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I Give Up - A New Old Love? Part 2
RECAP (because it's been an extremely long time since I have updated these):
~ Chapter 4: I Give Up &&Section 1: A New Old Love? **Part 1** && ~
'February 25, 2008 - 8:42 PM
He still hasn’t answered. He keeps saying I don’t know. He’s just going to ignore the fact that I like him. Which hurts worse than no…
I give up. I’m never going to have a boyfriend. At least my naturally low hopes kept me from being affected. I'm not sad and I’m not surprised...
~ Emy (Emethyst)'
I looked over my small entry. 'This is the end...' I thought solemnly. I threw my journal across the room onto my desk. It landed perfectly in place with a tiny thud. I sighed then walked over to my bed...and cried. Not because of his answer. Not because of something worth crying about. I cried...because I knew what I said in my journal was true. I cried because I never would be loved. Then Eric called...
"Hey E-" he said stopping abruptly. He could always tell when I was sad or scared. "What’s wrong?"
"Nothing," I said choking back tears, trying to get my voice to sound normal.
"Come on Emy. You can't lie..." he said playfully but still concerned.
"I’m never going to get a boyfriend. No one will ever love me!" I said bursting into a fresh set of tears.
"That’s not true!" he said.
"Yes it is!" I screamed, rocking back and forth with my knees up to my chest.
"No! Its! Not!" he said, "Someone loves you!"
"Like Who?" I asked through my sobs
END RECAP
"Well..." he said, hesitant.
"See! I told you no one loved me!" I cried.
"NO! It's just...I...I...UGH!!!" he screamed. I stopped my sobbing momentarily, shocked by his scream of frustration.
"W-what?" I stammered, trying to help his frustration.
"I've...been...waiting...and waiting..." he started, "to..tell you...that...for awhile...that...I've...been having some...feelings...for...you..."
I paused. "W-what?" I asked, utterly confused.
"Please don't make me say it again Emy..." he said.
"I-I..." I started.
"I knew I shouldn't have!" he yelled at himself, "I knew she'd never like me! I'm sorry Emy, that was to much, I'm so sorry! If you don't want to see me again...I'll stay away. We don't have to be friends anymore. Really, it's ok, tell me right now you don't want to be friends because I know it's true!"
"No!" I said, surprised he would think that, "I still want to be friends...but are you saying you...l-love me?"
"Um...y-yes..." he stuttered.
'He loves me? No way. Not Eric. But what about the time...NO! There's no way...but there is...' I thought as I forced myself to block out all my thoughts to hear what he was saying.
"Emy...do you...do you feel the same way about me?" he asked shyly.
"I...
~ Chapter 4: I Give Up &&Section 1: A New Old Love? **Part 1** && ~
'February 25, 2008 - 8:42 PM
He still hasn’t answered. He keeps saying I don’t know. He’s just going to ignore the fact that I like him. Which hurts worse than no…
I give up. I’m never going to have a boyfriend. At least my naturally low hopes kept me from being affected. I'm not sad and I’m not surprised...
~ Emy (Emethyst)'
I looked over my small entry. 'This is the end...' I thought solemnly. I threw my journal across the room onto my desk. It landed perfectly in place with a tiny thud. I sighed then walked over to my bed...and cried. Not because of his answer. Not because of something worth crying about. I cried...because I knew what I said in my journal was true. I cried because I never would be loved. Then Eric called...
"Hey E-" he said stopping abruptly. He could always tell when I was sad or scared. "What’s wrong?"
"Nothing," I said choking back tears, trying to get my voice to sound normal.
"Come on Emy. You can't lie..." he said playfully but still concerned.
"I’m never going to get a boyfriend. No one will ever love me!" I said bursting into a fresh set of tears.
"That’s not true!" he said.
"Yes it is!" I screamed, rocking back and forth with my knees up to my chest.
"No! Its! Not!" he said, "Someone loves you!"
"Like Who?" I asked through my sobs
END RECAP
"Well..." he said, hesitant.
"See! I told you no one loved me!" I cried.
"NO! It's just...I...I...UGH!!!" he screamed. I stopped my sobbing momentarily, shocked by his scream of frustration.
"W-what?" I stammered, trying to help his frustration.
"I've...been...waiting...and waiting..." he started, "to..tell you...that...for awhile...that...I've...been having some...feelings...for...you..."
I paused. "W-what?" I asked, utterly confused.
"Please don't make me say it again Emy..." he said.
"I-I..." I started.
"I knew I shouldn't have!" he yelled at himself, "I knew she'd never like me! I'm sorry Emy, that was to much, I'm so sorry! If you don't want to see me again...I'll stay away. We don't have to be friends anymore. Really, it's ok, tell me right now you don't want to be friends because I know it's true!"
"No!" I said, surprised he would think that, "I still want to be friends...but are you saying you...l-love me?"
"Um...y-yes..." he stuttered.
'He loves me? No way. Not Eric. But what about the time...NO! There's no way...but there is...' I thought as I forced myself to block out all my thoughts to hear what he was saying.
"Emy...do you...do you feel the same way about me?" he asked shyly.
"I...
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WATCH OUT FOR THE SEQUAL (Outcast Love - ERIC - Is It Meant To Be?) TO SEE WHAT EMY'S REPLY IS!