a big change for not only me and Ash, but the boys too, they are all a part of this. Just remember this every hurtful thing you type or say to me isn't just hurting me, it is hurting Ashton too and the boys too. If you think you can just say this stuff and they wont know, they know, they see it. They get upset and hurt and frustrated questioning why people can be so cruel, calling me asking if i am okay. Am I okay? no not really. but i put up with it because i am in love with Ashton and at the end of the day that is all that matters. Just please show a little respect or just be kind. We Are a family

Olivia"

i hit send without Ash even looking over it, i didn't care i wanted it out.
"wow babe, i kne you wanted to make a big statement but i didnt think that big"
"Sorry but enough is enough"
"i know baby, i know. I love you remember that"
"i love you too"
"I Know this probably isn't the best time, but i have some news for you"
"okay shoot"
"So being in America is going to be a lot harder for me to get home, but if you are willing i can get you and Ayla out for the Billboard Awards and then travel with us until we hit Florida and go to Disney World for her first birthday"
"you want me to travel to America on my own with Ayla"
"yes, but before you freak out, it's about the only way i will see you guys until the tour is over"
"oh"
am i ready to fly across the world with her, i mean she will be almost one. i saw Ash look at me with such pleading eyes.
"okay" i breathed
"you'll come out"
"yes i will come out with Ayla"
"i love you princess so much"
"love you too"
So looks like come June i will be flying to the united States of America with a nearly one year old on my own. This surely will be eventful